Happy 43rd Birthday to my beloved Singapore.. Should’ve done this yesterday, but, seriously knocked-out after bathing..I’m here to say about yesterday.. the day that I would never forget..The end of my SJAB life in secondary school(on official terms la)… here goes…

#slept at 1.30am today, and woke up at 5.00am today morning.. super not enough sleep.. haha.. Hmmm... a lot of things happened today.. shall say it in parts:

1.NDP parade Reached school at 6.12am.. changed to full u and got ready to have a simple internal rehearsal..there were multiple delays, and eventually, we started rehearsal at 6.40++.. 20 minutes later than the scheduled 6.20am.. BUT... i'm really happy with the performance by the squad during our little rehearsal.. because there were quite a few solid bangs... and it was generally ok.. not bad actually..Then, we went for the actual one.. everything waas generally ok.. until the march-pass,where a few of the ppl in the squad made some blunders and our marching became kinda ugly.. hmmm.. i'm not blaming anyone.. cox it's already over.. but i guess this only showed sir lee's 'power' over us.. because we are so stress and tense because he is the guest-of-honour for the parade this year...

2.Felicia-daddy & Martin-mummy, INTAKE'05 nurturers
Was super duper happy since yesterday.. cox Felicia-Daddy said she's coming..She came since early in the morning.. helping check our attire and all.. and she gave me a lot of encouragement prior to the parade.. but.. disappointed her yet again... haix.. @_@.. watashi wa hontoni baka dez.. (i am really stupid) talked to her and gerard about poly life, university, working, society.. heard a lot from them and realised that, i'm such an ignorant person.. and that there's really a lot that i dunno bout all those topics... after that, she stayed on for our graduation ceremony.. gave her a card with notes from our batch... as a small token of appreciaion.. she talked to me after the graduation ceremony.. she told me that i can do things, it's just that i lack the confidence... and she told me to learn to love myself more... and she said a lot of stuff that really make me wanna cry.. i held back initially.. then the tears came.. both of us.. haha.. it's been a long time since i cried..then after that, we went back to SJ, room, spent some time sitting around, then started packing the things in SJ room bit by bit.. Felicia-Daddy cleaned up the whole floor of the SJ room.. and did a lot of packing.. seriously A LOT.. Sec 3s, pls maintain it as clean as it is now as a form of gratitude for mdm Felicia k?.. Or I could just squeeze the life out of you.. haha..

For Martin-mummy, he said that he wasn't able to come yesterday.. he's not sure actually.. then i was kinda feeling that aiya, it's a pity that he couldn't come... then while the preparations of the ceremony was going on, he came!!.. we're like, OMG... he attended the ceremony as well, and he gave me a lot of advices on studies, as well as talk a lot about life in poly… he stayed for very long.. actually, all of us left together.. after all the packings and stuff.. so yups.. haha.. I guess it’s always like that ba.. we’ll always deely-dally then ended up staying very long.. maybe it’s cox sub-consciously, we can’t bear to part??

And, for both of them, they actually PON SCHOOL to come to our graduation ceremony.. really really grateful for that, and really really touched that they came.. but also feel really really bad that they had to sacrifice to do that.. x_X.. mixed feelings.. but, my conclusion is, I stand here, spending the first day of my life after leaving SJ, and looking back at yesterday, I can be very sure that the presence of both daddy and mummy yesterday had really really really made sure that Intake’05 left without any regrets… yups.. so to both of our noble nurturers, care-taker, parents, Thank you so very much for sacrificing so much just to come down.. really grateful to you and really love you!!!.. On the flipside, we dunno when we’re gonna see you again.. but, as what Felicia-Daddy said, anything, we can just approach both of you.. and we can always date daddy.. haha.. =)

3.Sir Hakim
Hmmm.. Sir Hakim… firstly, he took the Corp Photo with us!!!! Whoots~.. although reluctantly(he didn’t want to.. but we just basically pushed him into it.. haha).. that’s the random power of INTAKE’05.. hmm.. or is it whole corp??Seemingly, we’re all crazy ppl.. haha.. hai!! So he took it.. and he attended our graduation ceremony too.. he’s our VIP actually.. arranged for him to give out the graduation certificates to INTAKE’05… suddenly felt that he’s kinda towering and he’s hand is really big.. haha..Then, at the end of the ceremony, he released a breaking news.. he told everyone that he’s gonna leave us after this year, first for NS, then for US for medical studies.. he said he’ll probably spend 10 years there.. which means he’ll have 99.99999% of NEVER comin back… although I knew about him leaving beforehand(I’m told not to tell, you see.. ), but it’s kinda hard to accept it.. hmmm.. felt like bursting out crying at that moment.. but I held back my tears.. forced my tears back ba… maybe it’s cox I didn’ wanna cry in front of everyone.. not because of ‘mian zi’ la.. just really didn’t feel like crying in front of everyone lor… hmmm.. to sir hakim.. although you kept saying that you’re not a very good leader, and kept apologizing to us, but, frankly, from the bottom of my heart, you’re truly a great leader.. a mentor figure to intake’05, and I believe, everyone.. you’ve done everything you can to help us do things to the best we can.. so you shouldn’t think that you’ve not been a good leader.. and, so many ppl cried yesterday not because of nothing.. and so many of us willingly be your followers not because of nothing.. it's not cox you're an 'officer', it's because you are YOU...
would really like to thank you so much for all that you've given us.. without you, i seriously cannot imagine where we'll be.. you've been around since intake'05 was sec one.. and now we've already graduated from SJ.. over the past 4 years, you've contributed and sacrificed so much for us, for the corp.. no amount of words can fully express my gratitude towards you.. REALLY THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

