hihi
konbawa(good evening)..

Orientation was today...
it was a war~
seriously...

the sec ones are really...
well, shan't say too much..
argh~
oh wells~~~~
=_=

hmmm.. today, somehow, got a few messed up here and there..
and i ended up doing CPR demonstration...
wells, at least managed to somehow help ba..
hopefully...
just that i think i too long never do CPR+set up stuff for SJ...
feeling kinda tired and weak after the whole thing end..
went shopping for a bit after that lor..
gotta settle some forms by 10th..
ganbatte kudasai~
haha.. =P

wells, i guess that'll be my update for today ba..
JA~

1. The person who tagged you is?
Swee Hong aka baka#1

2. Your relationship with him/her?
friend..

3. your 5 impressions of he/she?
baka, funny, lame, emo, small kid

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you.
not sure ah... hmmm.. maybe saying that i'm partially male??(memorrable doesn't have to be good?? haha.. =P)

5. The most memorable they had said to you.
hmmm.. i dunno... haha.. =P

6. If they become ur lover, you will?
don't think so ba? he treats me as a guy? haha.. =P

7. If he/she becomes your lover,thing he/she has to improve on will be?
if ANYONE becomes my lover, probably try not to change that person ba... cox i myself, erm, got a lot of things can change, so can't demand changes.. haha.. =P

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will?
don't talk??

9. If she/he dies , you will?
attend his funeral

10. What is it you want to tell he/she now?
happy school reopen, i'm outta school already.. haha.. =P

11. Your overall impression of them is?
good, if not why would we still be friends?? haha.. =P

12. How do u think ppl around you will feel around you?
normal?? dunno...

13. the characters you love yourself are?
clean freak??

14. On the contrary,the characters you hate youself are?
childish thinking, LAZINESS, an endless list actually... haha.. =P

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
someone useful ba... but i'm fine with who i am lor... cox i'm already like that... okays, i'm talking crap... haha.. =P

16. For people that you care and likes you, say something to them.
thanks so much! from now on, Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu~

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish how they feel about you.
1. Shobana
2. Cheryl
3. Wan Teng
4. Rhonda
5. Jacelyn
6. Ryan
7. Benjamin
8. Emily
9. Tiffany
10. Louiza

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
(Ryan) Hmmm.. he has lots of rumours... well, the ''officially accepted'' one is Sharon?? haha.. =P

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
(Tiffany) Female.

20. If no.7 and no.10 are together, will that be a good thing?
(Benjamin, Louiza) haha... =P Ms. sotong will be jealous??

21. What is no.2 studying about?
(Cheryl) twilight... haha.. =P jkjk

22. What was the last time you had a chat wif no.3?
(Wan Teng) the last time i saw her.. haha... =P

23. What kind of music band no.8 like?
(Emily) hmmm... not sure.. haha.. =P

24. Does no.1 have any sibling?
(Shobana) Yes... =)

25. Will woo no.3?
(Wan Teng) ROFL! why would i? i'm straight! haha.. =P

26. How about 7?
(Benjamin) Nope, he's taken... and i'm not so interested in guys younger than me.. haha... =P

27. Is no.4 single?
(Rhonda) Wells, hmmm... haha... =P

28. What is the surname of no.5?
(Jacelyn) Angkasa

29. What is a hobby of no.10?
(Louiza) going gaga over MatsuJun... haha.. =P

30. does no.5 and no.9 get along well?
(Jacelyn, Tiffany) They dunno each other...

31. Where does no.2 studying at ?
(Cheryl) fresh graduate of Gan Eng Seng School...

32. Talk about something for no.1.
(Shobana) Let's DBSK again sometime soon! haha.. =P

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
(Emily) I'm straight i'm straight! haha... =P

34. Where does no.9 live?
(Tiffany) erm... good question, i dunno... haha.. =P

35. What colour does no.4 like?
(Rhonda) a lot ba i guess?? haha... =p

36. Are no.1 and no.5 are best friend?
(Shobana, Jacelyn) hmmm... they're more of a senior and a Junior ba???

37. Does no.1 have any pet?
(Shobana) Does Kamenashi-san count?? he's all over her room... haha... =P

38. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
(Benjamin) Nope, my Yamapi and ChangMin are much much sexier and hotter... haha... =P

39. What is no.10 doing now?
(Louiza) Schoolling

hihi..

konbawa(good evening)...

hmmm.. today has been fun ne..

