8/31/09

Had a fun day at Hime's house today..
though it's simple stuff like watching videos,
and "picnic-ing",
but it's good enough for me..
Thanks Hime, Ojou and Shobs! =D
and Ojou, please get well soon!

after coming home,
Dan Dan told me some stuff...
i really wonder what happened again..
it's like,
haix...
=/

okays, off to bathe+Buzzer Beat!
Changed my blog song,
and, sad to say, blogger can't upload images..
it's like, the toolbar is there, the icon the button, whatever you call it, is all there,
just that after "uploading" the image doesn't appear..
=(

8/30/09

Insomnia+Exams+CPR&AED=KO

awake for more than 24 hours..
Couldn't sleep on friday night,
so gave up on sleeping and laid on my bed till 5.30am,
went to bathe, breakfast, then reached HQ at 6.50am...
sat on the curb and took some photos...
HQ's sky is really beautiful at that timing=D






































then sat there and read my CPR+AED notes,
then the kids came along,
disturbed them a bit
and gave them chocs
and, well,
somehow, talked to one of them about stuff,
hope it made sense to her,
and i hope to see changes and efforts..
then had invigilating, till 12+,
then went to rot at Multi-Purpose Training Room...
then had CPR+AED course..
well, it's kinda fun,
but the my instructor was... hmmms, Yi Jing should be the best person to answer this question.. =X
then,
after finishing my course
went to help pack some stuff a bit here and there,
then went to eat dinner at PS with Teng Mdm, Priscilla and Hui Ying..
a lot of ppl sia.. Zzzzzz
and then went home..
when i reached home,
after bathing etc,
on-ed Yousuke...
then while waiting for RC to load,
i actually fell asleep
and KO till today's noon
it's like totally KO..
like i fainted.. =X
cox,
i sleep and sleep and sleep..
my plan was to sleep 3 hours and wake up to do stuff...
sians...
okays,
i'm gonna go watch Buzzer Beat!!!! =D
and i totally hate ______________
push here push there..
haix.. tsk...
okays
JA~

8/29/09

Went down for training today,
and, the moment i stepped into SJ room,
sec 3s reaction was like "are you sick?"
and on the way to school,
the taxi uncle also asked whether i am sick...
D: do i look sick? =X
i'm not actually..
for me,
sick=fever and above..
today's just a bit of cold..
wun die laaaaa..
hahas! =D
but,
thanks for caring =)
and Syukri,
next time dun tell the kids i'm sick.. =X

then went to makan with ms chan..
and we talked quite a bit..
haha~
so funny!!!!! XD
and her sis and her mum is damn cute...
hee hee.. =P
then i bought some lil goodies for the kids tmr.. =)

and and and,
tmr is exams day,
i'll be there by 7am...
and then i'll have my CPR+AED course tmr,
if i pass it'll be full set~
nice! XD
and i kinda hope i'm allowed to go for CPR+AED instructor course =X

and holidays are so niceeee =D
okays,
i'm off to watch Buzzer Beat~!
then sleep..
JA~!

8/27/09

Whoo hoo!
ITL is over!
the FUN begins!!!!!!! XD
and,
i counted,
and checked answers,
and i'm SOOOOO passing my ITL! XD
yay!
okays,
GTG~
JA~
Time Check 07 00 hours....
in another 7 hours, i'll be having my ITL paper...
why am i awake?
wells,
i wanted to meet Sze Yee at 9am in school..
some 20 monutes ago,
i got a "live" alarm clock screaming at me..
alright, i WAS angry at that moment when i woke up,
cox,
i planned to wake up at 7.10am,
bathe, then get my ass off to school..
but why am i wide awake now,
finished eating breakfast,
blogging while waiting for about 15 minutes for digestion before i bathe?
simply because i didn't hang Dan Dan's PE shorts in his cupboard ytd..
retribution for leaving the folding of clothes to Jie...
and my mum totally went "where is the PE shorts?"
and i forgot about the one lying in my room,
and told her i hung it, at the very corner of the cupboard...
she looked,
dun have...
and,
she made me wake up,
and said something that made me really sad, and upset just now,
"i dun care, you better get it out for me"
wahhhhhhh
it cut, quite a bit...
haix...
yeah,
anyways,
it's retribution la...
but, it just made me felt sad,
that she's gonna solve problems this way...
like excuse me,
what if it's not even my fault to begin with..
sian lor...
and then Daddy made me feel better,
a bit la,
cox he remembered that my paper is supposed to be at 2pm,
and he kept asking me to go sleep,
when i was venting my anger by looking through the pails of unwashed clothes...
Thanks Daddy! =)
okays,
end of my frustration..
moral of the story,
"you can dun hang your own clothes, but never forget to hang your mum or your youngest sibling's"
off to bathe now.
JA~

