12/28/09





benevolence.
the one word GESS needs now, as a school.

12/22/09

Hana Yori Dango


Finally finished watching HanaYoriDango, HanaYoriDangoReturns, HanaYoriDangoFinal!
finished it yesterday..
and i would say,
out of the 3 versions,
no doubt, in terms of details, looks etc,
Korean definitely wins hands down,
but i like the way Tsukushi is,
and the handling of emotions,
and the onscreen chemistry,
and the stupids hints and suggesting sth vibe
of the japanese version..
and MatsuJun is prolly the most maniactic Domyouji there is...
HAHA~ XDDDDD
but he expressed the character's emotions well too~~~
and i TOTALLY love how Tsukushi remains strong,
even after she knows there are ppl there for her,
unlike JanDi, who somehow
became rather weak? =X
HanaDan is damn good!!!!
watch it if you can!! =DDD




A R A S H I



and recently,
i've been listening to nothing but Arashi!!!!!
Arashi Arashi for DREAM~~~~!
LOLOLOL~~~~~
i realised that Arashi really satisfy everyone...
they've gotta various different style of songs..
it's interesting to listen to them~~~
xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
they are reaching 30, yet so hot!
HAHAHAHA =P
listen to Arashi kkk??? =3333333



R E C E N T



hmmmm,
recently, celebrated Ming Jie's birthday,
ate so much,
then on that same day,
went to PB's BBQ+ORD+Campfire..
did a lot of sai kang, which is the only thing i can do for them,
and talked and laughed a lot..
STUPID SWEEHONG!
ROFL LOR.....
he, said a lot of stupid stuff...
makes ppl laugh till no strength to carry stuff... HAHAHAHA
but had fun..
Thanks loads!!!! =))))))))))
and,
Mr Baka #1 is already 17!
finally..
Happy Birthday! =)
too bad you didn't get to see Lee Min Ho..
HAHA =P

hmmmm,
2009 is coming to an end,
but the things i have to do is piling up and increasing..
LOL...
okay,
gotta go..
JA~

12/18/09

K Y O U


today, had ASTATs and BF test,
i can already be certain about my results.
LOL..

thanks Buin for the present,
my 1st xmas present for 2009...
although both Phoebemama and i already knew what you would get,
but i really like the present! xDDDDDDD
will pass you your peacock soon as promised!!! xDDDDDD

and then,
a series of photos appeared on facebook,
one of them looked like this:





brings back loads of memories..
and hamster was goddamn small sized back then,
and he still is!
haha =P
it's been 2 years,
how's everyone doing?
and that,
made me think of sinma'07 too..
how are you guys doing?
ahhh~
i'm getting so nostalgic..
haha~ =P

and i would like to talk about platoon 4..
under the 英明领导(this is self proclaimed by him =X) of Kah Meng Sir,
we got the best platoon back then..
and best platoon we are,
ppl who went to OTC this year,
Yi Jing, Jing Wei, Hong Lip, Cheung Weng, Keng Hui, Me,
were all from platoon 4.. =)
and then, next year going, Aaron Seah Pheng Loong!
hopefully maybe more P4'07s will go also?
^u^
i am proud to say that i came from P4'07,
bam bam warriors! =DDDDDDDDDDDD

and speaking of that,
i hope i can be PC4 in ANCO~
yes, i am certain i am going,
and i think i'm gonna fight to be PC4..
hahaha..
i hope i can bring up a bunch of ppl,
who would come back like us..

okay,
meanwhile,
i shall go cheong my Hana Yori Dango!!!!
xDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
JA~

12/15/09

D E C I D E D


i decided that i shall not use SJ as external CCA for poly anymore..
though up until now i was rather certain i would use SJ as external CCA,
what made me arrive at this decision is
1. the process is damn long and irritating, and there's not much time left to apply, and it's troublesome, and there's no point wasting time on it
2. SJ is not just a CCA
3. I didn't stayed on in SJ for it to be a CCA, and i NEVER want to feel that "it's for the CCA points" or "i need to do this and that cox it's CCA", NO. i dun want.

so 3 major reasons, i decided SJ is not my external CCA anymore.
so right now, i can stand tall and proudly say in ANYONE's face that i am serving SJ, literally.
Ting Xin is happy because that's a load off my shoulders..
been thinking about this matter for a while..
SJ would purely be my commitment and my love as of this moment. ^u^
B A D


i suck at my studies..
and no, SJ is not the cause..
i should slap myself awake right now and start studying.

and speaking of SJ,
it makes me feel like december is ending in a week..
and orientation etc all not settled..
damn it,
suddenly feels so scared and worried..
like wth...
okay, it's time i pull everything together...
and i guess i won't have time to do any xmas stuff..
cox i lagging in studies and SJ,
so i can only play catch-up to get things in line..
damn it, but it's too late, and too much of a waste of time, to regret..

12/10/09

SEA Games 2009!





OMG, i just started watching SEA Games,
and whoo hoo, Zach Ong, Quah Ting Wen, Tao Li won golds for singapore!!!
in 200m backstroke M, 100m freestyle F and 200m backstroke F respectively~~
ahhhhhhh
i love watching swimming...
it's just damn, breathtaking i would say?
it makes me damn nervous esp when they get neck to neck...
haha~ =P

okay, here's who's who...