went out with Shobana today before her work..

i was uper late.. like 1 hour later than the meeting time??

this really broke me record for being late..

ahh.. gomen ne, Shobana... ><

hmmm..

once again, i've been influenced by Shobana...

first is JE,

then DBSK,

now it's Subway~

yes, that's right, Subway desu ne~

haha.. =P

beginning to really like to eat Subway..

although it's kinda expensive,

but it's healthy!

haha.. =P

hmmm..

wells, i somehow, half-quit my job..

cox results are gonna be out soon..

and i have a lot of things i haven't considered and done..

so right now, i'm gonna work till the 6th, then after that work only for 24th, 25th, 28th..

then it's byebye to my job le..

wells, i guess with that, my life will become more like my life...

okays, that sounded uper ridiculous..

but anyways, what i meant is that at least after i quit, i'll be able to do stuff that i want..

one example is SJ..

i've been rather out of contact with SJ for quite a while le..

it's time i should go back and help..

hopefully, i won't be more of a hindrance than help.. ><

and i really wanna plan and spend time the way i want it...

before school etc etc etc kicks in..

haha.. =P

hmmm... back to today..

we saw Utt at Plaza Sing..

well, with 2 female artists, Erica Lee and Melody Chen...

and my conclusion is that, okays, Utt looks good,

but artistes somehow all look horrible in make up off screen??

because their make up is oh-so-thick... =_=

wells, here's a pic..

sorry that the pic is kinda, well, not kinda, it's VERY low quality and taken at a weird angle..

because i suck at taking photographs i think??

*Cherie, it's 8*

haha.. =P

hmmm... then after Shobana went to work, i went home, then after that went out with my family for dinner..

realised that it's been quite a while since we went out together as a family...

really nice... =D

i love me family...

haha.. =P

me and my randomness again..

oh ya, on the way to dinner, we took bus no. 167...

and we've took the new bus...

as in the new design/model etc etc bus..

okays, maybe not say very new since bus no. 851 has this model/design quite a while ago??

but it's my 1st time taking the new one, so it's new to me..

haha.. =P

wells, it's quite nice and cool i think...

like more spacious..

and more handicap-friendly..

and the best part is that the bus moves without irritating engine sounds+the glass is rather soundproof i think??

cox there's minimum noise from outside when in the bus...

here's a couple of pics of the interior of the bus...

yups..

wells, that's about it for today then..

JA~

today has been a long day for me i guess..
and i think i've grown, psychologically..

To:Tomodaichi~

sorry that i've been so childish all along..
regarding today, i'm glad that i didn't reacted like what i would normally do...
i've finally managed to pause for a while, and think about the whole situation...
i think that, if i've reacted in the manner that i normally do, it'll probably strain everything between us..
and it would have caused unnecessary blaming cum misunderstandings...
so, if happen so that anyone feels bad, pls don't be...
dun think too much about it...
dun take it to heart..
because what happened today, is actually what people usually do..
it's nothing odd or what..
i guess what ojou-sama said is correct...
i'm always thinking too much..
haha.. =P
i realised that i'm seriously too sensitive for my own good...
probably because i think too much, then it gets tiring for you all..
i'm really sorry about that ne...
i realised how irritating i've been...
all the while..
gomenasai...
i've decided to change the way i handle things..
and at the same time change my mindset too..
i think in that part, i'm slowly growing up...

why the sudden decision?
i'm not trying to attract attention...
or trying to act emo..
or whatever you can think of...
it's just that, cox realised that today is the start of school...
seeing many people in uniforms..
it felt strange seeing that on my way to work..
then it's like, after sorting out my thoughts after work, on the way home,
i remembered that we've grown up..
we've graduated from GESS le..
and that means, soon, we'll be going to different schools, in different environment, having different schedules, living at different paces...
if i continue being so childish, you all will eventually hate me..
because it's uper tiring to be with someone who's so childish...

right now, i just hope that we can spend quality time together...
like have fun, or just hang out when we want to...
cox it'll get difficult to do that once we start new schools??

well, i guess, my mindset now comes from,
Backstreetboys' song--inconsolable...
one sentence says:
''i don't wanna waste another day''
that's what i think right now...

ne, minna,
Kame-oji, Buta-hime, Ojou-sama, Mei-san,
sorry about all the trouble and unhappiness i've caused all the while...
really sorry..
and thanks so much for everything..

