29.08.2008

Hi Hi.. Hmmm.. i've been lazy recently.. haven't been updating my blog for quite some time le.. haha..

Well.. today is Teachers' day celebration..
most memorable part of today was the part in the classroom before we went home..
hmmm.. we were preparing for ''prize presentation'' to mrs Iong.. then while waiting outside, mrs Iong was very sad cox about 10 of our classmates didn't come today..
when it's like, TEACHERS' DAY CELEBRATION?!....
well.. if i were her, i guess i'll be sad as well??
hmmm.. then some of us take turns to talk to her while Sheean confirmed the plannings..
I'm not really good at consoling people, but went out to talk to mrs Iong anyways...
and i somehow used an editted version of INTAKE'07's quote..
i told her,''Don't be sad cox of the number of people who didn't come today, instead, be happy cox of the number people who came today.''... sorry.. didn't get rights.. haha.. (well, i'm lame)..

haix, i guess, sometimes, the most unforgettable memories are actually the most painful memories... haha..

well, today, happen to chance across a quote that somehow made sense.. which i guess is also probably the only thing coming from Mr.Adolph ''megalomaniac aka crazy guy'' Hitler...
~things that are said today will easily be forgotten in a few days' time, but actions that are taken will go down in history and be remembered for thousands of years to come~

well, erm, actually actions won't be remembered that long la.. but, it's somehow true that actions really etch in people's memory longer compared to words...
well, that's all..
oh ya, and i guess i won't be posting for quite a while ba..
dunno la... see whether i'm lazy or not.. haha..
Ja~

23.08.2008

Hmmm... just began to realise that my posts are becoming inconsistent...
i think i'm getting lazier.. haha...

today is a HONTONI BORING day... super homestay... probably partly due to the rain that comes, stops, comes, stops, and comes again...
and mum's got a fever.. guess she's got flu... she gets flu easily whenever the weather is inconsistent...
hais.. today seems like a greyish day for me...

The monotony of my life TODAY has made me oblivious to the things happening around me...
I became numb to the time that is slipping pass slowly, bit by bit...
I began to forget that dates which marks the passing of the days of my life..
I am lost in the maze of being very emotionless...
I am becoming less and less human like as the clock ticks...
I hope for something, somebody, to pull my out of this strange trance..
I can't stand this state of me anymore...
It's killing the soul, or whatever, that's within me...
I'm feeling like an aimless zombie...

I know it's IMPRACTICAL, and probably just due to ''BOREDOM'',
But i'm yearning for yamapi's voice right now...
Not on his/NEWS's usual upbeat or mid-tempo or cheerful songs...
But on an unknown track..
A slow but non-depressing song...
Or maybe just his voice mumbling/whispering something...
To get me out of this ridiculous state i'm in..
Even if i dun, or wouldn't, understand, it doesn't matter...

hais.. ppl, i'm not being E-M-O here...
I just feel very emotionless...
i've been feeling emotionless a few times recently...
It's like a very E-M-P-T-Y feeling that's hard to describe...
haha(a no energy laugh)...
I dunno...
maybe i'm just not used to having so much time on my hands, and i dunno what to do with it..
but actually there are things out there for me to do...
but i just can feel anything right now...
i can't even pick myself up to be motivated to do work..
even though prelims are so near..
even though O levels are so near..
haha..

i'll live through this emotionless state..
i guess so, and i hope so...

20.08.2008

Hmmm.. it's been a while since i blogged.. haha..
hmmm.. shall talk bout yesterday then...

yesterday, Esther and i went to Shobana's house...
we watched 'NEWS Pacific concert'!!!!!!!!
OMG!!! that's like the first ever NEWS concert that i watched!!! haha..
being fangirlish here =P..
it's a super duper nice concert..
and the best thing is that they have the documentary... which shows NEWS fooling around, preparing for the concert and stuff.. ah!!! YAMAPI is so KAWAII when he says ''ni hao ma?'' in Taiwan[no fair!! i hope they come to Singapore too!!! but, it's a H-O-P-E.. haha..]
and Ryo started a ''maa-maa'' thing, and all of them kept saying ''maa-maa'' while waiting to try on their costumes.. haha.. actually, i think Yamapi said it the most number of times.. haha.. =P
yup, and lots and lots of funny, nice, fantastic performances and moments in the concert and backstage... it's like so cool... ><... and watching it together with Shobs and Esther makes it EXTRA NICE as we sang along, laugh like hell, imitate NEWS while watching the concert.. haha.. hmmm.. guess that's another memorable memory to my collection.. haha.. =P

well.. that's bout it for yesterday...

now for today... well, today is kinda tiring and sleepy and sian and a bit worrying..

