Had a rather serious talk with Sze Yee about studies and stuff today..
and she talked sense into me..
i should stop procrastinating..
Thanks Sze Yee.. =)

next is,
45th,
might be postponed...
haiz..
i feel that..
H1N1...
came at the wrong time...
and worsened at the wrong time..
=/
but, oh wells..
let's see how things go...

okays..
gonna go do what i can do for school stuff..
and,
maybe watch some drama..
Last Friends, maybe? since i watched till ep 4 the other time..
hahas!
but but,
Mr. Brain is seriously damn nice and addictive!
i think TakuKimu(Takuya Kimura)'s acting is quite good~

okays..
i should be gone to do stuff..
hahas
JA~ =)

The Climb by Mylie Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa



A song that has meaningful lyrics,
intro-ed to all OCTs by William Sir~
hahas~ =P
use it as my blog song~
motivate myself~
hahas~
unbreakable strength! =)

Today,
i felt like a gan jeong spider...
been a while since i felt that way...
the fear of leaving something out..
the fear of missing out on something...
the fear of forgetting to submit something...
i am trying to separate properly all my SJ stuff...
cox i can't afford to miss out on a single thing...
yes,
there's no room for failure, AT ALL...
zero,
none,
nil...
yes...
i believe that i can do it..
and i WILL go and do it!
yup...
Poh Ting Xin is energised and set to go!
=)

miss mah is right,
chocolates are happy food,
they do help,
somehow or rather.

probably cox i haven't slept enough,
probably cox i'm PMS-ing,
everything seems so negative to me today....
and i get down and depressed and upset at the most minute of things...
bloody hell..
i'm so sorry people,
something is really wrong with this person known as Poh Ting Xin...
damn it...
=(

being with my bro at home today,
made me realised how much i have missed out in his life...
how lousy am i?
very...

sorry,
i'm not emoing..
if you think i am..
hahas~
i'm fine..
but,
fact remains that,
i'm just someone,
who likes to reflect a lot..
the emo part was last night..
but that was part of reflection..
because that was out of guilt...

i wonder,
have i been an energy provider,
or was i always the energy sucker..
i think,
i am the latter..
and i failed,
to reach my goal
of becoming the sunshine of people around me..
failed terribly..

as of now,
i declare that,
yours truly,
Poh Ting Xin
shall push myself to be like sunshine~
=)

JA~

26-06-2009

tonight, i open my heart to my blog...

i had a rather enjoyable day...
thanks for the "study", the meetup, the outing,
to study gang, intake '07 & Wan Teng, ANCO'09 comm respectively.. =)


next,
comes my rubbish..
i am feeling really lousy right now...
i am beginning to think,
i am a lousy person...
i think,
there's a lot about me that deserves to be hated...
for one,
i am guilty about something...
i think,
i tore apart what would have been a great friendship...
i went way too overboard this time..
=(
then,
i think,
there's seriously a lot of things that i did,
that is very mean,
and inconsiderate...
and,
wells,
it's only natural that you hate me...
i dunno what to do or say..
obviously a 'sorry' is insufficient...
but,
what can i do?

i wonder if i'm thinking too much again?
i'm not sure...
but i feel that i'm not...

and,
i seriously hate myself,
since a certain point in time,
i have been shortchanging just about everyone...
doing things only halfway,
and going off, or going on,
to do other stuff,
and then doing it halfway again...
this is like shit man...
i am so shity..
the way i do things...
i am seriously so sucky sia..

with my ignorance, insensitivity, immatureness,
i have hurt so many people,
even though they prefer not to show...
many a times,
people are hurt..
and those wounds,
i think
for humans,
wounds heal, but scars remain..
especially psychological ones...

okay,
that's all i have to say tonight..
that's what is opened to the blog from my heart...
i feel sucky man,
seriously...
i deserve to be shot dead,
like right about NOW.

