had lunch with Cherie today after work...
but what we ate was more like breakfast...
haha.. =P
thanks Hime-sama for eating lunch with me today!
=D
will start disturbing you real soon
haha.. =P

Went back to SJ today..
was kinda late..
didn't do much for training...
and then, and then,
hmmm..
today wasn't a really good day..
in a certain way..
but hopefully, i can resolve them, and SOON!
haha.. =P

wells wells,
was kinda inspired by Sir Lee a little today..
cox of what he told us..
i'll work hard!!!
promise!!!
haha.. XD
wants to feel more useful..
afterall, i benefitted so much from SJ...
learned so much,
changed..
=)
i owe SJ, BIG TIME!!
haha.. =P
throw me stuff to do!!
senpais, onegai~(seniors, please~) haha.. =P

and and,
wasn't really happy with certain stuff that i got to learn of..
=/
wells,
anyways,
it's for me to know, and you NOT to find out...
haha.. =P

wells, i'm really looking forward to March..
which is like, 1 day away...
LOL..
okays, that's not the point..
anyways,
March will be a good month for me..
=D

oh ya, Cheryl, Mdm Wendy is our ZC!!
haha.. =P
i can't believe she forgotten about it..
how much SJ stuff did you forget?
haha.. =P

oh ya,
Jin Yan,
don't feel guilty/sad over the CAA..
it's not your fault k?
relax~
cheer up, gal! =)

wells, that's all for today,
JA~
*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoTomaMassuYuichi XD*

i'm really disgusted with someone..
who is a TOTAL SNOB..
that someone, here's an advice,
PLEASE BLOODY HELL WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!
phoof~ let out the frustration in me..
haha.. =P

I'm feeling happy now!!

haha..
hmmm
recently,
am really happy..
because,
finally,
i am feeling like i'm doing stuff!!!
okays,
stuff for SJ...
although it's still like,
as good as nothing...
negligible
but still,
i feel that,
i'm doing a tiny tiny tiny bit of stuff
like,
i dun feel as useless as before?
=I
wells,
i hope that,
if possible,
let me do more stuff!!
i like having things to do!!!
doing things makes me feel happy..
yesyes!!
please,
throw me stuff to do!!
make me do stuff!! XD



okays,
about today..
went to Gym with Esther in the morning..
then, went to Tiong,
went home to put my dirty clothes first,
then went to Redhill to buy Kinder Joy,
then ate Lunch at BMC,
then went Esther's house!
we watched Hancock today..
and, hmmm,
Will Smith looks dirty..
haha.. =P
and he's such an a**hole in the first part of the movie..
but,
in the end,
ok-ok lor...
wells,
parts of the movie,
didn't like watching..
cox of
cutting off hands/arms..
><
and we ate the Kinder Joy...
Here's a pic of our ''surprises''





mine's the blue rubber monster..
Cherie got the Kero-chan,
and Esther got the hmmm.. racoon looking toy?
haha.. =P
anyways,
had fun today..
Arigato Gozaimasu~~ =D

wells,
then after that went ZM..
ST is so funny and cute!!
haha.. =P
when the senior officers were talking among themselves,
i was talking to ST..
haha.. =P
and and,
my ZC calls me ``Poh Ting``
ST said Jie is also ``Poh Ting``
LOL..
then after that,
ZC calls me ``ah Ting``...
haha.. =P
was telling ST,
''which one she calling? we both got Ting''
haha..

wells,
that's all for today..
JA~



*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoTomaMassuYuichi XD*

okays,

was lazy yesterday...

actually no..

i didn't get to use the comp much...

because Jie has become an addict to Pet Society on Facebook...

LOL..

and she even made me buy her stuff...

like...