8/26/09

i am having my break now..
tmr is ITL~
hopes i'll do well....
to cover up for my fails throughout the sem...
then pass the module.. ^u^
and then,
RyoPi is so <3~
just read a translation of an article of theirs..
XD
the weather now is so sleep inducing.. ><
but i shall go read ITL..
hahas..
JA~
i have once again exploded...
on her...
i dunno,
maybe i'm being selfish,
maybe i'm just a bitch,
maybe i'm expecting what i know wouldn't come true...
it's like,
dunno,
maybe she didn't realised,
or maybe everyone treats it as normal,
or sth like i should've done it..
but i've been trying hard to make things easier,
and when it's my turn,
nobody is trying to make things easier...
okays,
i am complaining way too much,
tomorrow is ITL,
i hope i can score,
and pass the whole module..

8/25/09

Weird Dream

had a really weird and bad dream ytd,
dreamt that somehow, i lost my phone or sth,
and no matter how i looked, i couldn't find it,
and i realised i lost it,
when Phoebe, Sze Yee, and a whole lot of people were entering some restaurant,
some traditional japanese restaurant to be exact...
it's like we were in some committee,
and we are meeting some important people,
and Phoebe even warned that i'd be questioned a lot,
then somehow,
when i realised i lost my phone,
Phoebe lent me her phone,
and i keep calling and calling and i couldn't find my phone,
so went home,
and daady and mummy were asleep,
and then,
ye ye called,
asking for Jie's number,
told him,
and then he said that hospital called him,
asked me to check if something happened to Jie or sth,
then called Jie's phone,
then some doctor answered,
said some stuff, (which i forgot),
then i continued looking for my phone,
and then,
dunno what happened,
then next thing i knew,
i woke up from my dream,
with my phone next to me...
LUCKY this was a dream...
and I SERIOUSLY HOPE IT WUN COME TRUE...
especially with Jie's part..
okays,
end of rubbish..

8/24/09

Looking forward to an eventful weekend ahead!
it starts on Thursday!

Thurs--ITL Paper+Zone Meeting!
Fri--ZPN Meeting!
Saturday--AFA re-exam+invigilating+CPR&AED course!

and then comes NON-STOP Drama Watching+POP Rehearsal+BCLS attachment+POP!
and also LSCMSS Meetings+Camp~
and Class Tee is on the way~
LSCMSS Tee is also on the way~

okays,
i may die from happiness~
joking.. dun anyhow talk~
but really, i'm a happy kid! =D
hahahahahaha!
okays,
byebye,
off to dinner+ITL! =D

8/23/09

"It's not whether you can or not,
it's whether you want to or not"


i've ever told that to people,
juniors, to be exact,
that things in life,
it's not whether you can do this do that,
it's whether you want to do this do that,
and it's the willingness that brings people to do things...
and Digimon approves..
hahas...

somehow,
i guess,
Digimon, besides being a kids show,
can be a show that adults watch too?
to remind us of that faith that we once had,
and that we had now lost,
which we will hopefully regain?
hahas,
went to watch Digimon again today,
and then,
got back the warm feeling in my heart,
of wanting to do things,
of wanting to cheong,
of just going out and trying...