4.INTAKE'05
my dearest squadmates.. after 4 whole years together as a squad, we've really been through a lot.. from sec ones, we've been involed in many many things that are either supposed to be beyond our abilities, or things that are one of a kind, which seniors have never ever gone through... especially during our NCO term.. but we've always managed to pull through it... we may not be the best batch, or the most accomplished batch, in the eyes of ohter people, BUT.. to me, we've been there, done that.. acheived that... we may not be very united.. but, we couldn't have done it witjout one another.. thanks so much for every single thing that happened.. all of you played a part in making my secondary school life, my SJAB life, one that is worth remembering.. on ethat is never to be forgotten.. one that is the best... it's all because of you...
one very regretful thing that i have to say is that, i'm sorry that i have been such LOUSY leader/squadmate throughout these 4 years.. even though Felicia-Daddy said that i've already done what i could, but i still feel indebted towards you all.. i've not really done much to make you all feel more attached to SJ.. in fact, i kinda think that you all might have dislike SJ more because of me.. i dunno.. regarding the graduation package, i really hope that you all liked that certificate.. although it's really nothing much...sorry that i had to delay giving you all the remaining things though... really sorry... last but not least, would like to wish you all best wishes for everything up ahead, and that really hope that all of us can come back to SJ as often as possible... ^^

5.INTAKE'06
well, I kept my promise.. told you all that I’ll make sure that INTAKE’05 shall pass down a clean room to you all.. and we did (although mostly packed by Felicia-Daddy and Jessica).. haha.. and the screw on the trophy cupboard is for hanging the keys to keep it from being lost.. yups.. some form of announements.. haha.. hmmm.. as i've said to RYAN and SHARON, it's all over to you all now... the handrails are officially gone, you all have to KNOW how to walk on your own from now on, leading the followers... LEAD WITH DIGNITY AND PRIDE, AND LEAD BY HONOUR, NOT FEAR... that's my first sentence to you guys.. put aside differences amongst yourself.. learn to move as a team, not as many individuals... and remember to support one another, especially the 2 cheifs... BELIEVE IN YOURSELF THAT YOU CAN DO IT, YOU NEVER KNOW TILL YOU TRY.. don't be afraid if you're given never-done-before tasks.. give it a try.. because even if you do not succeed, you've lost nothing, and on top of that, gain experience.. THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU ACT.. use the big organ residing in your head, in between your temporals to think before you make any moves.. don't ever put the corp , your squamates, or your cadets at the expense of acheiving something.. always look at the big picture and think of consequences... PUT OTHERS BEFORE YOURSELF.. this is something i live by in SJ.. now that you all are LEADERS, all the more you need to do so.. cox TO LEAD IS TO SERVE. as leaders, you all must really take good care of-THE CORP, YOUR FOLLOWERS, YOUR FELLOWS, AND YOURSELF... and LOVE YOURSELF.. yups... cox only then can you learn to love others...
hmmm.. last but not least, really BIG THANKS to-Mr Sim Wen Jie Ryan [for being the CSM,(pls tak good care of the love of my life,SJAB), for doing so much, for the graduation ceremony, for slogging so much since being IC... and for the stress your suffered.. ], Miss Yap Zhi Yun Sharon [for being the DCSM,(pls take good care of the love of my life, SJAB), for doing so much, for being my overall ic of the graduation ceremony, for slogging like hell, for being SO KAWAII.. and for being so kiddy.. haha =P], Miss Quek Jin Yan [for being so KAWAII, for being SOTONG, for cheonging in ANCO after 1st day, for being so dilligent, for her hard hard work.. and for doing so well in tasks assigned to her..], Miss Wong Chen Zhen Louiza [for doing so much till she almost go crazy, for all the stress she suffered, for being so busy, for all the misery she's had.. for being so efficient...], Mr Edward Pang Jian Xu [for being nagged by me so much(eh, go cut your hair la, discipline.. and pls ensure that intake'06 is discipline, then make sure GESS SJAB is discipline), for being thrown so much random stuff to do, for being willing to receive terrible jobs from us] , Mr and Mrs Yeo [for doing so much for the graduation ceremony, for emceeing it.. for doing such a good job for their posts.. stay lovey-dovey.. haha.. =P], Miss Koh Yan Li [for undergoing so much stress cox we overload her with too much jobs.. for doing so much in helping us.. well done, gal!! =)]..

6.INTAKE'07
heys, you guys are really a sweet and nice bunch of little kids.. although you all are kinda really violent at times?? haha.. hmmm.. well, you all are the senior cadets now that sec 3s are NCOs.. gonna go for BNCO soon, then next year going ANCO le.. well, you all are really outstanding as a whole batch.. continue to SHINE like a star in SJ.. I HAVE FAITH IN YOU ALL!!! give your utmost co-operation to the sec 3s.. and as seniors, help pull the sec ones up in all areas.. and for those stronger ones inthe squad, help your not-so-strong squadmates catch-up with you all.. then as a squad, run together forward.. you all can do it de.. yups.. well, don't feel sad anymore.. take INTAKE'05's leave as a buffer period for you all to improve/ as a preparation period for you all, to give us a big surprise when we come back, to see that you all have improved by leaps and bounds, and that you all have made us really proud of you all.. yups.. okok?? i hope that when i'm having lessons, and i hear ''disturbances'' like SOLID BANGS, FORCEFUL & ENERGETIC TIMINGS AND REPLIES from level one, i can say proudly to my friend sitting beside me in class that it's my super cute, energetic, lively, enthusiastic, committed, outstanding cadets falling in, and impress my friends with that.. yups.. things are there to be done.. it's never a case of whether you can do it or not, it's a matter of whether you want to do it or not..

To everyone.. take care loads.. to sec 1,2,3, pls take really good care of THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, GESS SJAB!!! good lucks in all that you do.. take care..=)