0_0

anyways,

spent a fortune on her in Pet Society..

haha.. =P

wells,

yesterday,

i was enjoying my ''childhood happiness'' again...

cox of this:

hmmm..

it changed a lot ne?

like,

used to be called KINDER SURPRISE?

now it's KINDER JOY..

haha.. =P

and it's no longer a layer of chocolate egg shell...

it's cream or sth..

but oh wells,

it's still nice..

and the 2 choco balls,

taste like FERRERO ROCHER...

haha.. =P

wells,

that's all for yesterday then..

JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoTomaMassuYuichi XD*

Happy Birthday To Kame!
he's 23 already..
haha.. =P
Shobana,
pass my greetings..
XD

wells,
i'm so sorry..
my life's boring
so my post is boring too..
haha.. =P
JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoTomaMassuYuichi XD*

i am so tired of being ignored...
i realised my mistake,
admits to it,
takes initiative,
and yet,
what i get is,
ignore ignore ignore..
and then,
you simply act like nothing happened..
as though i didn't try..
what's wrong with me?
can you all just tell me?
i need your honesty and frankness..
i might be asking too much,
i'm so sorry..
i'll SHUT UP..

I am laughing uncontrollably after reading an article translated by a fellow fangirl online...
and the person being interviewed is:
KAMENASHI KAZUYA..
when he was younger though...
this is the part that i laughed a lot at...


Q4: I hear you want kids as many as being able to make a baseball(nine) team in future. Is this true?

A: The nine is just kidding~(smile)
But I want many kids.
I don't care if it's a girl or boy.
If it's a boy, I would play baseball with him.
If it's a girl, I would love her a lot(smile)
If she get a boyfriend,
I'd get mad definitely,
like, " What the hell are you doing?! Your boyfriend is me!"(smile)

LOL
Kame has a very obsessive-daddy trait back then..
wonders if he still think this way now?
haha.. =P

I was compless...
for a day..
cox MM sis needed her laptop back to do something yesterday..
wells,
woke up early yesterday..
so that i can pass MM sis the laptop before daddy goes to work...
and then,
didn't sleep..
ate breakfast and stuff..
and watched some TV..
then after that,
laze around and stuff..
and watched Ikekuburo West Gate Park
aka IWGP...
wells,
only managed to watch 2-3 episodes..
then decided to nap..
at around 6++pm...
cox after rain..
nice atmosphere for sleeping..
and,
i realised that i pigged all the way till 7++am today..
woke up cox of my alarm..
cox today got work in the morning..

wells..
then ate breakfast, bathed and stuff,
and went to work..

and,
i think,
i have PME..
you know how girls have PMS?
mine,
i guess, is E..
E for emo-ing..
cox i think i tend to get more EMO before my periods?
lol..
sorry, no offence..
wells..
i think so..
and like,
i think i am WAY TOO sensitive during this period of time...
haix..
oh wells..
maybe it runs in my genes..
=I

hmmm..
i seriously wonder if i make you all pek chek,
or buay song?
like,
i suddenly understand how Jin felt sometimes..
or maybe,
i suddenly understand how always Taguchi felt...
=_=
like,
i just hope that,
no matter what i do wrong,
please don't just keep quiet and say nothing...
please don't just ignore me like that...
at least scold me,
quarrel with me,
blame me,
etc etc etc..
that way,
at least i know whether i did something wrong
at least i can start working on the matter..
rather than you all keep tolerating with it,
and then i won't handle the problem,
and we suffer together??
>_<
i dunno..
maybe i'm asking too much..
i'm just hoping that you all can be frank...
i'm so sorry..

