sunday, 29th November 2009


overslept and only managed to reach HQ at 7.30..
though it's still earlier than others, but i aimed to reach at 7 de..
hahas..
saw Kalai on the way to HQ,
talked to her a bit about the dance and also about taking over next year,
and also about '08,
hope she understands what i mean.. hahas..
and then,
when i reached HQ,
nobody was in the hall,
and even more best,
the tables weren't laid out..
then the kids who were going to PD reached HQ,
so disturbed them for a bit,
before i went back to hall at close to 8am..
nobody there lor.. haha~ =P
then mama teng came,
then after rotting for a while,
people started coming,
then teddy bear sir came for his debut counting day experience.. LOL!
noob =P
then around 8+, we were thinking maybe we should 先下手为强
if not later no tables..
so we started getting tables to set up for zone 10..
then everyone copied us..
haha~
and i heard some seniors or officers screaming at their cadets
"you waiting for me yo carry for you is it?"
=.=
i dun like this kinda seniors..
in the first place, you yourself didn't even take the initiative to go get the tables,
or give instructions for them to do so,
so i dun think you have the right to scream at them like that,
because you, supposedly, should know better..
and when you yourself wait for people to initiate something,
i dun think you should be screaming away at your cadets or juniors like that...
heard that?
then we had counting day,
and '07s are seriously damn cute~
HAHHAHAH~
and stupid mushroom keep laughing laughing laughing..
haha~
no la, not stupid la..
LOLs..
and they got so excited over the one and only $50 note..
hahas..
and in the end they ended up so tired..
thanks kids! hope you had fun! hahas =P
esp with shaker fries right?
ROFL~~~~
and ZC is welfare de..
we're prolly the only zone who got something to eat as a whole..
thanks mdm! =)

then went home to bathe then went to tiong to meet mama teng and pris they all
to go to miss tay's celebration~ ^u^
in the end we were uper late..
LOLs~~~~
but really had fun,
talking crap,
zebra 线，
there is 没有板，
斑马line,
LOL xD
and,
playing with derrick sir's daughter!
apple is nice right? xDDDDD
and melting the chocolate,
settling the candles for the chocolate fondue,
playing poker..
King.Queen.Prostitute.Asshole.
HAHA~
and Mahjong!
someone "innocently" said
"我是按mouse的"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ xDDDDDDDD
and wanteng and priscilla were filming 床戏while we were playing mahjong!
hahas =P
and somehow i became 郑老师's actual..
ROFL..
and wanteng became Justin Chong instead of Aiden Chong last night..
hahas~ xD
in the end went home earlier cox i would've been killed if i reach home late..
too bad..
if not can play somemore..
haha~
thanks so much for inviting me 郑老师
hee hee~
had fun...
enjoy loads k? xD

okays,
now i shall go send emails.. ^u^
ZPN is this saturday..
LET'S GO! xD
JA~

H A P P I N E S S


these few days,
a few people told me something interesting,
that is,
i am someone who is easily contented...
that something very minor can make me happy,
or even very happy..
this made me realise something,
which is, to me,
happiness is something that is very simple,
happiness is just there,
it's just whether we identify it as a form of happiness,
whether we think it is happiness,
whether we treat it as happiness...
simple, what do i mean?
basically things like finding the pencil case that i thought i lost,
getting to buy something that i wanted,
getting to eat mummy's fried rice or yong tau foo,
getting to go to yeye's house and meet up with li hui they all,
getting to talk crap with Jie,
getting to pinch ah dan on his cheeks when he's cheeky,
completing my assignments ahead of time,
doing SJ stuff...
and many many more...
these things are so minor,
but these are things that makes me happy,
which means they are happiness...
you see,
happiness is not something that we need to try very hard for..
happiness is something that we appreciate in life..
simple stuff like that is happiness too,
and happiness in it's purest form...
cox it is just simply, something that makes you happy..
what else can happiness be, right?
that's what i think,
and when everything is supposed to be complicated,
having happiness that is simple is something that i appreciate..
and this, in itself, is my happiness..

so, what is your happiness? =)