tiring-- we played frisby during PE.. and the start of the game is like the 2 teams stand on each side of the ''goals'', then one of the team throw out the frisby to start the game... and each time either team scores, the scoring ''goal'' hs to switch, and everything has to restart again.. my team kinda lost quite a lot of points, so we kept running.. but it's kinda fun somehow.. haha.. cox it's kinda hard to catch/control the frisby.. for me at least.. haha.. well, as my class has 32 girls[though not all present today, see worrying] and 10 boys, and the guys kept beating all the girls during the ''round-robin tournament'', miss lim[our PE teacher] decided to make it a mass game by having all the girls plus her against the 10 guys...
before you pity the guys, the fact remains that the 10 of them are so strong that they still won despite being heavily outnumbered.. miss lim says cox they're all taller that the girls, so their strategy of throwing the frisby high worked super well...
the most pathetic thing is that we girls didn't even manage to score a single point x_X..
haha.. oh well, it's just pure fun.. who cares bout the result.. haha.. =P

sleepy--well, due to the nice environment of my classroom[actually all sec4express], i felt really sleepy during E-maths lesson[last 2 periods]... i basically just dozed off in the 2nd period... and i woke up at the last part when mr Teo was explaining about one of the questions... LOL.. hmmm.. i guess maybe also cox i slept late last night too.. slept at 12am and woke up at 5am.. LOL.. anyways, sleeping in my classroom has become kinda confortable.. somehow.. haha.. =P

sian--haix.. cox today is doubles day[a lot of double periods], so the lessons all seem very lengthy.. and to ''top it off'', most of the lessons were spent on going through/doing past year exam papers.. it's been like that recently.. getting monotonous le.. kinda.. haha..

worrying--hmmm.. actually it's cox today, both Shobs and Esther didn't come to school!!!
haix.. today morning, i was sitting at the benches talking a bit with some of the intake'07 little kids... then as usual, the music for us to gather and line-up in the arena started playing and i went to fetch my bag.. then i realised that Shobs isn't here yet.. Esther too.. i was looking out for Shobs maybe hurrying in or something, but she didn't.. so line-up and stuff.. then i was feeling kinda worried, cox yesterday, while watching the NEWS concert, they were coughing a few times.. and also, Shobs somehow didn't take her medication from the other time[not that long ago] whenshe fell sick... haix...
i sms them while changing for PE... then they didn't reply.. so i was kinda worried la.. cox like dunno what happened to them..
then at around 11-plus am, Shobs replied, finally!!!
Shobs is down with diarrhoea cox she accidentally drank expired milk..
Esther didn't reply though.. guess she didn't on her phone[as usual]...
Hmmm.. i think maybe Esther is down with flu or sore throat..
haix.. hope they're both alright.. :[...
get well soon~

yups.. that's bout it for today,, Jaa~

16.08.2008

Hmmm.. there's a song[the chorus] which keep ringing in my head since yesterday...

It's Celine Dion's [Because You Love Me]:

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the pain that was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believe
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me...

dunno why though.. hmmm..
but anyways, it's a nice song.. haha.. =)

hmmm... a lot of things happened today.. shall split it up again into parts like what i did for the national day post.. haha.. here goes:

1.Olympics
Hmmm... OMG!!!! Singapore is getting a medal, for sure!! whoots~.. That’s like so cool can..
erm, i'm sounding noop here.. but it's okai.. Salutes to the table tennis women's team.. Girl power.. whoots~(the second for today.. lol)

annnD... Micheal Phelps gets another gold!!! whooo~~.. He’s like, damn cool can?!..
Omg, he's cool..he has the aura of a champion.. and he has good attitude too!! omg.. haha.. =P

2.To the Sec 1s [intake'08]
Hey people.. You guys may not like the way you are trained and the way i talk/nag/scold...
But frankly speaking, ask yourself, are you giving your best?? Not only in terms of effort in training.. but also attitude, enthusiasm wise... hmmm??? I’ve seen you all showing much better quality and standard.. i believe that you can do it.. So have the faith in yourself k?? You may hate me for all you want, but i just hope that you will show more dedication and commitment into SJ..
Do things not only with your hands and legs, but also with your heart and soul...

3.To the Sec 2s [intake'07]
Hey... frankly speaking, I really think you all are really capable people.. It’s just that, I dunno why, you all are not making use of your capabilities.. It’s kinda worrying you know.. Not only me.. Louiza and Eng Kang, and Sharon, are actually worrying too... you all are a great batch,, I know about your aim of writing the most glorious history of GESS SJAB... I believe and I know that you all can do it.. Really... but at this moment, what I see is not what you all can truly give.. Your abilities are far more than this...