oh ya,
and,
i've started to watch CTKT!!!
and it keeps my emoness away..
haha.. =P

oh,
and i'm feeling frustrated right now..
I SO DAMN WANNA FLY TO JAPAN NOW AND CUT PI & JIN's HAIR!!!!
haha..
wells,
it's just that,
Pi's curly hair has been getting longer and longer..
and mind you,
LONG HAIR DOESN'T SUIT PI, AT ALL...
haha.. =P
but seriously la~
get a haircut, Pi~
as for Jin,
wells,
long hair ain't as bad on him..
but,
he needs a trim to make it look more stylish..
more, tamed...
haha.. =P

wells,
end of complains..
haha.. =P
JA~

*PiJinMinKameKokiNinoTomaMassuYuichi XD*

sians...
today, they're having training...
but i can't go down...
cox of the stupid boss...
change my timing...
like half the week morning,
half the week afternoon...
=_=
and same goes for next tuesday...
can't go training AGAIN cox of afternoon shift..
=_=
crap..
i can't wait to be rid of this job..
counted,
and i'm only left with 9 days..
I'LL ENDURE!!!!!!!
lol..
and after that i'm freed..
yay! then i have free time..
yes, FREE time..
haha.. =P

wells wells,
good thing is,
at least the job has 1 off day per week..
tomorrow is my off day..
and next week's is on Thursday...

okays,
today has been a boring day..
so,
my post is just as boring..

oh,
one more thing..
`Niji` By Nino is just soooooooo nice..
haha.. =P
JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoTomaMassuYuichi XD*

found the lyrics to Nino's `Niji`
okays, part of it may sound weird,
but i think,
the lyrics make me feel that the scenario is very cute...
like,
a high school love story kinda thing?
haha.. =P
very sweet..
especially the last part..
``to you for starting to blush, thank you``
XD
haha.. =P
oh, and,
i wasn't the one who translate it..
not so pro..
haha.. =P
kope-ed from some website..
here it is! =D


Niji-Ninomiya Kazunari
[虹]・二宮和也
Rainbow-Ninomiya Kazunari

itsumo sou yo
いつもそうよ
just as usual,

suneru to kimi wa
拗ねると君は
when you get upset,

watashi no daijina mono wo kakusu deshou
私の大事な物を隠すでしょう
you go and hide away my most precious things.

sono bashou wa kimatte onaji dakara
その墓所は決まった同じだから
but since that place (where you hide them) is always the same

kyou wa saki ni itte matte miru wa
今日は先に行って待ってみるは
today I'll try to be there waiting for you.

kisetsutachi ga yuuhi wo tsurete kite
季節達が夕日を連れて来て
the seasons are bringing along the setting sun

kage ga watashi wo mitsukete nobiru
影が私を見つけて延びる
and the shadows find me as they stretch.

bikkurishita kao de watashi wo mitsumete wa
ビックリした顔で私を見つめては
with a startled expression you fix your eyes on me,

kyuuni kuchi togarase "pui" tto soto miro wa
急に口尖らせ”プイ”とそと見るは
suddenly pouting your lips and looking away.

"gomen ne" to iu to
"ごめんね”と言うと
I tell you "I'm sorry"

"jaa, kocchi ni kite yo" to
"じゃあ、こっち来てよ”と
tell you to come here

"nee, hora, mite mite,"
"ねえ、ほらほら、見て見て
hey, look, look,

kage ga kasanatta...”
影が重なった。。。”
our shadows have overlapped..."

kasa ga butsukari, massugu arukenai
傘がぶつかり　真直ぐ歩けない
our umbrellas have collided and I can't go any further,

sonna watashi wo mite waratte iru no
そんな私を見て笑っているの
are you laughing at me right now? (because of the situation)

watashi mo yatte, misete ageru no
私もやって　見せてあげるの
I'll show you I can also do it,

onaji you ni kuchi wo togarasu
同じように口を尖らす
I can also pout my lips like you.

yasashiku warau kimi ga
優しく笑う君が
you smiling gently,

kono jikan ga kuukan ga
この時間が空間が
this time and place,

nakitaku naru kurai
泣きたくなるくらい
I feel like crying,

ichiban daijina mono dayo
いちばん大事な物だよ
because those are my most precious things.

waza to togaraseteru
わざと尖らせてる
I purse my lips on purpose,

watashi ni "gomen ne..." no henji wo matazu ni
私に”ごめんね”の返事を待たずに
and without waiting for your turn to say "sorry"

yashiku kisu shita no
優しくキスしたの
I go ahead and kiss you gently.

korekara wa chotto kurai no wagamama
これからはちょっとくらいのわがまま
from now on, this sort of selfish things

itte mo iiyo
言ってもいいよ
it's ok to say them,

demo watashi ni dake yo
でも私にだけよ
but only to me.

