12/7/12

remembering unpleasant thoughts

Feeling totally 心痛 right now for jie.
The only positive thing is that for them it was more of a right person at the wrong time thing.
Then again this may also be a double edged sword that cause them more pain.
Feel really wasted for them.
But i guess in a way, this will make them become stronger and grow further from there.
I really do hope that, if they were meant to be, let them grow and learn and mature, and let them come together again in the future.
Somehow i just felt like for them, it's like an author's unfinished book.
An uncompleted story.
But at the very least, they will still stay close friends just like before.
I just really hope they opened up their hearts to each other and know full well how the other felt and thought.
If they didn't, it would be too similar.


Then again, they brought me back to thinking about what happened.
While i know myself enough now to understand that what happened was merely something like a mirage and that i didn't even feel as much "like" for 3ya as i thought i did, i somehow do doubt myself.
Maybe it's because i feel like a child who was given up on without knowing what mistake i made.
It felt like 3ya was a teacher who was exasperated enough to give up and didn't even bother enlightening me what went wrong.
And leehom's 你不知道的事 ever got me thinking whether 3ya did it all for a reason.
Or i made too many assumptions about too many things that things turned out this way.
But after so much all these months, coming to terms with it and stop thinking is the best way out.
It is pretty much very obvious that it was all not meant to be.
And it wasn't like it was love. Maybe it didn't even felt like like. HAHA.
Overcoming things really makes ppl stronger, inside out.


Fell in love with this particular song by Kelly Clarkson.
Very motivational and all.
The dance is kinda silly though. But nice and simple song.



"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, Stand a little taller"