Louiza was very worried, and we were discussing about how to relight your faith and enthusiasm towards SJ.. She told me that maybe you all haven't let go of Intake'05's departure... maybe it's a transition period... I understand how miserable it is for partings... but brace yourself.. I’m a weakling, far worst than you all, when I faced similar partings.. But I survived.. Frankly, you all are much much stronger than me.. And I believe you all can do it..

And while you are still coping with the sadness, try your best to give Intake'06 your support.. The worst scenario leaders face is when their followers don't follow.. I understand that may be CERTAIN SPECIFIC ISSUES that's bothering you all, but, as what I’ve said, make those issues separate matters from SJ training..

Trust me.. Cheryl might feel miserable to see you all like that too.. even though she didn't really show it.. yups.. And wanna tell you all that anytime you need ears to talk to, you all can approach me.. I dun mind being your listening ears... =)

And btw, I’m not really emoing at outside the field there la.. It’s just that, i don't like the feeling of scolding/talking harshly to you all.. It makes me feel like tearing myself apart.. It makes me feel so miserable.. It makes me feel that... I’m not me... I dunno...

You all may hate/dislike/be angry with me for being so firm and harsh today... I dislike it equally myself... I really believe in the fact that you people are logical and reasonable people who will understand by just saying it to you nicely.. But I dunno why.. Today, you all are kinda not in the usual condition as before.. As I’ve said, it might have been transition period.. Hope you all will be over with it soon.. And regain your outstanding standards from before.. =)

I have faith in you all.. You all should have faith in yourself too.. Keep the faith alive~ =)

4.To the NCOs [intake'06]
Hmmm.. You people.. I really dunno what to say...

Frankly speaking, I came down today not because i wanted to show off my seniority or what.. I came down cox some of the cadets asked me to.. And I came down because I wanted to see whether everything is fine, and help you all ONLY when it is NECESSARY...

but, ended up, i started to talk harshly towards Sec 1s, Sec 2s, and even you all..

i really don't like doing that... I try not to do that when i was a NCO, and now, i try not to do that as a graduated member of SJAB... but, i had to do that 3 times in a row TODAY... if you think I’m crapping, and you think that talking harshly to people or scolding people is a good feeling, by all means, try... i can assure you, it doesn't feel nice.. AT ALL... to me, I feel like tearing myself apart... it's really a painful thing to do... it doesn't feel right.. it doesn't feel like me at all.. It really messed me up today, really.. It’s really what they call ''heart wrenching''

i hate to say this, but you all are not working together as a batch.. You all are split.. Into 2 major groups.. This isn't what i wanna see... you al are not called NCOs for nothing... you all are split, and not only that, you all are putting in different amount of effort and commitment into SJ..

Some of you all, basically, are doing your best, although things may get difficult, and you sometimes don't really know what to do in some scenarios, but I can see that at least you try... and you have a rather positive attitude towards being an NCO... that's good.. Keep it up..

On the other hand, some of you are coming down for the sake of coming and being an ''honorary'' NCO... this is not really good.. You are actually showing me the reflections of the bad habits of my batch of NCOs, INTAKE'05.. I really hope you wouldn't follow the bad side of ours.. Don’t repeat our mistakes, please...

And in between these 2 extremes, there are people with a kinda half-enthuness.. it's as though you are sick and tired of SJ.. this kinda attitude shouldn't be with you in this current timing and situation.. for these people, please push yourself forward a little.. don't carry on like that, then at the end of the day, look back and say things like, 'I should have done more', 'I’m actually capable of doing more' etc..

ALL of you, don't wait anymore.. Don’t wait till it's over then start to regret... really.. I really hope you all can ''wake up''.. I don't wanna come down for training and take squad, scold people, speak harshly... I’m only here to observe.. Not to take charge..

You are the wind behind the sail and the ship of SJ now.. You are the ones who decide whether SJ move forward, backwards, or stay stagnant.. And I truly hope to see a FORWARD from you all..

I put my faith, hope, and my treasured ''possession'', SJ in your hands, please, trust yourself more, gear yourself up, put in more effort and ''fuel'' into doing things.. When I mentioned that SJ is the love of my life, i really mean it.. Because it's what I treasure MOST in GESS, other than friends and all... SJ is the most dedicated thing I’ve ever committed myself in in my life up till now... I hope you all might somehow feel the same way someday... please, have faith in yourself... and keep the dedication and faith alive~

I’m not sure whether I should have said so much, but I really have no intentions of putting any of you down, or hurting you all in anyway.. i just don't want to see a bad history repeat itself in you guys, and not doing anything to stop it before it's too late.. Hope you'll understand...