"mendoukusai kara" tte
”面倒臭いから”って
you say "it's too troublesome".

sunao ja nain dakara
素直じゃないんだから
that's not very gentle.

nante ienai no kana?
何て言えないのかな
I wonder why you can't tell me

"suki dayo", hitokoto yo
“好きだよ？”一言よ
that you love me, just those words.

tama ni wa kikitai na
たまには聞きたいな
because right now that's what I want to hear.

kyou wa watashi to kimi wa
今日は私と君が
today is the day our

myouji wo kasaneta hi
名字を重ねた日
family names become one,

ai wo mebuita hi
愛を芽吹いた日
the day our love sprouts.

"la la la la la..."

niji ga kirei dayo
虹がきれいだよ
ain't the rainbow beautiful?

iya, omae no hougano
いや、お前の方が
it's you who's really beautiful.

terehajimeru kimi ni
テレ始める君に
to you for starting to blush,

arigatou, arigatou....
ありがとう　ありがとう
thank you, thank you...

I'M UPER HAPPY RIGHT NOW!
cox i've finally completed my CPF application thingy!
FINALLY!!!
whoo~
haha.. =P

wells, wells, now i'm only left with:
1. complete and submit my forms envelope
2. enrol online
yay~
haha.. =P

and i changed my blog song..
this time, it's,
`Niji` by Ninomiya Kazunari..
a very comfortable song to listen to..
because it's not very emotionally charged...
like very,CALM..
haha.. =P
it's good to listen to it at night,
just before you sleep..
that's what i did yesterday actually..
haha.. =P

and,
am kinda sad over something..
I ONLY REALISED THAT YESTERDAY WAS CHANG MIN'S BIRTHDAY AT 23:43 LAST NIGHT...
hontoni gomenasai, Chang Min!
>_<
fails terribly as a fangirl of his..
wells..
anyways,
Jacelyn, i'm envying you right now!
cox you have the same birthday as Chang Min!
although different year,
okays, that was random..
haha.. =P

wells,
that's all for today!
=D
JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoTomaMassuYuichi XD*

I HATE CPF!
cox it nearly killed me.. >_<
wells wells,
i'm currently in the midst of filling up all the necessary stuff for admission to Poly..
and like,
CPF application is the WORST..
=_=
wells,
i just hope that 12th of march comes by soon...
that will be the day for my online acceptance of my place in NP..
then it'll be like buying laptops etc..
then the procedure over!!
YAY!!!
12 march!!!!
come quickly!!!
XD

okays,
come to think of it..
today i check my note book..
and i'm only left with around 14 days of work
after that i'm freed from it!!
yay!!!
LOL..

okays,
i'm getting random le..
sorry..
wire loose..
haha.. =P
runs off to watch RESCUE!!
XD
JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoTomaMassuYuichi XD*