since a certain point in time,
the word "try" seems very irritating to me,
because people have been telling me "i'll try i'll try"
and not so good things turn out of trying,
and that made me hate the word "try",
because,
the word "try" left the impression of,
"i-dun-really-intend-to-do-but-see-how-maybe-will-do"
and also
the word try seemed a bit like the "tomorrow" kinda thing,
like the tomorrow that never comes..
hahas..
but,
after watching Digimon today,
it made me feel that,
trying is at least, making an effort to,
and then, when you give it a try,
you might not know what will come out of it...
and now i am reminded that,
falling down is not a crime,
falling down is alright, it's okay..
and wanting to do things a certain way,
isn't a crime either..
and stand by what you believe in..
today, Digimon,
has made Poh Ting Xin wake up,
to realised that i have been blocking my mind with a lot of things,
when actually, a lot of things,
are simple, and straightforward,
it's just me complicating things for myself..
i've cleared up..
and woke up,
and i hope it's not too late yet...
tomorrow is a finer day than today,
because i am 1 day more mature into my life,
and,
when you want to do things,
don't leave it till tomorrow,
do it right now,
yes, like right now! =D

on top of that,
why trying is good,
is because,
we've never and will never know what is going to happen,
each time we did something..
even if we planned that event etc,
we would never know what will happen on the actual day,
and also,
even if we experience the event last time,
doesn't mean that it'll be the same each and every time..
although we dunno what's in store,
we've never doubted right?
like example,
even though we dunno what's gonna happen in a new school,
but we still went to school right?
it's the same with things,
we dunno what's gonna happen when we do things,
so what is stopping us from trying?
we've just gotta treat it as a normal thing,
and give it a shot, right?
although we wouldn't know,
but it's alright, right?
it's okay to fall till you're injured from head to toe,
and when your wounds are healing,
learn what went wrong..
we need the strength, the belief,
the courage and the warmth in our heart to support our trying spirit...
there's nothing to be afraid of,
taking up responsibilities etc,
you never know till you try, right?
=)

okays,
that's all,
from a Digimon fan,
i am one, really,
it's like the first sunday cartoon that i watched
hee hee =)
okays,
enough enough,
ITL's waiting...
JA~ =)

Ting Xin is a happy kid once again! =D
Digimon


eh, decided not to watch Buzzer Beat,
cox i can't finish watching all 6 episodes available before tmr..
hahas..
went to watch Digimon on youtube instead,
cox my bro was watching the "MV" of Digimon,
and i wondered how would Digimon sound like in japanese,
so went to watch the subbed versions,
and heard this song,
the song that i used to love so much
saw the lyrics and translation,
found it meaningful,
maybe we people doubt ourselves more and more as we grow older and older,
remember the times as a kid,
when we believed that we could do anything,
and we have the adventurous trait in us,
to go around trying things out?
and we wouldn't easily give up?
this song reminds me of the belief that we should all regain,
the specific strength of believing that we need..
enjoy:


Brave Heart



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げたりあきらめるコトは 
あればできるから けよう

にしかできないコトがある 
がなくせぬように

つかめ! いた
まもれ! 
たくましいになれるさ
らないパワーが宿る ハートにがついたら
どんないも じゃない
きっとかなうから。。。Show me your brave heart

れのばかりじゃないから たまに
たいるけれど ひろげよう

なんかないけど だから
どこへだってける、

はしれ! より
めざせ! より
しいえるさ
らないる ハートにをついたら
のどしゃぶりも
きっとむから。。。Show me your brave heart

つかめ! しい
まもれ! する
たくましいになれるさ
こわせ! 
くずせ! ぶつかる
 になるから
Believe in your heart


English Translation:

If given a second, anyone can give up and run
So just keep on walking


There's something only you can do
So that this blue planet doesn't lose it's light


Seize the dreams you had!
Protect your beloved friends!
You can become stronger
Unknown power dwells in your heart, when its fire is lit
Any wish, it's true
Will surely be granted...show me your brave heart


Not every day is sunny, so sometimes
Even though a cold rain is falling, just open your umbrella


There's no map of how to live, that's why we're free
You can go anywhere


Run faster than the wind!
Aim farther than the skies!
You can meet a new you
Unknown courage sleeps in your heart, and when you realize
The downpour in your heart
Will surely stop...show me your brave heart


Seize the bright tomorrow!
Protect the ones you love!
You can become stronger
Break that weak self!
Destroy the walls blocking you!
The warm beat of your heart will be your weapon
Believe in your heart