ANCO '09

18th June 2009~21st June 2009
-another super late update-

The Ubin Experience!
this camp,
i was Safety NCO!
Lydia was like saying
"finally you took on a small role"
hahas~

i didn't get to observe the cadets much...
and i experience, saw, and understood what they meant by 'behind-the-scenes'
hahas~
it opened my eyes to alot of things that i have failed to see for the past close to 5 years in SJ...
there's more to it than training..
there's more to it than activities.. =)

and nice working with the kids..
Pikachu, dong gua, you kang, siang ning!
hee.. =D

and,
nice lorry rides and van rides!
hee =D

and kids,
dun think that i did a lot,
cox you all did more than me! =)

and i love the cooking experiences!
sorry if the food doesn't taste nice
and doesn't look nice.. ><><><

and the committee this year is great!
so many fun stuff!
hahas~
LSK!
Section 9!
Sick Chickens!
Merlions!
ventolin addict!
SCANDALS!
the sleeping activity photos!
nobody nobody but you~!
and loads more!
hahas!

this camp,
i think i'm probably the person who slept the most..
just that you all never see..
but my sleep is on off on off..
cox when i sleep in the afternoon,
either i scare myself awake,
or someone open the safety room door and ask for sth then i woke up..
hahas~
became a light sleeper in camp..
dunno why i'm so nervous..
hahas~

and hee hee~
had fun from kidnapping a trainee~
XD

and and,
something to clarify~
i look sick/gonna collapse,
i think is cox i got bad blood circulation ba~
hahas~
i'm PERFECTLY healthy!!!
hahas~
the sick ppl are from section 9!
hahas~

and the video montage,
is so cool~
thanks Justin "babyfaced" sir!
hahas~

and thanks PCs
-Wan Teng Mdm, De Xian Sir, Ming Wei Sir, Arens Sir-
and lao da to xiao ba
-Hui Ying, Priscilla, Shi Ling, Aaron, Jue Hong, Yan Rong, Pei Ling, Alex-
for training the kids..

thanks all service!
-Siang Ning, Margaret, You Kang, Ying Ying, Su Min-
had fun working tog! =D

thanks all service officers
-Wei Qiang Sir, Zhen Shun Sir, Kenneth Sir-
for keeping us on track!
and for the fun during work!

thanks to Ai Suan Mdm!
for the fun!
for letting me go on meal rides!

Thanks Zhan Hui Sir!
for being nice to Pikachu!
and letting us borrow them to help us! =P

Thanks Kwee Haan Sir and Choon Siong Sir!
for skinning and dicing the sweet potatoes with us!

Thanks to the bosses, Poh Boon Sir, Justin Sir, Kwee Haan Sir, Teng Teng Mdm!
for leading the camp!
hahas~!

Thanks Teng Teng Mdm,
for letting us sleep over at your house before the camp,
and feeding us so much food!
hee =D

love this camp experience! =D
okays
JA~

=The Officers' Creed=

I Am An Officer Of The St. John Ambulance Brigade,
I Will Uphold The Motto Of The Order,
"For The Faith" And "For The Service Of Mankind"
I Lead By Example,
And Regard Everyone With Respect And Humility,
I Must Take Ownership In All Duties,
And Perform With Pride And Integrity,
I Will Overcome Challenges With
Courage And Zeal,
I Will Always Be Faithful And Serve With Dignity To The Brigade, Sir!

OTC camp '09

12th June 2009~15th June 2009
-a SUPER late update ><-

=Day 1=

~C-squared~
we met up before the camp..
a bit of delays here and there..
and i realised there's $1.50 chicken rice at Pasir Ris~
then we tear up the labels, and did some log stuff...
then polished boots..
koped cloth and kiwi from Chang Yu (boss!)
sorry for cutting your cloth,
will pass you the new one on 28th!

~2X2.4km~
this is the first time i ran 2.4km without stopping...
and twice, plus consecutively somemore...
wells,
was extra during this run...
went up to people who are from other groups,
who i totally dunno at all,
who i still dunno at all after camp,
and told them to run/jog, dun walk etc...
some sort of encouragement in a way...
guess i didn't leave a good impression..
but who cares..
Zzzz
but then again,
maybe that's the reason why i didn't stop...
was told that the first round represents sec 1 to 4,
while the second round represents moving on to becoming an officer...
and that what matters is not how well you did for the first round,
but how much you improved for the second round...
i think that,
basically,
the first round is like easy cox you had the stamina,
you had the energy,
your attitude towards SJ was better,
you were more willing to learn,
and more capable in absorbing..
but for the second round,
you keep finding excuses like:
you had done enough,
you are tired of SJ,
you already know,
you shouldn't be learning, there's nothing for you to learn..
and that's what makes thing difficult...
and in that round,
you have to unlearn what you know,
and learn them back again,
and push for an improvement..