went back SJ today..
and i think,i potrayed an image of ''scary'' on my sec 2s already..
haha.. =P
because of my ''5'' push-ups..
which basically is go ''down'' already, hold till i say ''up''...
but i'm nice okay, i did those push-ups with them..
haha.. =P
those push-ups,
i guess with etch in their minds..
and i'm so gonna continue using it..haha.. =P
you don't get to giggle during push-ups everytime eh?
the girls in the sec 2 squad were giggling away when in ''down'' position..
cox they can't hold in the position properly..
haha.. =P
and and,
miss NA2 leader,
she did with us also
and she said she can't even do 2 of that properly..
LOL!
WEAK skinny bamboo pole~ go train!!
haha.. =P
wells,
actually,
that kinda push-ups isn't my ''copyrighted'' idea
i just rmb that before my batch's ANCO,
Sir Kok How suddenly came down for one of the trainings,
then i think that day it rained,
so we were doing PT..
then he like take us,
and he made us do 50 of that push-up..
and i didn't managed to do all standard..
i think i start piak-ing onto the floor after around 30 standard ones..
or maybe even earlier..
haha.. =P
wells wells,
then after training,
was walking home with Kerri..
Kerri going Tiong direction..
then saw WT and miss NA2 leader..
they were at the bus-stop..
and Kerri and i were walking on the path of Tiong Bahru Park, which is parallel to the bus stop..
shouted towards miss NA2 leader, teased her for being WEAK..
then after that i shouted ''You remember to sleep ar'' in Chinese...
then like, WT was like
''say to me say to me''
then i blur,
thought she asking what i said..
then after that she shouted ''as in say to me''
then i shouted ''You remember to sleep ar'' to WT..
then she's like ''i try i try''..
LOL..
her and her funny replies..
haha.. =P

hmmm..
sian,
tomorrow gotta go Ngee Ann Poly..
to get help from the admin there..
cox got some problems in applying for using daddy's CPF to pay school fees...
sian..
my bus fare..
HAVING TO USE ADULT BUS FARE SUCKS, BIG TIME!
haha.. =P
i'm complaining, AGAIN~

hai.
well well..
that's all..
haix..
sian..
can't go training on Friday...
cox of stupid working schedule..
what i want most now,
is to get this stupid job over and done with..
haha.. =P

JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoTomaMassuYuichi XD*

Today is weird..
wells,
let's begin with the happier side of things..

had popsicle today!
Orange flavour!
*Cherie, i'm NOT into your Maruyama, shinpai nai~ =P*

miss eating popsicles..
reminds me of my childhood times,
while the adults are playing mahjong at big uncle's house,
my cousins, Jie and i would go downstairs,
then MY(name initials) sis will treat us to popsicles..
then we were always told to finish it before going back up..
if not later make a mess kena scolding..
haha.. =P
then sometimes we'll play at the playground first before going up..

hmmm...
come to think of it,
my childhood is a simple yet happy one?
haha.. =P

okays, now for the unhappy side of today..
sian.. =_=
Dan kena bully in school..
by 3 people somemore..
and today,
bloody hell,
one of them tore his homeowork list,
and also his maths workbook..
and all the teacher did was told me to write a report,
and then even complained to me that dan is also distracting blah blah blah...

YES, I KNOW HE'S IRRITATING.
BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT HERE!
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOU ARE HIM AND YOUR BOOK GOT TORN?

okays,breathes~
i dunno is it cox the teacher is irritated by dan then has prejudice against him or something..
but like,
even if my brother is the kind that look for trouble,
it doesn't mean that he deserves to be treated like this, right?

haix..
wells,
i'm so gonna come up with a UPER DETAILED REPORT.
and so gonna make sure the teacher arranges for parents to meet..
and i'm so gonna make sure things get settled PROPERLY..

okays,
breathes..
well,
today's really a weird day..
JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoTomaMassuYuichi XD*

I dehydrated from 11.00am to 2.11pm today..
LOL..
okays,
start from morning..
woke up at 5am,
bathe and stuff
then waited till 6am for mummy to wake up,
just so that she can sign my OTC form..
haha.. =P
then cheong cab to school..
cox i wanted to pass cadets their breakfast..
biscuits..
haha.. =P
then after that a lot of stuff happened..
as usual,
i'm the bad guy..
LOL..
but, sec 2s, rmb what i said ar~
don't look like you haven't wake up fully..
wells wells,
then as usual Total Defence Day in school..

