1 Litre of Tears

finally, i've managed to complete watching the whole series...
i've never cried so much over a drama before...
now i truly understand what people mean by
''crying so much that your eyes hurt''
your eyes really do hurt...
haha.. =P

but, it's really a great drama ne~
it's a drama that makes people reflect, and think..
somehow, i think i got some ''after thoughts'' from watching this drama..
because the characters are so real, so human..
just like anyone of us...
i guess maybe it's cox it's so realistic that it hurts..

why i would say that is because,
let's say,
for the female lead,
who suffered from spinocerebellar degeneration disease, she is so real because she is like anyone of us..
she thought of giving up..
she felt negative..
she thinks that everything is so unfair...
she finds no meaning in life...
she complained, ''why does it have to be me?''
she falls...
she minds what other people think...
she can't accept the truth...
she cries..

she only starts to appreciate what she has/used to have only when she suffered from the disease, and starts to lose basic human abilities one by one...
slowly, she starts to:
-lose the ability to balance herself
-lose the ability to run
-lose the ability to walk properly
-lose the ability to control her limbs
-lose the ability to swallow properly
-lose the ability to talk
-lose the ability to write

for her family,
her younger brother at one point, felt ashamed to have an ill elder sister like her..
her parents tried escaping from the truth by hiding her condition from her...

for her lovers,
the initial one is a male senior in her basketball team,
he minds her condition and didn't go to the date promised..
the male lead, he gave up easily just because the female lead wrote a letter to him to break up, and didn't meet her for 1 whole year...
(although in the end he really couldn't let her go and went back to her)

for her friends,
one of her best friends who always helped the female lead, eventually felt tired of helping her and broke down when being asked about how she felt...

for her classmates,
they couldn't stand the normal lessons being delayed because of the female lead eventually and although they pretend to be nice and acted as though everything is fine, but actually they didn't like the trouble...

All of these, are the not so nice, not so strong, not so positive side of human being...
but it is exactly these things that made the characters seem like humans...
it is exactly these things that made this drama so realistic..
because, reality hurts just cox the world's not perfect..
and the world's not perfect cox humans, living things, aren't perfect...

i guess, in life, we need such things, so that we would fall down...
and when we fall down, instead of looking down, crying, panicking,
maybe we should just try to look up at the sky..
the beautiful blue sky over our heads..
just like the female lead of this drama...

and maybe, just maybe, we should try to change our mindset..

instead of counting the number of things that you can't/can no longer do, why not start counting the number of things that you can/still can do?

well, i guess this drama is so real basically cox it's adapted from the journal of a girl in real life who suffered from the mentioned disease, from the time she had the disease, till the point in time when she died..
and, till now, the sad thing is, that disease, Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease, still has no cure..
and this disease is happening to teenagers, possibly from as young as 12...


haix~
people, just before we enter 2009, maybe you can watch 1 Litre of Tears...
it might help you think through some stuff..
haha.. =P
yup yup..
anyways,
Happy New Year in advance everyone!!!!
take care loads...
JA~

*sometimes, when you fall, it takes 1 Litre of Tears to stand up and smile again*

hihi...
konbawa(good evening)...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAMENASHIJIN!!!!

*umareta koto, deaeta koto,
ima soba ni ireru koto [arigato],
kimi no HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
ichinen no ichido no mahou tokubetsu na hi*

juu roku sai otanjoubi omedetou!!!
finally, NC16 movies to blood donation comes your way..
haha.. =P

from now on, yoroshiku onegaishimasu~
let's gather and go out together more..
and spend more time together ne~

domo hontoni arigato gozaimasu for today~
today had been hontoni fun desu ne!!!

let's watch Ponyo On The Cliff By The Sea together!!!
yakusoku~
haha.. =P

Well, that's about it then..