You may hate me, dislike me, for all you want, but I just want the BEST to happen to you all..

14.08.2008

well, today's a normal day ba.. i guess..
hmmm.. bad things happen..
CHERIE IS DOWN WITH GASTRIC FLU!!!
haix.. omg la.. didn't expect it to be so serious case..
CHERAY, KAM BAK!!!!(cherie,come back[super-mispronounced])
haix.. take good care.. get well soon..
=)

hmmm.. nothing much ba.. i guess...
well, MICHEAL PHELPS ROCKS!!
he's cool..
pls, let him manage the feat of 8 GOLDS!!!
he's kinda cute, somehow.. haha.. =P
but, oh well, yamapi's cuter, i guess??
to me la, that is..
haha.. =P

hmmm.. have a sudden craving for junk food...
I want sweets!!! and choco pls!!
hahha.. =P

13.08.2008

Hmmm.. well, today's a normal day, except that i did bad things AGAIN!!!
hmmm.. i offended Dina.. cox said stuff that's too much to her.. haix.. what the hell is wrong with me??!!! ---___---

Haix...
Had O level EL oral today... well, erm, the examiners are kinda friendly.. somehow... i think i won't fail ba...
but i don't think i'll score well either..

Hmmm.. did a lot of ''Homework''... feeling kinda satisfied.. somehow.. haha..
Am having a really strange feeling right now..
I am feeling emotionless.. like got no happy/sad
it's just a boring sensation..
and i'm cheering myself up with songs..
wheni'm not even down to begin with..
kinda diao...
no, it's very diao..
LOL...
that's bout it then..

12.08.08

hmmm.. been quite a few days since i posted something..
well, erm, today was, the first day of school of not being a prefect..
feels kinda odd somehow..
really couldn't find my normal school badge after a long hunt for it amongst my drawers...
so i bought a new one from the bookshop today.. Dina bought hers at the same time as me..
it's really odd... haha..
took out SL collar pin today also..
decided that since i've already handed over the corp to Ryan & Sharon, so that makes me a
''RETIRED'' SL... haha..
but my SJ collar pin is still there..
cox to me, the collar pin does not only identify me as just a *SJ member*..
it identifies me as a *First Aider*...
haha.. lame ne.. but, anyways, it's still there lo...

hmmm.. then of course, as i'm no longer a prefect, i gotta go back to my class and line up like a normal gessian during morning assembly... NOW i know how stuffy and warm it is for them.. haha.. feels kinda awkward sitting in the middle of nowhere during morning assembly.. oh well, guess i just gotta go back to class earlier tomorrow morning so that i can sit in line.. haha..

hmmm.. today's the release of O levels chinese results... didn't think i can get the grade i want..
cox checked my answers with with the pros (shi min, yong zhen, shi hui, wan lin) of our level, then like their answers are different from mine.. so kinda worried... but, thankfully, got that grade la.. guess i'm lucky.. probably just SCRAPE through and got the mark on the dot... haha..
Shi Hui, Wan Lin, Shi Min, yong zhen got the A1s, as expected... Yuan Lin got A2..
and guess what, Shiva(primary school friend of mine) SMSed me and asked me bout results.. haha.. hmmm.. something unexpected.. yet it's kinda nice.. cox long time never contact with him le... haha..

hmmm.. one bad news today... well, i realised that YAMAPI is somehow disliked by Shobana and Cherie... Cherie said for her, she dislike due to Yamapi's overexposure in the media.. as in it's Yamapi yamapi yamapi everywhere... cherie said that shobs dun like Yamapi cox of the Jin-Pi pairing cox shobs prefers Akame pairing... haix.. kinda sad in a way la.. cox like my Dear Yamapi is kinda a ''Public Enemy'' amongst my friends who introduced me to JE... haha.. haix.. it's ok... i'll just minimise talking bout him in front of them i guess.. keep the craze over him to myself baz... hmmm.. that seems kinda pathetic somehow.. haha..

well.. another one thing not so happy, and quite serious case today is that i think i did something wrong..
erm, well, i was walking pass cheryl's class, then i was trying to joke with her whether her ''dream came true'' about her results(the dream she had was that her results weren't so ideal).. cox i expected that she scored well.. but she gave a cold expression.. so i tried to find out from her classmates her grades(i think i too KPO le.. x_X).. then they told her to SMS me bout it la.. guess i offended her and upset her and was rude to her for that.. really really really sorry cheryl.. i really really didn't mean it.. hope you're alright currently..