~Triage~
was the OIC for this triage...
my usual old bad habit comes about again..
was screamed at by some officers...
but i know they are trying to instill a sense of urgency in us...
and also,
someone has to be the "devil"
hahas...
learned a lot...
and i'm trying to kick my stupid damn habit.. =)

then,
had wash up..
no offence,
but Greenview Sec,
sadly, has no shower room at all...
at least not in the toilets that we used...
so we were like using pails and stuff..
waited rather long before i got to bathe..
and i think i bathed quite fast?
hahas~

then went back to bunk..
supposed to sleep at 1++am..
but ended up sleeping at 2++am..
cox i went to write the journal thingy..
i wrote it really as a journal i guess..
really more of how i felt about the camp..
and about the people in the camp..
hahas~


=Day 2=

woke up at 4am..
went to wash up,
then wake ppl up..
then went down to fall in...

the run
did stretching, warm up,
then we had a run to Pasir Ris Park...
was told that to and fro,
it's 6 km...
hmmm..
not really run ar..
jogged ba, i guess?
hahas~
as usual,
me, the extra personnel,
went around pushing ppl...
hahas~
this time,
"sang" a bit..
sang "ai wo bie zou"
literal translation, it means, if you love me, dun walk...
hahas~
lame, i know~

wells,
reached Pasir Ris Park,
had cool down, drank water..
then fall in for writing the journal...
erm,
was told by Gek Min Mdm that i should tone down,
so that others can have a chance at things..
looking and thinking back,
she saved my skin...
as you all know,
it's normal for over-enthu and extra personnel like me to become public enemy...
it's human nature la,
can't be helped..
thanks for the advice, Gek Min Mdm! =)

then after that,
we went to the beach,
was told to think through the reasons why we joined OTC,
why are we here...
and was told to recite the officers' creed..
we didn't do well,
there's no spirit in our reciting..
it's pure words coming outta our mouths..
this pissed William Sir off~
haix..

then we ran back to Greenview...
cox it was drizzling...
so i think we didn't complete 6km in total..
maybe 4 or 5km..

hmmm...
then we had breakfast,
after which we tried to practice our officers' creed again..
emphasising on the 'I's~
hahas..

~lectures~
then, we had inspiring lectures again...
i think i am someone easily affected by what is shown or taught to me...
the lectures,
they make me wanna work harder,
they make me wanna become a better person,
and they made me feel that i suck,
the current me suck,
and that i needa pull up my socks and start working...

~16 important things~
then we had this '16 important things to you'...
we were told to write down 16 things that were important to us...
for me,
my top 3 are
1. Family
2. Friends
3. SJ
it was difficult to decide between SJ and friends...
family is clear cut la...
sorry.. ><
even if i grumble,
family is still my most impt thing,
that's what i think..
why in the end,
friends won,
is cox,
SJ, and the people in SJ
are 2 diff things...
SJ in itself,
not considering the people,
i think is less impt than ppl..
so friends won..
=)
found out that,
somebody cried..
when choosing between his top 2...
it shows his passion..
hormats to him~! =D

~teambuilding games~
we had teambuilding games too~
these games,
although played before numerous times,
it's still fun..
cox,
sometimes it's not the activity that makes things memorable,
it's the people you did it with that makes memories invaluable.
and thanks to ALPHA,
these games are fun and memorable to me! =D