8/22/09

Jie starts to watch B.O.F~ =X
LOLs,
okays,
seriously slacked today,
woke up at 1plus, close to 2pm today,
really pig sia~ ><
then,
after honey stars as lunch,
watched buzzer beat,
but the video loads damn slow,
so i'm still at episode part 3 NOW.
LOLs.
wells,
i went to eat dinner at GWC from 7 to 10plus though,
so alright la~~
then,
on the way back,
guess what?
we sat on a 7-seater cab!
how lucky is that man~ hee hee~ ^u^
anyways,
i am gonna enjoy my last few hours of slacking,
then tmr till wednesday is ITL all the way,
and i mean it! =D
yay~
i have a plan for my lousy brain to absorb info le,
i think?
hopefully it works =X
okays,
off to buzzer beat! XD
JA~
Ongoing!


Firstly,
thanks Ming Ming Jie and Ai Xuan Lao Shi for caring about me... =)
i'm fine,
i think maybe,
i just need to rant, to chase the emo-ness outta me..
else "eyes exercise" will occur..
haha! =P

Next,
today's maths is like, haix, CMI la~
i dun think i'll even pass the paper? =/
but i hope that i do,
and i hope that i pass the module itself!!
anyways,
it's over le...
today and tomorrow shall be a break for me,
before i start on ITL...
ITL, is another killer...
but i'll do my best! ^u^

And And~
Today, went to watch UP 3D with:
Sze Yee, Marlie, Michelle, Shi Yi, Asidah, Ci Long, Derek, Chee Meng..
a total of 9 of us ^u^
too bad Ammelia had to go off =(
wells,
we managed to watch the movie only after a few hiccups and "hardships"
haha! so it was all the more enjoyable! =)
but then,
after watching the 3D version today,
i never regret watching the movie twice,
once for each version,
i watched the normal version with Ai Suan and Aaron the other time.. ^u^
i still laughed at the funny bits,
and i really recommend ppl to watch Pixar Cartoons in 3D,
but that's if you can afford it la~!
cox the effects are niceeeeee =D
then after the movie,
we went to walk walk around,
then went to play arcade,
here's an interesting video:






Sze Yee vs Shi Yi!


and i need to improve on my coordination!! ><
then went to makan at KFC,
irony is,
we ate KFC(CM's fav), without him around =X
here's the photos! XD




act cute sia =X




everyone's eating and Derek's kissing Ci Long? *gasps*
NO LA~ LOLs, angle problem =P




Sleeping Beauty Lim Shiyi~
She sleeps at KFC~ =P




The teeny tiny weeny "Hao Laaaaa Princess",
aka MLLY (Michelle Leong Li Yi)
Sleeps in KFC too~ =P




The teeny tiny weeny Marlie!
and a grumpy pouting "Hao Laaaaa Princess" =X




Makan Makan, Talk Talk~ =)




Candid shot! =D


he's so gonna kill us~ hahaha!
then i went home earlier while the rest went to jalan jalan..
sorry that i am so spoilsport =X
but, thanks for the great day out together!
really enjoyed!!! XD

Then,
finally decided to throw away my Yamapi sneakers,
cox it's dirty, torn and tattered to the point that,
you can see my socks easily,
and it already really outlived the normal lifespan of a pair of cheapo brandless sneakers..
thanks for the 8 great months "together" ne, my dear sneakers! ^u^
it was nice wearing them~ =)
gonna look for another pair of sneakers,
maybe a plain red one?? =)
In memory of my dear Yamapi sneakers:




from the top, see how tattered and torn they are? =X




To the right it's NEWS~





To the left it's Yamapi~



My Dear Shoes, you shall be greatly missed. =)

Hmmms,
and Jie just asked me whether i wanna go watch UP with her and Dan Dan tmr...
LOLs!
i'm not going la~~
watching it 3 times is a bit over?
although the story is niceeeeee,
and on top of that,
my bank is slimming down huh.. ><
LOLs,
ya,
so tmr's gonna be my rot-at-home-and-slack day =P

Oh, and Sze Yee,
i'm gonna cheat, =X
i'm gonna watch Buzzer Beat today and tomorrow,
since there's only 6 episodes..
so sorry..
cheating here.. ><
but yamapi is niceeeeeee XD
hahas...