haiz.. so that's bout it then.. see ya soon.. @_@ watashi wa baka dez

Happy 43rd Birthday to my beloved Singapore.. Should’ve done this yesterday, but, seriously knocked-out after bathing..I’m here to say about yesterday.. the day that I would never forget..The end of my SJAB life in secondary school(on official terms la)… here goes…

#slept at 1.30am today, and woke up at 5.00am today morning.. super not enough sleep.. haha.. Hmmm... a lot of things happened today.. shall say it in parts:

1.NDP parade Reached school at 6.12am.. changed to full u and got ready to have a simple internal rehearsal..there were multiple delays, and eventually, we started rehearsal at 6.40++.. 20 minutes later than the scheduled 6.20am.. BUT... i'm really happy with the performance by the squad during our little rehearsal.. because there were quite a few solid bangs... and it was generally ok.. not bad actually..Then, we went for the actual one.. everything waas generally ok.. until the march-pass,where a few of the ppl in the squad made some blunders and our marching became kinda ugly.. hmmm.. i'm not blaming anyone.. cox it's already over.. but i guess this only showed sir lee's 'power' over us.. because we are so stress and tense because he is the guest-of-honour for the parade this year...

2.Felicia-daddy & Martin-mummy, INTAKE'05 nurturers
Was super duper happy since yesterday.. cox Felicia-Daddy said she's coming..She came since early in the morning.. helping check our attire and all.. and she gave me a lot of encouragement prior to the parade.. but.. disappointed her yet again... haix.. @_@.. watashi wa hontoni baka dez.. (i am really stupid) talked to her and gerard about poly life, university, working, society.. heard a lot from them and realised that, i'm such an ignorant person.. and that there's really a lot that i dunno bout all those topics... after that, she stayed on for our graduation ceremony.. gave her a card with notes from our batch... as a small token of appreciaion.. she talked to me after the graduation ceremony.. she told me that i can do things, it's just that i lack the confidence... and she told me to learn to love myself more... and she said a lot of stuff that really make me wanna cry.. i held back initially.. then the tears came.. both of us.. haha.. it's been a long time since i cried..then after that, we went back to SJ, room, spent some time sitting around, then started packing the things in SJ room bit by bit.. Felicia-Daddy cleaned up the whole floor of the SJ room.. and did a lot of packing.. seriously A LOT.. Sec 3s, pls maintain it as clean as it is now as a form of gratitude for mdm Felicia k?.. Or I could just squeeze the life out of you.. haha..

For Martin-mummy, he said that he wasn't able to come yesterday.. he's not sure actually.. then i was kinda feeling that aiya, it's a pity that he couldn't come... then while the preparations of the ceremony was going on, he came!!.. we're like, OMG... he attended the ceremony as well, and he gave me a lot of advices on studies, as well as talk a lot about life in poly… he stayed for very long.. actually, all of us left together.. after all the packings and stuff.. so yups.. haha.. I guess it’s always like that ba.. we’ll always deely-dally then ended up staying very long.. maybe it’s cox sub-consciously, we can’t bear to part??

And, for both of them, they actually PON SCHOOL to come to our graduation ceremony.. really really grateful for that, and really really touched that they came.. but also feel really really bad that they had to sacrifice to do that.. x_X.. mixed feelings.. but, my conclusion is, I stand here, spending the first day of my life after leaving SJ, and looking back at yesterday, I can be very sure that the presence of both daddy and mummy yesterday had really really really made sure that Intake’05 left without any regrets… yups.. so to both of our noble nurturers, care-taker, parents, Thank you so very much for sacrificing so much just to come down.. really grateful to you and really love you!!!.. On the flipside, we dunno when we’re gonna see you again.. but, as what Felicia-Daddy said, anything, we can just approach both of you.. and we can always date daddy.. haha.. =)

3.Sir Hakim
Hmmm.. Sir Hakim… firstly, he took the Corp Photo with us!!!! Whoots~.. although reluctantly(he didn’t want to.. but we just basically pushed him into it.. haha).. that’s the random power of INTAKE’05.. hmm.. or is it whole corp??Seemingly, we’re all crazy ppl.. haha.. hai!! So he took it.. and he attended our graduation ceremony too.. he’s our VIP actually.. arranged for him to give out the graduation certificates to INTAKE’05… suddenly felt that he’s kinda towering and he’s hand is really big.. haha..Then, at the end of the ceremony, he released a breaking news.. he told everyone that he’s gonna leave us after this year, first for NS, then for US for medical studies.. he said he’ll probably spend 10 years there.. which means he’ll have 99.99999% of NEVER comin back… although I knew about him leaving beforehand(I’m told not to tell, you see.. ), but it’s kinda hard to accept it.. hmmm.. felt like bursting out crying at that moment.. but I held back my tears.. forced my tears back ba… maybe it’s cox I didn’ wanna cry in front of everyone.. not because of ‘mian zi’ la.. just really didn’t feel like crying in front of everyone lor… hmmm.. to sir hakim.. although you kept saying that you’re not a very good leader, and kept apologizing to us, but, frankly, from the bottom of my heart, you’re truly a great leader.. a mentor figure to intake’05, and I believe, everyone.. you’ve done everything you can to help us do things to the best we can.. so you shouldn’t think that you’ve not been a good leader.. and, so many ppl cried yesterday not because of nothing.. and so many of us willingly be your followers not because of nothing.. it's not cox you're an 'officer', it's because you are YOU...
would really like to thank you so much for all that you've given us.. without you, i seriously cannot imagine where we'll be.. you've been around since intake'05 was sec one.. and now we've already graduated from SJ.. over the past 4 years, you've contributed and sacrificed so much for us, for the corp.. no amount of words can fully express my gratitude towards you.. REALLY THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