~ultimate challenge~
next comes the highlight!
The Ultimate Challenge!
we are split into teams of 5 people each..
then we were dispatched team by team to clear 8 stations

sequence:
1.complete 150 push-ups as a team in total
2.vertical climb, slap wall, shout 'LEAD WITH HONOUR', get jigsaw piece,
3.TOC one of the members, cross benches obstacles
4.complete 30 pull-ups as a team in total
5.do shuttle run
6.manual lift a member, remaining person carry bags and strecher
7.run/walk 3/4 round of the classroom block
8.TOC a member, leopard crawl under a bench

while waiting for your team to be dispatched,
you are supposed to be in push-up/crunches/buddha clap position, interchanging..
after you complete the 8 stations,
you have 1 minute to rest and you have to go back and join those waiting...
it was a test of endurance..
it was a test of mentality..
and it was FUN!
hee hee~
esp our "support" part~
for the buddha clap position~
WEE~
we rock ppl! XD

~the 2800~
and then,
we completed 2800 push-ups...
the instructors did 800,
trainees did 2000...
shiok sia~
hahas~
and then William Sir said that,
this year's OTC camp,
is one of the most physically straining one...
which reflects what Zhan Hui Sir told me right before my OTC camp..
LOLs~
okay la~
we made it through,
as a TEAM!
HEE HEE!

then,
we read the officers' creed,
filled with energy and force! =D
frankly speaking,
an easily affected person like me,
felt energy pumped into me,
because of this creed.. =)

was told by Ai Shu Mdm about toning down also..
but what she said was,
in a way,
i am doing things for others,
and it's not fair or sth like that?
if it's not fair to others,
i'm really sorry for causing trouble.. ><
but,
if she meant it's unfair to me
hmmm..
she might be right la..
but for me,
i think that,
i have a mama, gan jeong nature in me...
i just wanna make things easier for everyone..
by shun bian doing 1 more thing,
things get easier by one bit.
everyone gets things easier,
isn't that better?
hahas~
for me,
nothing is fair in this world,
and it doesn't really matter whether i'm at advantage or disadvantage..
kai xin jiu hao
happy can le..
hahas..
anyways,
thanks for caring about me! =)
Thanks Ai Shu Mdm!

then,
once again,
slept at 2+am,
woke up at 4am the next day..


=Day 3=

~2X2.4, TEAM VERSION~
We were told to set a timing that we can complete 2.4 as a team...
our team set the fastest timing out of the 7 teams--16:30...
hahas~
the first run,
Hizan fall out,
we ran 18 minutes plus...
but we didn't run as a team,
so we deserved to re-run...

the second run,
we walked tog as a team,
and it feels great! =)

this run,
what i learned:
"we leave no man behind, no matter what"
=D

~AOP~
finally,
had our presentation...
i think it was quite okay..
Well Done C-Squared!
Well Done Boss!
hahas
except for the fact that,
ehhh
i think,
i suck at giving instructions...
haiz....
i shall make myself firmer!
I WILL! =D

~reflection~
were told to vote for 3 good people, 3 people who needs to improve..
and also answer a few questions
as well as 2 letters..
one to apologise
one in tribute..
my 3 good people are:
Chang Yu, Han Ying, Wai Kin
my letter,
apology is to Cherie...
tribute,
is to my overworked woman...
hahas~

then we were split into groups..
half a team followed an officer...
i was in the group with Isabel Mdm,
and Nerissa was with us...
i cried
when reading the tribute letter..
><
actually,
was already crying when i wrote the letter..
it's just..
maybe,
a physically worn out me,
couldn't hold back my tears,
couldn't continue with my stubborn ways..
hahas~
so sorry for crying.. ><
and,
i gave my overworked woman the letter...
wonders if she kept it?
maybe no..
hahas~

~Triage 2~
had another triage...
and this time,
i'm still the First-Aider..
ehhh
it's full of hiccups too...
BUT!
i think we did improve a little..
=)

~Campfire~
it was a fun one..
and everyone enjoyed,
i'm glad..
but then,
yours truly here,
screwed what little things that i'm supposed to do...
and i spoilt the mood of officers,
and,
suckily,
i cried...
though for like 2 seconds...
luckily,
only in front of 1 person..
Nerissa~
LOLs
sorry...
to cry in front of you..
2nd time in the camp somemore
><
cried cox i was worried that,
C-squared,
who did a good job,
would be affected...
haiz
anyways,
i think C-squared is fantastic!
=D
we made Dr. Chen Sze Hua Dance!
heehee~ =P

then,
we had a group debrief,
then went to sleep...
slept at 12plus,
then woke up at 2plus..
we were supposed to wake up at 3am~
found out after camp that officers woke us up at 2plus..
hahas~