and then after that went to Tiong to meet Hui Ying for breakfast..
ate KFC platter..
not really say very nice
so-so nia..
then like after that went FairPrice jalan..
cox still early..
then took MRT to Raffles place..
reached at 10am..
then sat at the curb/seat blah blah thing..
wells,
bad at description as usual..
LOL..
wait there, read newspapers and stuff..
and as more and more people come to the event venue to get freebies,
it gets Uper crowded..
and it gets stuffy,
and the Sun gets scorching..
and i baked myself and dehydrated for 3 hours..
haha.. =P

then went back to Tiong via MRT..
went to buy kinder bueno for Baka#1..
who was asking me for ''lunch'' via sms..
haha.. =P
then went to meet Cheryl at mac..
Siew Huai, Oenry, Yong Qing were there...
Sophia and Jun Rong, were eating there too...
haha.. =P.
then went to buy bubble tea with Siew Huai and Hui Ying...
then Cheryl they all finish eating came over,
and we walked back to school..
and a small boy opened side gate for us..
thanks loads, kid!
haha.. =P

then went to change from my jeans to shorts..
so happy to be rid of my jeans..
jeans are thick and stuffy..
haha.. =P
then went around,
slacked for quite a while,
and around 4pm,
went into the room sec 2s were in..
and really lost control for a moment when sec 2s were putting the chairs and tables back..
cox they were conveniently dragging the tables, chairs and their boots..
and i shouted a kinda really loud ''Samura''(okays, that's how i pronounce it.. ><)
but after that calmed down..
talked to them about their BNCO test's results..
and a bit of stuff i observed about them in the morning..
then after that went around..
then went to NA2's FAC training..
they were practicing FD format..
then after that, like, Jacelyn a bit not sure of the command ''tune''
so like wanted to help them by saying the command,
they do the action,
so that they can try out the format..
then Sir Lee came and they freaked out..
haha.. =P
then paused there for a bit,
after that went to discuss Home Nursing instead..
but then,
in the end,
became a FAC analysis thingy,
like told them a bit about Serene of Hai Sing..
and also discuss a bit about FA stuff..
LOL..

then Siew Huai called me to go room to pass her my OTC form..
went SJ room..
then like they were packing the SJ room..
then they were talking about some stuff..
and Sir Lee signed my form..
and found Mdm Lai Peng's Uniform..
and then took out all the accessories..
and Jia Hong told Wan Teng to bring the acessories home,
so that she can use for her Uniform...
then Hui Ying came to the SJ room..
told me that NA2 is changing into PT kit for PT..
and i went out..
and Cheryl wanted to help me pin my hair..
cox she's going off soon..
then after she pinned,
somehow her ''about-to-burst-out-laughing'' face gave me a feeling that i look really weird..
so i took out the pins..
sorry Cheryl! ><
your expression really gave me no confidence..
haha.. =P

wells,
then did PT with NA2..

They did:
20 push-ups
20 crunches
20 jumping jacks
10 scissors jumps
2 rounds around arena

I did:
30 push-ups
30 crunches
30 jumping jacks
10 scissors jumps

did a little bit more...
cox i was the one who wanted PT ma~
and i am preparing myself for OTC..
haha.. =P
but i skipped running..
partly cox of my shoes,
partly cox i'm lazy..
haha.. XP
but it feels great to be exercising after slacking so much..
=D

then asked Ryan teach Jacelyn commanding..
Edward and Benjamin helped a bit too..
then after that,
weirdly,
we started going home..
haha.. =P

so i walked out with Hui Ying..
then she walk towards Henderson
i cut across the field..
went Tiong to take IC photo for OTC..
it's like,
ZOMG!!!!
damn pai seh la~
><
cox i wore my SJ Uniform top,
plus black shorts,
plus pinned up fringe...
like,
WTH..
><
quickly took and quickly went to change..
LOL..
then went to buy some food while waiting for the IC photos to develop...
and..
my conclusion is,
ALL of my IC photos looks SUPER DUPER UPER,
W-E-I-R-D..
=_=
sians..
hais,
oh wells,
the most let the officers laugh at my IC photo only..
haha.. =P

hmmm..
gonna go translate RESCUE epi 3!!
argh!!
Cherie says RESCUE is UPER nice..
but i haven't even complete watching epi 1..
=(
okays okays..
JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoTomaMassuYuichi XD*