4.INTAKE'05
my dearest squadmates.. after 4 whole years together as a squad, we've really been through a lot.. from sec ones, we've been involed in many many things that are either supposed to be beyond our abilities, or things that are one of a kind, which seniors have never ever gone through... especially during our NCO term.. but we've always managed to pull through it... we may not be the best batch, or the most accomplished batch, in the eyes of ohter people, BUT.. to me, we've been there, done that.. acheived that... we may not be very united.. but, we couldn't have done it witjout one another.. thanks so much for every single thing that happened.. all of you played a part in making my secondary school life, my SJAB life, one that is worth remembering.. on ethat is never to be forgotten.. one that is the best... it's all because of you...
one very regretful thing that i have to say is that, i'm sorry that i have been such LOUSY leader/squadmate throughout these 4 years.. even though Felicia-Daddy said that i've already done what i could, but i still feel indebted towards you all.. i've not really done much to make you all feel more attached to SJ.. in fact, i kinda think that you all might have dislike SJ more because of me.. i dunno.. regarding the graduation package, i really hope that you all liked that certificate.. although it's really nothing much...sorry that i had to delay giving you all the remaining things though... really sorry... last but not least, would like to wish you all best wishes for everything up ahead, and that really hope that all of us can come back to SJ as often as possible... ^^

5.INTAKE'06
well, I kept my promise.. told you all that I’ll make sure that INTAKE’05 shall pass down a clean room to you all.. and we did (although mostly packed by Felicia-Daddy and Jessica).. haha.. and the screw on the trophy cupboard is for hanging the keys to keep it from being lost.. yups.. some form of announements.. haha.. hmmm.. as i've said to RYAN and SHARON, it's all over to you all now... the handrails are officially gone, you all have to KNOW how to walk on your own from now on, leading the followers... LEAD WITH DIGNITY AND PRIDE, AND LEAD BY HONOUR, NOT FEAR... that's my first sentence to you guys.. put aside differences amongst yourself.. learn to move as a team, not as many individuals... and remember to support one another, especially the 2 cheifs... BELIEVE IN YOURSELF THAT YOU CAN DO IT, YOU NEVER KNOW TILL YOU TRY.. don't be afraid if you're given never-done-before tasks.. give it a try.. because even if you do not succeed, you've lost nothing, and on top of that, gain experience.. THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU ACT.. use the big organ residing in your head, in between your temporals to think before you make any moves.. don't ever put the corp , your squamates, or your cadets at the expense of acheiving something.. always look at the big picture and think of consequences... PUT OTHERS BEFORE YOURSELF.. this is something i live by in SJ.. now that you all are LEADERS, all the more you need to do so.. cox TO LEAD IS TO SERVE. as leaders, you all must really take good care of-THE CORP, YOUR FOLLOWERS, YOUR FELLOWS, AND YOURSELF... and LOVE YOURSELF.. yups... cox only then can you learn to love others...
hmmm.. last but not least, really BIG THANKS to-Mr Sim Wen Jie Ryan [for being the CSM,(pls tak good care of the love of my life,SJAB), for doing so much, for the graduation ceremony, for slogging so much since being IC... and for the stress your suffered.. ], Miss Yap Zhi Yun Sharon [for being the DCSM,(pls take good care of the love of my life, SJAB), for doing so much, for being my overall ic of the graduation ceremony, for slogging like hell, for being SO KAWAII.. and for being so kiddy.. haha =P], Miss Quek Jin Yan [for being so KAWAII, for being SOTONG, for cheonging in ANCO after 1st day, for being so dilligent, for her hard hard work.. and for doing so well in tasks assigned to her..], Miss Wong Chen Zhen Louiza [for doing so much till she almost go crazy, for all the stress she suffered, for being so busy, for all the misery she's had.. for being so efficient...], Mr Edward Pang Jian Xu [for being nagged by me so much(eh, go cut your hair la, discipline.. and pls ensure that intake'06 is discipline, then make sure GESS SJAB is discipline), for being thrown so much random stuff to do, for being willing to receive terrible jobs from us] , Mr and Mrs Yeo [for doing so much for the graduation ceremony, for emceeing it.. for doing such a good job for their posts.. stay lovey-dovey.. haha.. =P], Miss Koh Yan Li [for undergoing so much stress cox we overload her with too much jobs.. for doing so much in helping us.. well done, gal!! =)]..

