Happy 44th Birthday to SINGAPORE!





sometimes, time really flies...
coming to think of it,
as i grow older,
the fear of losing my family members gets stronger and stronger,
especially my grandparents at the moment...
1995-ah gong left,
2007-ah ma left,
now, it's yeye and ah ma left...
both paternal,
both i've lived with since i'm 9 months old,
till i was 7 years old, i came back to live with daddy and mummy...
i do hope that they would at least be able to see either Jie or i get married,
wells, probably Jie la~ hahas..
but,
i've thought about this before,
if anything were to happen to them,
nothing would ever be the same again...
how i wish i could selfishly hold on to them forever..
i know,
everyone would probably tell me,
"it's part of life" and stuff...
i know that also,
i understand..
but still,
haiz..
i know i'm thinking way too much at the moment,
but as i grow older and older,
i'd think about how they're also growing older and older,
and it leads me to think in this direction...
='(
i am a selfish shit,
a wilful idiot,
a spoilt brat,
and i hope for this matter,
i can stay that way,
and have them with me for as long..
but i'm being impratical...
hahas.....
......