And,
i changed my Blog Song too~
It's Arashi's newest Song, 5x10,
which is the song that commemorates their 10th year together as Arashi..
Cool right?
10 years man! =D
this song is nice,
i like the harmonising parts! XD
here are the lyrics! =D



Arashi - 5x10

出会って数年 あれは偶然
The years since we met was all a coincidence
泣きもするね 気付けば10年
We've even cried, by the time we noticed it's been 10 years

空に舞い上がっていく風船
The balloon that rises up into the sky
花奢な五人で乗り込む揺れる船
The swaying ship that we luxuriously boarded
ただ笑うとこ
Simply laughing
きっと夢が叶うとこ
For sure making dreams come true
そう言い聞かせてた頃の過去も
Yes, that period when we were told what to do in our past too
今胸にまとう
It's all stored away in our hearts

焦り 不安 憤り
Impatience, unease, resentment
ばっかなんか感じていた日々もあったな
There were days where we felt nothing but that too
でもあなたがいてくれたから
But because you were there for us
その笑顔暖かったから
Because those smiles brought us warmth
歩いて来れたんだね
We were able to get to this point
横に並び掴んだ手
Your hand that grasped ours at the sides
このすこした時間さえって 
This period of time that had passed with you
なんかね 今はまだただ照れるね
For some reason, we're still a bit shy

体中に風を集めた僕ら支えきれない悲しみも 
The winds that gathered inside us, the sadness that we couldn't support too
あなたがいたから 笑顔にできた
It was because you were there that we were able to smile

無敵に奏でた 不協和音は 
The unrivaled dissonance that we used to play
いろんな世界を見てきたんだ
Saw all these different worlds
気がつけばいつの間にかそれが
By the time we noticed, somewhere along the way
もう 僕らになってた
That had already turned into us

本気で泣いて(すごした時間は沢山の愛の)
We genuinely cried (The time that had passed was full of love)
本気で笑って(言葉にしかもうほんとに何もないの)
We genuinely laughed (We really have nothing else left but words)
本気で悩んで(向かい起こせと再度)
We genuinely worried (Let's face forward once again)
本気で生きて(重ねた分のでっかい愛を)
We genuinely lived (With this large accumulated portion of love)
今がある 胸をはれる
And now, we can stand tall with pride

一歩一歩 近い道などないなら
One step at a time, if there are no roads close by
信じる道をいくしかないから
We can only take the road we believe in
もしもあなたが泣いたら
If you ever shed tears
ここでまた会おうよ 
We'll meet you here again
この愛変らず 奴らからただ愛を送る(Yeah)
This love will never change, we'll send you nothing but love (Yeah)
ともに望む未来という for you(Yeah)
And wish for the future together, for you (Yeah)
先の山は風で超えれ 飛べる
Surpass the mountain ahead with the wind, fly
僕らの色で辺り染める
We'll dye the surroundings with our colours

一人ぽっちで覘いた空を
The sky that we gazed up at by ourselves
あなたも見ているのかな
Were you looking at it too?
なら歌うよ 空に向かって
Sing if you have then, face the sky
そう 力の限り
That's right, with everything you've got

本気で泣いて(すごした時間は沢山の愛の)
We genuinely cried (The time that had passed was full of love)
本気で笑って(言葉にしかもうほんとに何もないの)
We genuinely laughed (We really have nothing else left but words)
本気で悩んで(向かい起こせと再度)
We genuinely worried (Let's face forward once again)
本気で生きて(重ねた分のでっかい愛を)
We genuinely lived (With this large accumulated portion of love)
今がある 胸をはれる
And now, we can stand tall with pride

僕ら交わした声が消えないのならば
If our converged voices will not disappear
誓えるよ この愛を 百年先も 
We'll make a vow then, no matter how many centuries pass
笑顔が咲いてますように
We'll make smiles blossom with this love

ずっとずっと心にあるんだ 
You've always, always been in our hearts
だからこそ伝えてみたいんだ
That's why we want to try conveying this
ありがとう
Thank you
これからも ありがとう
From here on too, thank you

ここに立っている 僕たちが今 
The us that's standing here now
輝けるのは 君がいるから
are shining because of you
五人でいる ずっといる
The five of us are here, we'll always be here

