Because i don't deserve anymore..
I wonder what happens,
I wonder what i will do,
I wonder what i will become,
but nevertheless,
I learned once again that,
life is about choices,
When i made the choice to commit,
I have to accept the consequence that comes with it,
what i ask for is that,
DO NOT ever use SJ as the bad guy,
DO NOT ever blame it on SJ,
DO NOT ever speak ill of SJ.
SJ is innocent,
whatever happens,
it's my own doing,
whatever that is bad,
is me,
NOT SJ.

That's all that i ask for,
and that's all that i can say.