F L A G D A Y


was kinda late for flag day..
sorry.. ><
it was rather chaotic today,
morning with chipmunk stressed out and mini explosion,
then to missing stuffs...
roaming without sir lee around is a lil tiring..
hahas..
but, we made it..
and thanks loads to mama teng! for the meal~
sorry we ate so much.. =X
overall, i think we didn't do that badly for flag day,
just that cox sir lee's not around,
we only did town area,
and with the limited time,
hmmmms,
but let's cross our fingers that we can get $10K~
GO GESSians!!!! xDDDDDDDDD
thanks loads to everyone who participated in this flag day,
otsukaresama deshita!(a job well done!)
rest well,
drink more water,
miss xiao lin stop eating eggs and chickens and heaty stuff,
sleep earlier tonight..
take cares! =D

L O S T


I freaking lost my beloved 4 years old pencil case...
with all my stationeries inside,
i think i lost it on saturday,
and i stupidly only realise now..
=.=
god damn it~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am freaking moody right now...
and i am freaking pissed with myself..
DAMN IT~
ARGH~

E L E A R N I N G


elearning starts this week,
and i shall make us of this to cheong everything for SJ,
especially ZPN...
sucky secretary=Poh Ting Xin...

then there is flag day on wednesday..
the 1st flag day without sir lee's car zooming around..
and lunch leh? sians...
tsk...
but then, armed with the 200 tins and with everyone,
i aim to get our $10K~
and gain back our top in zone, and possibly, top in whole SJ in SG.. ^u^
go GESSians! =D

okay, that's all for now,
i really look forward to ZPN...
but i'm scared too.. =X

well well,
okay, i need to shuddup and go do stuff le~
JA!~

P A I N F U L


i overreacted,
and nearly caused disaster...
but, seriously,
it's just so painful to me...
it's not just s little bit of pain,
it's cutting..
maybe because i included too much personal emotion,
maybe because here everyone is falling ill and still working hard,
such things happen, that threatens to crumble SJ if principals etc knew..
we are unanimously blacklisted in school by someone of authority,
and this kinda thing has to happen...
just when we are fighting to make 2010 a better year for all,
to change people's view of SJ,
to get back our gold,
to do better,
this came..
no doubt it's true that it happened,
but laugh at you? i dun think so,
and then, i would very much preferred if you told me in the face about this,
it's easier to improve this way..
i dunno, i just dunno,
i only know that it's really really painful..
and it's just so weird to be crying out of anger and desperation...

when sleeping becomes scary..



i had the worst headache of my life,
it begun when i was on the way to HQ for zone meeting..
i thought maybe i just needed some rest..
but during zone meeting, it felt worse...
but i endured through the meeting,
and on the way home,
i vomitted..
i thought something must be very wrong..
but i didn't dare say anything to daddy and mummy..
because if they knew,
then they'll probably ground me and ban me from every single SJ matter..
which is what i cannot afford right now...
only Jie knew about it last night before i came home..
i made her promise not to tell daddy, mummy, and anyone in zone 10..
because i don't want anyone to feel guilty..
it's not anyone's fault, AT ALL..
last night i didn't really use my comp,
and the work that i'm supposed to complete, wasn't completed, sorry.. ><
and when extra strong painkillers didn't help at all,
i suddenly got afraid..
because i thought there was sth very wrong if it hurts to this extend,
and the fact that even my nose and my jaws hurt..
i didn't dare to sleep,
because i was afraid i'll never get to wake up today..
i'm scared i'd just die like that..
in the end i slept at 2plus, 3...
and i didn't know how i fell asleep..
and, i lied to Ai Suan that it was a fren who got this headache,
to ask for advice..
Thanks Ai Suan..
really sorry that i lied to you.. ><
i didn't mean to, but then, i thought if i told you straightaway it's me,
you would've worried, or sth.. ><
sorry for being dishonest..
and sorry that i told you today morning and woke you up.. ><
but thank goodness that i recovered today morning..
if not i would've need to see doctor..
but i didn't go down to training today..
sorry '07..
i've been skipping training too much.. =(
didn't mean to always do that..
really sorry..

now, i'm really thankful that i managed to wake up today..
and i shall do my best to complete all the things i have to do..
JA~