今までを力に替えで
If you turn everything up until now into strength
変わらぬ愛で 包み込んだら
And wrap it up in unchanging love
永遠が ほら 永遠が
Eternity, look, eternity
僕と君だけに生まれたんだ
Was created only for you and I

8/20/09

i just realised,
i really do look like a punching bag..
no,
probably blaming bag, venting bag..
well,
i guess i asked for it?
but i didn't expect that right now,
you'd still do that to me,
like when we were kids...
i thought you wouldn't do that anymore,
but you did,
maybe i'm just the unwanted extra daughter and sister..
i still remember you telling me,
"如果你是男的/弟弟就好"
a daughter and a son was the ideal combination for mummy right?
we both knew that too well,
because mummy told us before right?
and,
that's why she cried when she found out she was pregnant with a baby girl,
aka yours truly..
she cried not over joy...
wells,
nevertheless,
yours truly is here,
and already 17 years old,
there are more 17 years out there for me,
i guess? and i hope so..
and to you,
i wouldn't say i'm disappointed or what,
cox i'm in no position to be...
but,
i dunno,
it just feels kinda sad now, to me..
to be hearing everything you said just now...
but, as i said,
i brought it upon myself...
wells,
good luck for your paper tomorrow...
if you ever read this before you go to school...
it wasn't only raining outside tonight,
it was also raining inside here...
okay,
i admit,
i was reluctant in going out,
and i wan't observant enough,
and didn't react accordingly,
this sucks,
totally spoilt my mood...
and then,
i really believe that he wasn't solely angry with this matter only,
he's probably also angry with a dozen other stuff,
and then,
dandan irritated him dozens of times today...
do i look like a punching bag to you?
it's like,
since dunno when,
i am being scolded when he is unhappy with other stuff,
and it's like my fault that these things happened?
yeah, maybe, probably,
that's why he scolded me right?
and i really sometimes do feel that,
when you all need me,
you'd talk to me,
when you dun,
you dun even bother reacting when i talk to you?
and when i dun,
it becomes my fault,
it becomes me being rude,
haix,
i dunno,
no matter what,
i dun have a right to get angry at you,
or be unhappy with you,
because you are people i face everyday,
and because you are important, indispensible people
is it my teenage angst acting up,
or your middle-age frustrations?
i wonder,
really...

what sucks even more is,
i freaking can't do my maths,
and i know i definitely need more than a pass to pass my module..
damn it,
i wonder how i will die tomorrow..
Detective Conan Nino






This is Ninomiya Kazunari 二宮和也!
aka nino! =D
came across this picture of him from scans of his recent Musical, aka Butai...
and doesn't he look like Detective Conan? ^u^
hee hee~
so cute...
okays,
enough of my rubbish,
i ought to do maths =X
JA~
我觉得阿嫲回来了 =)

8/19/09

Had maths remedial today,
took quite a long time to complete questions,
this is bad =X
but,
i guess,
i am more clear about concepts?? =)

and,
went to eat at Alumni with Sze Yee, Michelle and Ammelia after remedial,
then went to look for the guys(Derek, Ci Long, Chee Meng, Yu Sheng) at GymWerks,
then,
Ammelia sang!
and i LOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVEEEEEE her voice~
TOTALLY!!!! XD

and then,
we went to Queensway,
followed by Anchorpoint
to look for a vendor to make class tee,
and also i carried out part of my plan ____________
hahahahahaha!
so funny!
was laughing when i bought the stuffs!
i bet i must have been weird~ =X
but oh wells,
it was fun! =D

Derek went off early,
and the rest went to Ikea,
while i went to Tiong instead,
had hugs from Michelle and Sze Yee before they crossed overheaad bridge..
Sweeet~!
Thanks for the hugs! =D

and at tiong,
continued with my plan_________
hahahahaha~
seriously damn funny~
and then went home,

and i bathed and completed 1 paper,
with only 1 and a 1/2 qns not done,
cox dunno how to do =X
am asking Sze Yee later..

okays,
enough of my crap,
going off to do another paper...
or sleep early, so that i wun oversleep tmr...
JA~