today has been a long day for me i guess..
and i think i've grown, psychologically..

To:Tomodaichi~

sorry that i've been so childish all along..
regarding today, i'm glad that i didn't reacted like what i would normally do...
i've finally managed to pause for a while, and think about the whole situation...
i think that, if i've reacted in the manner that i normally do, it'll probably strain everything between us..
and it would have caused unnecessary blaming cum misunderstandings...
so, if happen so that anyone feels bad, pls don't be...
dun think too much about it...
dun take it to heart..
because what happened today, is actually what people usually do..
it's nothing odd or what..
i guess what ojou-sama said is correct...
i'm always thinking too much..
haha.. =P
i realised that i'm seriously too sensitive for my own good...
probably because i think too much, then it gets tiring for you all..
i'm really sorry about that ne...
i realised how irritating i've been...
all the while..
gomenasai...
i've decided to change the way i handle things..
and at the same time change my mindset too..
i think in that part, i'm slowly growing up...

why the sudden decision?
i'm not trying to attract attention...
or trying to act emo..
or whatever you can think of...
it's just that, cox realised that today is the start of school...
seeing many people in uniforms..
it felt strange seeing that on my way to work..
then it's like, after sorting out my thoughts after work, on the way home,
i remembered that we've grown up..
we've graduated from GESS le..
and that means, soon, we'll be going to different schools, in different environment, having different schedules, living at different paces...
if i continue being so childish, you all will eventually hate me..
because it's uper tiring to be with someone who's so childish...

right now, i just hope that we can spend quality time together...
like have fun, or just hang out when we want to...
cox it'll get difficult to do that once we start new schools??

well, i guess, my mindset now comes from,
Backstreetboys' song--inconsolable...
one sentence says:
''i don't wanna waste another day''
that's what i think right now...

ne, minna,
Kame-oji, Buta-hime, Ojou-sama, Mei-san,
sorry about all the trouble and unhappiness i've caused all the while...
really sorry..
and thanks so much for everything..

yup.. so from now on,
yoroshiku onegaishimasu~