=Day 4=

~16 Km Road March~
It's a wonderful experience..
tested the limits of my legs..
hahas..
and,
initially,
i was supposed to conserve my voice for ANCO..
but ended up,
just joined in the timings and cheers..
hahas~
we got totally high once we saw Loyang Point..
hahas~
cox reaching Greenview..

and at the midpoint of the route,
we were given a paper,
and
1 star=gonna fail
2 stars=got chance to get best trainee
no star=average...
when i got my paper,
i kinda a bit sian..
but cox William Sir announced that it's based on the votes that we gave on Day 3...
it struck me that it's natural that i got 1 star...
cox,
afterall,
i offended so many ppl..
and irritated so many ppl..
but ended up,
everyone got 1 star..
but i think,
if they really do this properly,
i'd still get 1 star..
hahas~

~Presentation of Ranks~
it was,
a proper parade,
it feels like,
all of us truly deserve this,
it feels like,
we worked,
for that 1 white bar that was worn on our shoulders by our instructors...
it felt like harvest after working in the field..
at least,
i am proud to say that,
this rank that we got,
we get it after 4 days together,
after 4 days that changed the way we think
after 4 day that changed us..
congrats to all coursemates! =D

~Gratitute~
we were told that William Sir cried a little after our presentation of ranks..
then we were given materials to write notes to him..
my team wrote to Isabel Mdm and Gek Min Mdm too~ =D
Alpha rocks.. =D
then some of us read out the notes to him..
too bad he didn't cry...
he looked like he was on the verge to..
hahas~

~Area Cleaning~
had a talk with Isabel Mdm...
felt better about a few things..
and,
learned from Isabel Mdm's experience..
Thanks Isabel Mdm!
=D
sorry that i didn't do the area cleaning.. ><
sorry C-squared~ ><


=other stuff=

~William Sir~
ehhh
okays,
impression of him
up down up..
that's what i would say...
down,
wasn't because of tekan etc..
it's cox of my think too much..
sorry sir..
and,
William Sir is a good leader...
the biggest inspiration he left in us,
i would say,
is the desire to change and improve.. =)
and i would say that,
i kinda applied that in one of the things i did recently.. =)

~my overworked woman~
hmmm
she very cold during the camp sia..
but thanks to her,
i had a good talk with Isabel Mdm..
and i realised,
she has the same kinda thinking as me..
i understand..
"it's not about how much they know you've done, it's about how much they don't know"
it's all about silent love, silent care, silent concern...
Thanks Jie~! =)

~C-squared~
thanks for being such good comm mates!
i think we made things a little easier for the course?
in a way?
hahas~
really had fun working together~
let's work together somemore kay?
hee! =D

~Boss~
thanks so much for doing so much,
for C-squared,
and for the course!
xin ku ni le~
sorry that you did everything..><
and hormat to you..
for your passion!
=)


okays, that's for my OTC camp experience..
very long-winded..
hahas~
JA~

Yay!
went out with Study Gang today!

went to ECP,
and,
yours truly finally knows how to ride a bicycle!
whoo~ XD
and i'm addicted to it~
although i get butt aches.. =X
but it's fun!!!!
really really fun!!!!!
i wanna save up and buy a bicycle for myself~
yay!
haha.. XD

actually,
we did a lot of things la~
but then, i'm lazy+buzy..
kinda~
sorry.. ><
will update about everything by 22nd June~
hahahah XD
will be away from yousuke(my laptop) and Hp from:
--12th to 15th June,
--18th to 21st June..
i know you won't miss me~
LOL~ XD

okays~
JAA~

I'm done with my maths test!
Wheee~
haha.. =P

settled a few OTC stuff~
nice!
We Rock, We Stone and We Pebble~
ROFL~
me and my lameness~

hmmm
tmr going ecp...
going to learn how to ride bicycle~
then
after that
supposed to go "shopping" with Mdm Teng Teng
for ANCO foodstuff~
LOL~
i can't imagine how much exactly is $600 worth of food gonna look like
i dun think 2 trolleys is enough?
haha.. =P

Then thursday,
meeting up with ALPHA!
settling our dance!
hee hee~!

i'm so looking forward to OTC camp..
after OTC camp
there's Mass Dance practice...
then the next day is ANCO final meeting..
and then,
ANCO camp,
Pulau Ubin, here i come!
haha.. XD

then after that,
gotta cheong all my projects,
and then school reopens..