6.INTAKE'07
heys, you guys are really a sweet and nice bunch of little kids.. although you all are kinda really violent at times?? haha.. hmmm.. well, you all are the senior cadets now that sec 3s are NCOs.. gonna go for BNCO soon, then next year going ANCO le.. well, you all are really outstanding as a whole batch.. continue to SHINE like a star in SJ.. I HAVE FAITH IN YOU ALL!!! give your utmost co-operation to the sec 3s.. and as seniors, help pull the sec ones up in all areas.. and for those stronger ones inthe squad, help your not-so-strong squadmates catch-up with you all.. then as a squad, run together forward.. you all can do it de.. yups.. well, don't feel sad anymore.. take INTAKE'05's leave as a buffer period for you all to improve/ as a preparation period for you all, to give us a big surprise when we come back, to see that you all have improved by leaps and bounds, and that you all have made us really proud of you all.. yups.. okok?? i hope that when i'm having lessons, and i hear ''disturbances'' like SOLID BANGS, FORCEFUL & ENERGETIC TIMINGS AND REPLIES from level one, i can say proudly to my friend sitting beside me in class that it's my super cute, energetic, lively, enthusiastic, committed, outstanding cadets falling in, and impress my friends with that.. yups.. things are there to be done.. it's never a case of whether you can do it or not, it's a matter of whether you want to do it or not..

To everyone.. take care loads.. to sec 1,2,3, pls take really good care of THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, GESS SJAB!!! good lucks in all that you do.. take care..=)

04.08.2008

hmmm.. now for today's post..
well, went to school.. brought along the cards for prefects ROD..
completed dina's actually..
asked around fellow non-exco.. realised that most probably, NOBODY is giving anything to fellow prefects from our batch.. kinda feel that if i'm the only non-exco giving on that day itself, it'll be SUPER, DUPER, extra of me.. and it'll be odd also.. so decided that the next 2 days' i'll slowly give out the cards privately.. afterall, the prefects ROD is mainly for exco ba.. for today, i gave to dina and feng jia.. for dina's it's like stuff that everyone will get, plus a 2 page letter to her talking bout stuff since sec one.. felt the sudden urge to see her reaction after reading the letter and card, so kept bugging her and edging her on to read it.. haha.. guess i'm a super irritating person ba..
end up, she read it during mother tongue period, she came back looking touched, yet not touched.. haha.. a state of neutral, i guess?? LOL..

oh ya, and during BIO period, one of the school's admin staff came to our class and called my name.. but cox everyone was going up to mrs iong to get the practice papers so i didn't quite hear him.. and i doubted cox didn't think that any admin staff would look for me.. then shobs told me the admin staff was calling for me..
went to him, he handed me a stack of notification papers and said, "congratulations, pls hand this out to your classmates, thanks" and he just went off like that..
started handing out the notifications, realised that it's actually awards to be given out on national day celebrations.. here are a few of the awards received by my classmates:
~yahyah-Sports Girl Of The Year Award
~dina-Gold General Service Award
~sheean-Gold General Service Award
~feng jia-Gold General Service Award, Colours Award
~shobs-Gold General Service Award
~jun wei-Gold General Service Award
~marcus-Silver General Service Award
~soong ming-Silver General Service Award
~me-Gold General Service Award, SJAB Best Cadet Award
still got lots more, but i can't really remember.. sorry if i didn't list your achievement.. gomen gomen..

here's the list for SJ INTAKE'05:
~cheryl-Gold General Service Award
~lydia-Gold General Service Award
~melissa-Gold General Service Award
~geck ngoh-Gold General Service Award
~shi hui-Gold General Service Award
~yong qing-Silver General Service Award
~pei ru-Silver General Service Award
~hoe yee-Silver General Service Award
~sophia-Silver General Service Award
~Valerie-Silver General Service Award
plus watashi.. but listing personal achievement once is shameless enough.. better not to do it twice.. haha.. :P

came back home after school.. as usual, mum came back at 4++pm.. she bought a carton of MEIJI milk, mixed of chocolate and strawberry flavour.. i helped her to put it in the fridge and realised that it fits nicely into the fridge in exactly 5 rows, 6 columns.. looked like a milk contingent sia.. haha.. here's how the ''meiji milk contingent" looks like in my fridge:

hmmm.. well.. that's bout it then..
today's post is kinda colourful.. haha.. :P
Ja-ne :)

