haix...
frankly speaking, i am kinda regretting my choice in choosing to work at Shop and Save....
wells,the work etc is ok..
it's just that, i feel bad...
because of this job, i pang seh a lot of ppl...
pang seh Shobana, cox we wanted to see some stuff initially...
then pang seh SJ, cox i wanted to go back for sec 1s de 1st training...
then the other day, Esther was saying that she was thinking about ice-skating, 4 ppl more worth it...
kinda spoiled her mood or sth i guess...
=(
haix...

but then again, if i didn't work, i wouldn't be able to go out also ba..
cox of money...
sian...
why am i worrying about money right now..
=_=
i shouldn't be...
but...
haix...


how i wish i could do Iwase Ken's ''Hallelujah Chance'' right now...
to go back to secondary school days, and live it again...
and to have more fun and memories with all my friends...
i am missing wearing School Uniform..
am missing slacking in class,
missing passing messages around when the teachers didn't notice...
missing passing food to one another under the ''cover'' of tables/books/paper..
missing wearing school tie...
missing sitting at the place that i always sit at in the morning..
missing being the only person in school at around 6.10am...
missing cheating to run less for PE lessons..
missing having to wake up at 5am everday...
there're so many things i miss about GESS right now...
but, i can't really go back and do things all over again right...
there's no way i can ''Hallelujah Chance'' my way back to the past like kenzou...


frankly speaking,
i think i'm a cowardy kinda person,
who can't really let go of what happened...
i am the kind that always harp on the past..
and in the end, irritates everyone...
and people start hating me...
haix..
i'm trying to change..
stopped harping on the past...
but somehow,
one part of me can never change...
which is,
i'm always missing the past..
sorry, eh...
not emo-ing here..
just that i'm missing my secondary school life a lot right now..
maybe it built up in me..
and happens so that i'm all alone at home...
things start rushing in...
haha..


oh ya,
recently,i've been reading the original book for 1 litre of tears...
the original book is actually the compiled diary entries of Aya, the real girl who suffered from Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease...
although up till now, i've only read till 1/3 of the book,
but it made me feel that in comparison,
the drama is too beautified...
the real things that happened to Aya was more cruel than the drama...
but then again,
as what Cheryl said,
there's the love factor in the drama...
without that, not much people will watch?
i guess that's kinda true..
if it's based vigilantly on the book...
then it would've become a documentary instead of a drama...
haha.. =P
but, the book really made me feel sad for Aya...
because, in real life, she suffered the disease since about 15 years old...
it's like, so young,
yet life is torturing her like that..
haix...


wells,
been talking a lot today...
haha.. =P
guess i should stop here then..
JA~