I LOVE MY BLOG SONG...
T-O-T-A-L-L-Y
LOL..
okays,
the song's ONE DROP by KAT-TUN..
it's like,
a damn addictive song...
to me at least..
i've been listening to it ever since i DL-ed it...
everyday i listen to it at least 5 times i guess??
okays, i'm siao..
so sorry..
haha.. =P
but it's really nice lor..
okays,
i find it really nice sounds better..
haha.. =P
now,
someone say bye bye,
leads me to think of ONE DROP..
cox the chorus goes:
bye bye (lazy to type the jap words =P)

haha.. =P
okays,
i'm lame..
LOL..
runs off to watch RESCUE!!
NAKAMARU YUICHI MAKES RESCUE A JOY TO WATCH COX HE'S SIMPLY TOO FUNNY!! XD
JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoToma XD*

went out with Tomodachi!!
okays, i meetup with LJ people first to get stuff
and i got sick of MRT..
i think i'm gonna stay away from it for a while..
here's my route today:
Tiong Bahru-->Raffles Place-->Somerset-->Raffles Place-->Jurong East-->Choa Chu Kang-->Jurong East-->Raffles Place-->Somerset...
cox meet a few LJ people..
1st one at Somerset
2nd one at CCK
3rd one at Somerset
so gotta go to and fro..
><

wells wells,
anyways, we went to Shaw centre to see if Bibi and Baba has uniform for Shobana..
then went to wheelock place to jalan jalan...
then last place was borders,
and i went home earlier
cox dinner at home..
sorry ar..
><
meet you all late and i still went back earlier..
really happy that we get to go out together!
looks forward to saturday!
hopefully we can meet up!
XD

ah,
and after watching Kami no Shizuku episode 2,
realised that Kame was using an iphone in the drama!!
ah~
i wants an iphone too~
Shobana suggested that i demand 1 from Pi..
haha.. =P
but Pi ''is angry'' cox i'm very KAT-TUN fan nowadays..
=P
for example,
the ringtones of my phone:
call-->One Drop by KAT-TUN
sms-->Kizuna piano version by Kame
alarm-->Six senses by KAT-TUN...

NEWS-less
haha.. =P
gomen gomen, Pi..
but NEWS is rather quiet recently,
after ending their concert on the day of Os results
haha.. =P

hmmm..
is thinking about changing my blog song
to a noisy, but addictive to me song:
ONE DROP!!!
XD
runs off to imeem.com..
haha.. =P
JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameKokiNinoToma XD*

TOMODACHI BANZAI!!!
lol.. =P
that's what went through my mind after i completed the whole Yukan Club series..
almost cried when they were crying..
haha.. =P
finally, i completed the series~
okays okays..
runs off to watch Kami no Shizuku..
XD
JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameNinoToma XD*

okays..
is currently about to finish up Yukan Club..
It's so nice to watch! haha.. =P

and i find myself downloading Kinki Kids and Tackey & Tsubasa songs...
LOL..
cox watch johnny's countdown,
and since i had the time,
downloaded those ''famous songs'' of theirs and try to listen..

hmmm...
and something i realised about myself after going through LJ sales posts for so many time...
i realised that,
the only thing that is stopping me from buying any Yamapi's recent official photos,
is HIS HAIR!
~_~
i'm so sorry, Pi,
i simply don't like his curly hair! ><
it's either the curly hair is TOO UGLY,
or his previous hair is TOO NICE..
LOL.. =P
okays,
anyways,
because of his hair,
i might be told ''good job'' by Hime-sama..
for saving up just cox i can't bring myself to buy Yamapi's recent official photos..
haha.. =P
wells,
i guess my video's finished loading..
BACK TO YUKAN CLUB!!!
haha.. =P
JA~

