looking at blogs around,
made me realised so much that i've missed out on my corps,
so much i've missed out on my juniors' progress...
realised that i'm not really in synch with the corps?
really regretted not being able to go down today..
=(

it's been a while,
since i had this kinda feeling,
the kind of feelings i get when i enter GESS early in the morning,
seeing the empty arena and the spot that i used to sit at in the morning,
seeing the beautiful clear, dark, pre-lighted sky,
remembering stupid, funny, cranky weird moments i had,
teasing eelin,
bullying swee hong,
disturbing jacelyn,
whacking rhonda's head,
talking to cheryl till sometimes either we get emo or pek chek, or "haiz" feeling,
cheonging homework of the day,
grabbing my tie from my bag at 7am and going to toilet duty before the "horse-riding" music starts playing...
recess-ing with OT5,
going to class late cox of duties,
trying to skive off running in PE by going really slowly,
asking one another tests formats, questions,
getting sian over SPA and practicals,
cheonging off for trainings without lunch,
water bomb wars,
orientations,
wearing my full U on TDF, SJD, NDP,
the ATCs that we had,
the camps i attended,
the quarrels, unhappiness, cold wars going on here and there
so much so much,
when i read what the sec 3s and 4s wrote on their blogs..
all these memories just flooded in,
i am being silly,
because this will be a yearly process..
i feel like tearing about right now,
pathetic sia~
hahas..

i am seriously getting old,
and i have a love-hate relationship with this fact.