Zach Ong Wei Shien









Quah Ting Wen






Tao Li






whoo hoo~
i've decided, i shall watch SEA Games everyday~ xDDDDDDDDD
and i tell you, Zach Ong is freaking cute...
megawatt smile, like HyunJoongie! haha~ =P
but Quah Ting Wen and Tao Li is cooler~ xDDDDDD

12/9/09

something's wrong...


There has been a period of time when Jie listens like JiHoo Sunbae would..
and we talked talked talked..
but somehow i think that's stopped,
at least for now..
it's understandable, afterall, we're both busy,
and she's tired..
but it just feels悲しみ...
=X

and i'd like to apologise to everyone who's kena my bad attitude...
sorry,
i've been moody and over-sensitive and too much...
><
is it okay to just cry?
would there be a JiHoo sunbae of mine out there?
can someone just lend me a shoulder?

12/7/09

何とか,悲しみ


when you are feeling angry,
when you say something out of anger,
you simply think that things would be alright after your anger is gone,
after a while...
but have you ever thought about it,
that the person receiving your words of anger,
would actually feel hurt?
and they may not be okay to begin with,
and your words simply made things worse?
so, next time,
before you start getting pissed off,
before you start talking when you're angry,
before you start venting your anger on someone,
before you throw your temper without thinking,
grab a hold of yourself,
freeze,
and think through before you spout nonsense...

here's a story i'd like to share..
once, there was a baby born with hands that can kill with a single touch,
but this power can only work when the baby hates or wants to kill the person he is in contact with...
his mother found out about this when he killed his pet dog with this power,
while trying to protect his younger sister from being bitten by the dog...
after that incident,
his mother held him tightly and told him,
"you must never hate anyone"

this story is actually from a drama,
i summarised a bit of stuff..
but from this, i learned something...
no doubt, there is no such power, killing with a single touch,
but, i think that, from this,
i learned that i should never hate anyone,
firstly, hating is tiring, and is too big a burden,
but another thing is that,
when you hate, your simple, normal and innocent hands,
can become hands that commit crime,
be it hit or kill,
because of hate, these hands can become empowered with the negative emotions,
and do something that is wrong..
and become hands that kill,
just like in the story...
so dun hate, k?

okays, that's all for today..
JA~..

12/6/09

Zone Presentation Night 2009


It's finally over...
the ZPN that took us 6 months...
(although we really really worked on it prolly from oct onwards =X)
it has been a memorable experience,
and i learned a lot,
and i think, compared to during OTC,
i get to know ZoneX's 17/09s better..
thank you everyone for the hard work,
and thank you for the experience..
somehow, i'm feeling a lil sad that it's over so quickly..
haha..
hope to work with you all again..
esp xiao en!!! =DDDDDD
thanks so much!!!!!! =)

and, at the end of ZPN ytd,
after we finally finished packing everything in the hall etc,
down came a bomb that made me really feel like crying...
it's definitely my fault,
i failed the kids,
because i understand how much of a letdown it was,
to them,
i understand that feeling,
and i myself hated that feeling,
but in the end, i didn't manage to prevent them from undergoing those feeling..
they got pissed, they called me,
but i couldn't account to them properly at all,
i couldn;t say anything except sorry...
it just sucks,
when i couldn't do anything except apologise...
it made me feel like crying,
but,
i dun have a right to be crying,
and i think they would feel like crying more than me...
i am to be blamed,
for getting your hopes up,
and having the event now in uncertainty..
i dunno..
but i feel that, they might no longer trust me, my words, or actions..
i wonder what i should do now,
and it's not like i dun want the event,
i dunno..
i just feel like such a failure right now...
i, till now, still can't say any other thing other than sorry...
i hate myself...

12/2/09

S J A B


today, had a nice talk with xiao en!
and i said 1 sentence to her,
"17/09, we're the beginning of a new era of CHANGE. rmb the faith in yourself. rmb the strength in you"
sounds familiar?
this is what i interpreted from William Sir's character building sessions for us throughout the whole of OTC..
the road we are walking on is a never-ending...
whether to end or not, depends entirely on you yourself..
the road may be empty, meaningless, too tiring to you...
but instead of abandoning the road,
why not make changes to it and make it a trip that is enjoyable?
a trip worth walking?
we may complain all we want about what is not within our power...
but, changes, can start at the very very basic...
by changing bits and pieces of a puzzle, the picture that you get would become different...
this is what i stand by and what i believe in...
there are many things in this world that i can't place faith in,
there are also many things that i have yet to discover..
but i have made up my mind to walk this road till the end of my time...
and when i get tired, i'll just pause, turn around, and look at the scenary that i have walked past,
and remember the memories that i am creating right now,
and then get back on the continuous journey along this path...
you may want to ask me,
where did i get my strength from?
why am i talking about staying on forever when i'm only 17?
are you just talking cox you are still young?
you sure you can continue?
you think you can last?
i wonder too...
maybe as many told me
"this year just pass out, it's like that de, everything also do"
etc....
that may be true,
but, i will strive to prove all these people wrong,
and simply do what i love best,
continuing on my never-ending road of SJAB...
simply because i stayed,
not because of others, not because of CCA points, not because of peer influence,
it's simply because of love for St John Ambulance Brigade itself,
because i like SJ,
because i love SJ,
because i like doing things in SJ,
because of the sense of pride in SJ,
because of how SJ can control my emotions,
because of how SJ can make me cry so easily,
because of how SJ has simply became something that's intra-veneous in me...
SJ, is just like the blood in my body..
it's just simply, SJ...
this road never ends,
till the end of my time...
I love SJ...
Do you?
=)