*PiJinMinRyoKameNinoToma XD*

hmmm..
today's topic is,
''can't help it''
LOL.. =P
i'm coming up with topics for my posts..
anyways,
here goes..

hmmm...
today,
somehow,
maybe because i'm almost finished reading 1 Litre of Tears,
realised that there are a lot of things in life that is ''can't help it'' one...
like how Kito Aya(that's the real girl's full name),
she was a happy kid,
she was completing her Junior High School,
she was aiming to get into the best Senior High School in her town..
she was normal,
she was carefree,
she was just like anyone of us...
and then,
out of a sudden,
she gets Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease..
and she has to give up on a lot of things..
walking, being in a normal school, talking, having her own private time, expressing herself...
but she can't do anything..
she ''can't help it''

and then,
come to think of it,
in life,
even for normal people like us,
there are a lot of things that ''can't be helped''
for example,
graduating from secondary school...
no matter how much we miss those times,
no matter how much we can't let go,
no matter how much we wanna continue staying there,
no matter what,
when we have to go,
when we have to leave,
we have to...
we just have to..

another example,
just like for friendship,
sometimes,
no matter how sudden it comes,
no matter how much we regret our actions,
no matter how we hope things can just go back to normal,
sometimes,
it just can't...
maybe friendship is like a love relationship..
the deeper you've loved,
the more painful it'll be when it's over...
i guess,
maybe it's exactly because of how close you've been,
right now, you end up being just as far apart...
sometimes, it can't be helped??
maybe it's just because,
已经缘尽于此了...

有时候，期望越高，到最后，失望就相对的越大

虽然很痛，可是除了学习忍受和忘记，有时候真的没有其他可以做的事了...
if you get what i mean~
haha.. =P
wells, regarding this,
it's not a personal experience..
it's more of my point of view to _________..
i'm not gonna reveal that person..
and you'll never guess who that is..
haha.. =P

wells wells,
with family,
there are also times when things canit be helped...
my maternal grandma's death in 2007 woke me up...
and now, everytime i hear from my paternal grandma that she has an appointment/checkup/treatment/operation,
i simply get really, lost??
and down i guess..
i know things can't be helped,
i know i can't control if the time really comes..
i know and i understand..
but,
i understand myself rather well..
and i know clearly that i am weak psychologically...
or using a more appropriate term,
i'm a very emotional kinda person..
i am fearing and dreading the day that anything happens to any of my family members..
especially both of my paternal grandparents,
who are my only pair of grandparents left...
and ah ma is getting complications and stuff...
she's like on dozens of medication daily...
and a slight knock leaves a huge brownish-red patch of bruising on her skin..
and everytime i see her,
she's got a patch of bruise on a new area of her limbs...
like almost right after healing the old bruise...
but when i see her like that,
yet i can't do anything to help,
i feel really horrible..
i feel that i'm really the worst person on earth..
the worst kinda granddaughter that you can get..
我不想屈服于人生中的无可奈何，

可是我又能怎样？

生，老，病，死

人生必经之路，

但我就是那种白痴，优柔寡断，对事情总是耿耿于怀，死都放不下的大笨蛋...

okays, i'm sounding all EMO here..
haha.. =P
gomen gomen.. ><
hmmm..
wells,
i think from all of the ''can't help it'' that i realised today,
i view life in a different light...
life is so fragile,
like a thin layer of ice...
but at the same time,
life is also strong..
because of the many ''layers of ice'' binding together...
i'm thankful for the people around me..
for everything up until now..
and also just for being there..
from now on too,
Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu~
haha.. =P

sorry if i'm really emo and all...
just that i thought i wanna record my realise-s...
just wants to remember what went through my mind,
at this point in time..
kinda a heavy topic+boring to read huh..
haha.. =P
wells, that's all of my thoughts for today..
JA~