yeye

yeye has been diagnosed with first stage cancer.
to be honest, i'm kinda afraid.
despite the fact that it's first stage, but given yeye's age.
add on his character of dislike for surgery/treatment, and you get the most dangerous combination of a patient.
can you imagine, when i am afraid already.
how exactly is yeye feeling?
and then mummy told me that he opted to have treatment instead of surgery.
this, kinda sucks. really.
according to Jie, it's better to have the surgery, recovery is faster and it's less tedious.
but i am not keeping my hopes up for yeye to agree to surgery.
he wouldn't. give his character. he would never.
sigh. this is a long battle against the disease.
more of a battle for yeye than for all of us.
i just really hope that we will emerge victorious.

somehow i just feel like bursting out and crying.
and i feel that i shouldn't be enjoying/being happy. not right now.
i'm confused. or rather, i successfully confused myself again.
sigh...
JA~