LOL~
okays~
going to sleep soon~
JAA~

FAC 2009

Firstly,
WELL DONE, GOOD JOB, OTSUKARESAMA DESHITA TO ALL OF YOU!!!!!!! XD
fantastic results this year!
GESS got 3 overall 2nd places,
and the team i am most proud of,
NA, Jacelyn, Amanda, Pui Yee, Rhonda, Hui Lin,
they got 2nd in Homenursing and Footdrill!!!!!
why i'm most proud of them is cox,
from the very start,
this bunch of little girls are kinda sad that they were put in NA..
they thought that we think they are not up to mark,
and kinda like we are just sending them in to die...
but then after that,
they started training from scratch..
and through the process so many things happen..
unhappiness, arguments, sick, injuries, confused about things, badly commented, despair, kena PT, etc etc etc...
and although i didn't train them much,
but i see a team that is united, together and capable..
and they made a breakthrough in GESS history..

sorry to the sec ones who waited for me and in the end had to go to HQ by yourselves..
and sorry for being late...
i overslept, big time.. ><
okays,
start from ytd..
firstly, i was typing some OTC stuff..
and i dunno how it happened,
but i fell asleep..
the only thing i rmb,
was that Daddy woke me up and ask me to off laptop and sleep properly..
i only rmb hibernating my laptop,
and i fell asleep..
then after that,
the next thing i knew,
i was awoken suddenly,
bei zi ji xia xing..
=.=
and it was 11.19 already..
DAMN IT!
when it's like FAC..
i think it's either i off-ed my alarm,
or i totally forgot to set it..
so damn stupid can
sian sia..><

haix
anyways,
moving on,
went to HQ,
did some kinda duty..
shooing ppl, asking them to make way for TOC..
this year's TOC at level 2 in HQ sia~
cool~
wet-weather plan!
hee.. =D

hmmm
then the usual,
then end of everything,
went up,
was the stage prize passer~
i pass to Ya Yin Mdm, she pass to the presenter...
i think i am a really lousy prize passer~
cox i TOTALLY showed my happiness whenever GESS got something..
by right,
stage ppl cannot do that one sia~
but i suck,
so i choose to go by left!
hahaha! XD

then stayed back to pack stuff..
didn't went back on the chartered bus with everyone cox of the packing...
dun dare and feel abd to pang seh the committee la~
haha.. =P
yeah~
so after that bus-ed home..

and then did some OTC stuff..
was called control tower~
haha.. =P
wells,
feels so happy..

Oh,
and my overworked workaholic of a sis is coming back soon~
in an hour or two~
WHEE~ XD

okays,
that's all for today!
JAA~

I have a lot to say..
let me organise my thoughts first..
for now,
i'm proud of you kids..
great job man!
=D
and bravos to all the trainers who put in effort to train them,
and spending so much time and effort..
GESS SJAB,
WE ROCK! XD

I fell asleep for 5 seconds on the bus ride home~
i dun sleep on bus rides de leh~
sians~
haha

hmmm
am really feeling very very nervous...
today's the day,
in 12 hours' time, the comp starts..
and now,
we're still fretting over adult capbadge...
LOL~
our typical screw-up everytime before comp
at the very least,
this time it happened 12 hours before the comp ne?
hahaha..
haiz
am really nervous..
and,
now i understand that it is even more nerve-wrecking when you are NOT the one competing..
when all you can do is watch from the side..
haha
hmmm
but i have faith in them
yup..
this is the day that we've been waiting for...
no matter the outcome,
i just hope to see that you all can face yourself and feel that, at the very least, you didn't let yourself down, and had done all you could.. =)
JIA YOU!
DRAGON SAINTS!
=)

okays
gonna go cheong my campfire stuff for OTC then go sleep..
if not i will fall asleep on the bus ride again~
haha
JAA~