nobuta wo produce

konbachiwa(hmmm.. kinda ''addicted to starting my posts like that.. haha.. =P)

well, been slacking around and watching lots of video online these 2 days...
finished the ENTIRE series of Nobuta wo Produce...
It's actually the first drama series of YAMAPI that i watched.. but haven't been able to complete it... haha.. so since i had time, i decided to rewatch everything from the start...
and, yes i did it this time round, managed to complete it.. whoots~
wacthing it makes me cry like i've never done before since dunno when.. crying, not only tearing desu... maybe it's cox in like 1 month plus time, me myself gonna graduate, and as i said efore, i kinda dislike (well, maybe to the extend of hate) partings and leaving... i do know that it's inevitable and stuff, but seriously, i hate the feeling that comes with it.. and it's like kinda killing me in a way.. ><... maybe i'm just a stupid weakling who seriously lack the courage and all to face up to this reality.. i think so.. haix...

and also, after watching the drama, i realised that i've been such a lousy person all this while...
i'm really really sorry to all those around me, that you all had to put up with such a person like me.. hontoni gomenasai....

the most impotant thing i kinda learn from this drama, however, is that, while you are still in the protected environment of school, (erm, probably the best stage will be secondary school?), cherish the fact that you are allowed to do what you like, what interests you, what you actually want... and this is also the best period of time whereby you do really STUPID, FUNNY, RIDICULOUS, EMBARRASSING stuff together with your friends, classmates, squadmates, CCA mates etc etc etc... because, once you miss this period of time, you'll never ever get that chance again.. that's what i think.. because after secondary school, you would have been deemed as a ''young adult'', and i guess the society, blah blah blah stuff will start coming... and image, whatever whatever stuff would start to be important.. and you never know, there MIGHT be a chance that you start becoming someone that isn't yourself anymore... it's kinda scary, actually, but i think that in some way, life just works in this manner?? i'm not expecting this to be something universal, just stating my opinions ba.. haha... but i hope that those who are still in the period of time of being able to ebjoy yourself and create the memories with your friends, please don't hesitate, just go ahead...

don't leave any regrets in life, do things right now while you still can...

haix.. kinda feeling sad now.. i'm almost gonna be past the period of time already... what i've missed out, i'm never gonna chase it back anymore... i'm never able to anymore..
BUT, from now on, i'm gonna do what i still can to make sure i leave, at the end of the day, with lesser regrets...

also, i REALY REALLY REALLY hope that i would NEVER EVER become someone who's unable to be truthful to even myself... i hope i would never have to ''lose myself'' to all the blah blah blah whatever stuff that's coming up ahead..
because, i think, that'll be the saddest thing to happen to me, ever..

haha.. oh well, enjoy whatever times you have, yups!! good luck for everything, go for what you trully want, be it results, goals, dreams, or even ''everyday stuff'' like what you can do for someone else..

~live life to the fullest, leave no regrets(wherever and whenever possible!!)~

Ja~ =)