04/08/2008

Hmmm.. been a while since i last posted something.. well, here's some updates for these few days...:)

FRIDAY,01.08.2008
did something really mean to the 6 Sec 2s/3s involved in the NDP squad.. I SCOLDED them, especially the sec 3s, ALOT... To them, i may have sounded like i'm having PMS.. cox, from what i remember, i've not scolded any of my cadets so harshly before in my term of NCO.. i didn't want to scold them.. It's just that, they're not putting in any SPIRIT into th NDP rehearsals..
They're just marching for the sake of marching.. It may have been because they are the ones who're not involved in FDC, which made them think that they're just being THROWN into NDP squad because they're not in FDC... but, what they dunno is that, they're in the NDP squad because they're chosen.. many NCOs told me to put sec ones in instead.. but i'm not doing so because firstly, they know the parade procedure, sec ones will be confused.. more importantly,
i really BELIEVE that the 6 of them CAN DO IT, it's just whether they WANNA DO IT or not..
haix.. it's really really frustrating.. X_X... I feel bad scoldng them.. i really felt like crying when i scolded them... the 6 of you, PLSx3 wake up already.. don't wanna repeat what i've done to you all on friday..

Saturday,02.08.2008
Today was kinda a normal saturday..
as usual, woke up at 10++am, accompanied dan dan watch his cartoons... then went to the coffeeshop downstairs to meet dad to eat breakfast at 11am.. came back up, taught dan dan homework... then at 2++ had lunch at coffeeshop across the street.. mum came after work at uncle's stall in redhill... then went home again.. Sudden gush of adrenaline made me do my BIO notes for test scheduled on 05.08.2008... completed almost 1 chapter.. then shobs messaged me, asked if i was free to meet up to buy present for buta-hime.. went out at around 4+.. supposed to reach Bugi at around 5.. didn't expect the MRT to be so efficient.. reached bugis at 4.4++.. so waited for shobs, esther & mei till around 5+.. went shopping around..
went to the wallet shop, decided after much looking around that our combined present shall be a double HP pouch with the words "I LEFT MY LV POUCH AT HOME".. haha.. kinda bad somehow.. it's supposed to fit cherie's sacarstic nature.. LOL..
after that we shopped somemore.. bought cherie(individual present) a doll key-chain looking like someone wearing strawberry skin(it's red) with stars on the skin and a HP strap attached to the doll.. from action city... kinda lame.. haha.. hop she likes it though..
next, we went to MUJI.. shobs and esther tried on some hats.. haha.. kinda fun la..
then i went to the snacks section, bought the "instant noodles" that sharon and jin yan once let us try during FAC training.. and also a pet bottle milk tea..
last destination was A'n'BC bookshop.. went there to get cheif sim's present.. bought a black notebook with "think out of the box" on it.. realised that i'm really bad at buying presents for guys... no matter seniors/fellow/friend/cousin/juniors, i just dunno what to buy.. but anyway, cheif sim's present was something practical, something that he'll need.. so i guess it's still alright?? @_@.. went home after all the shopping.. shobs, esther and mei went to eat dinner together.. had to go home cox mum cooked.. while waiting for the bus, tried eating the 'instant noodles' as a snack(that's how sharon and jin yan ate the other time).. realised that it was really really salty.. OMG..LOL.. saved the milk tea for monday though.. haha..
anyway, i managed to complete my notes after dinner.. slept at 1++.. LOL..

Sunday,03.08.2008
Today was much more of a common day compared to yesterday.. woke up at around 12++..
did a lot of housework.. watched a bit of TV.. then at around 3pm, went to tiong to meet mum and dad for my supposed lunch.. ordered chicken sphagetti with cream sauce.. guess what? it's the awful, full of onions, vomit-tasting sphagetti that i tried the other time.. really regretted man.. tried eating it but couldn't finish.. felt like puking after that man.. EWW...
then went to popular to buy cards and envelopes for the upcoming Prefects' ROD on thursday, and SJ graduation ceremony on firday.. wrote so much cards that my right hand start to ache.. haix.. worst thing is i have yet to complete the writing yet.. X_X.. slept at 11++ when dad started nagging that it's getting late..

PHEW!! that's a lot.. well, that's for the past few days.. nothing special anyway.. haha..