yup.. so from now on,
yoroshiku onegaishimasu~

i understand the feeling of regaining something that you have lost..
through losing my internet coneection today..
LOL..
nearly killed me...
haha.. =P
tried 20 plus times at gateway summary..
then tried smartfix..
all cannot sia..

then started panicking etc etc etc
and went to disturb my uncle about it..

was resorting to call the nasty hotline of singtel..
which takes decades to get through..
and the internet connection sunddenly return to normal by itself..
LOL..

wells..
it's lame, i know..
haha.. =P
JA~

hihi..
konichiwa(good afternoon)..

eito, this is my first post for 2009??
yoroshiku onegaishimasu, everyone..

eito..
i've been changed to work at Plaza Singapura ranch for work...
it's really busy there..
so unlike Raffles Place...
guess i wun get to have any breaks aka slacking time like at Raffles Place..
Haha.. =P
that's sad ne~
but, i guess it's still alright...
cox at least the seniors at Plaza Sing are quite nice...
got one senior, she is an L fan..
as in L from deathnote..
and we'd be like, my bf, Yamapi, my bf, L etc..
LOL..
i guess that makes work less sian ba..

well then, today, i'll work hard too..
to those who just started school today,
good luck!
dun get into trouble on the 1st day of school ar..
haha.. =P

well, that's about it then..
JA~

1 Litre of Tears

finally, i've managed to complete watching the whole series...
i've never cried so much over a drama before...
now i truly understand what people mean by
''crying so much that your eyes hurt''
your eyes really do hurt...
haha.. =P

but, it's really a great drama ne~
it's a drama that makes people reflect, and think..
somehow, i think i got some ''after thoughts'' from watching this drama..
because the characters are so real, so human..
just like anyone of us...
i guess maybe it's cox it's so realistic that it hurts..

why i would say that is because,
let's say,
for the female lead,
who suffered from spinocerebellar degeneration disease, she is so real because she is like anyone of us..
she thought of giving up..
she felt negative..
she thinks that everything is so unfair...
she finds no meaning in life...
she complained, ''why does it have to be me?''
she falls...
she minds what other people think...
she can't accept the truth...
she cries..

she only starts to appreciate what she has/used to have only when she suffered from the disease, and starts to lose basic human abilities one by one...
slowly, she starts to:
-lose the ability to balance herself
-lose the ability to run
-lose the ability to walk properly
-lose the ability to control her limbs
-lose the ability to swallow properly
-lose the ability to talk
-lose the ability to write

for her family,
her younger brother at one point, felt ashamed to have an ill elder sister like her..
her parents tried escaping from the truth by hiding her condition from her...

for her lovers,
the initial one is a male senior in her basketball team,
he minds her condition and didn't go to the date promised..
the male lead, he gave up easily just because the female lead wrote a letter to him to break up, and didn't meet her for 1 whole year...
(although in the end he really couldn't let her go and went back to her)

for her friends,
one of her best friends who always helped the female lead, eventually felt tired of helping her and broke down when being asked about how she felt...

for her classmates,
they couldn't stand the normal lessons being delayed because of the female lead eventually and although they pretend to be nice and acted as though everything is fine, but actually they didn't like the trouble...

All of these, are the not so nice, not so strong, not so positive side of human being...
but it is exactly these things that made the characters seem like humans...
it is exactly these things that made this drama so realistic..
because, reality hurts just cox the world's not perfect..
and the world's not perfect cox humans, living things, aren't perfect...

i guess, in life, we need such things, so that we would fall down...
and when we fall down, instead of looking down, crying, panicking,
maybe we should just try to look up at the sky..
the beautiful blue sky over our heads..
just like the female lead of this drama...

and maybe, just maybe, we should try to change our mindset..

instead of counting the number of things that you can't/can no longer do, why not start counting the number of things that you can/still can do?

well, i guess this drama is so real basically cox it's adapted from the journal of a girl in real life who suffered from the mentioned disease, from the time she had the disease, till the point in time when she died..
and, till now, the sad thing is, that disease, Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease, still has no cure..
and this disease is happening to teenagers, possibly from as young as 12...


haix~
people, just before we enter 2009, maybe you can watch 1 Litre of Tears...
it might help you think through some stuff..
haha.. =P
yup yup..
anyways,
Happy New Year in advance everyone!!!!
take care loads...
JA~

*sometimes, when you fall, it takes 1 Litre of Tears to stand up and smile again*