Kamenashi-san, Stay lovey-dovey with Kame to Jin to Junsu to Se7en
(phew~ that's a lot ne.. XD)

Buta-Hime-Sama, Continue loving Kei, Kato, Tatsuya
plus your infinite list of ppl you like/love..
haha.. =P

Ojou-sama, Enjoy the love between you and JaeJoong oppa..
haha.. =P
ChangMin, i'll take care of him, tell JaeJoong oppa not to worry..
XD

Mei Mei-san, take good care of yourself~
really looking forward to you coming back!!!!
=)

everyone, pls take good care of yourself..

those working, don't overwork yourself,

those still studying, enjoy your secondary school life loads,
have many memories that you will never forget...

those enjoying life, dun overdo it..

those getting results next month like me,
look forward to it..
pray for good results,
=D

everyone, 2 more days to 2009!!!
enjoy the countdown tomorrow!!!
be it out at the celebration venues,
or out with family/friends,
or even just at home,
look forward to 2009!!!!

wells, that's about it then..
JA~

*look at life from a sunshine-y point of view*

hihi..
oyahasuyominasai(good morning-night)..

hmmm...
been working at Suntec branch past 2 days (27 & 28 dec.)...
been branch-jumping a lot..
heh..
but it's fun to work in different branch..
kinda like know more ppl le next time change to different branch maybe got higher chances of working with someone i already know..
=D

well, today(28th dec), something happened..
rather, something that's a bit nice happened...

I served a Japanese customer..
and her toddler kids, 1 son 1 daughter, were so uper adorable...
baby-crazing here.. XD
then the customer's son is so cute and chubby..
like baby Massu..
and he smiles whenever someone says hi/talk to him..
CHO KAWAII NA~
then i said ''konichiwa'' to both the kids...
and the customer's daughter said ''konichiwa'' back in a sweet, shy voice...
so cuteeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.. =P
wells..

oh ya, met Grace from 4H today too..
though is the seniors serving her and her mum..

wells, that's bout it then..
gotta go sleep le..
Oyasumi, minna..
JA~

*kodomo wa HONTONI KAWAII ne*
(kids are really cute ne)

hihi...
konbawa(good evening)...

the clean freak in me was out today..
lol..
cleared up my room today..
changed sis and my bedsheets, swept and mopped the floor of the whole house...
suddenly felt like doing so..
haha.. =P
feels uper satisfied with my room now..
loves me roomie..
lol...
yamashita household's housework..
or maybe shim household's housework...
i'm ready to take on the challenge..
okays, i'm ridiculous... haha.. =P

hmmm.. everyone's been busy of late..
misses going out with Hime, Ojou-sama, Oji and Mei...
Mei, come back soon..
haha.. =P

wells, that's about it then..
oh ya, another thing..
Ryusei no Kizuna's series is complete on Mysoju already..
all 10 epis..
but i haven't finished watching yet!!!!
okays,actually, i'm gonna go watch it now..
haha.. =P

ahh... wants to read twlight..
and watch it too..
hah...=D

hmmm.. okays..
that's all..
JA~

*loves me roomie*

hihi..
konichiwa!(good afternoon)..

meri kurisumasu~

yay! today is Christmas, finally..
but, i still have to work..
today's at Harbourfront..
sure a lot of ppl..
sian.. =_=..
wells, anyways, i'm getting an off day tmr..
so it's still ok..

minna-san(everyone), enjoy your christmas and have loads of fun! =)
JA~

*meri kurisumasu*

phew..
finally today..

wells, woke up at 12-plus..
wanted to watch Ryusei no Kizuna..
it's already updated till epi 9..
but ended up never watch..

wells, today, before work, i went to tiong to buy dvd/vcd..
cox the voucher for $5 off that aunt gave me the other time is expiring on 31st..
so like better to use lor..
dun waste..
bought VCD of ''L change the world'', and DVD of ''1 Litre of tears'' and ''10 promises to my dog''
joined membership of TS group..
2 years for $6
alright ba, i guess??
hmmm...
was really excited about coming home and watching ''10 promises to my dog'' with Jie after work..
but then, she gotta help her cadets tomorrow..
so like she gotta sleep early..
sian.. =_=
haix..
tomorrow got work also..
so like gotta go sleep le..
JA~
=)

*=)*

20/12/2008

Hmmm.. today went home in the morning..
then after that went to Somerset MRT station to collect NEWS HP strap..
it made my day ne~ XD
it's so nice!!!
i'm already hanging it on my phone..

then meet Shobana, Cherie and Esther at Raffles..
cox going to have lunch at hawker centre..
cheaper..
haha.. =P
went there and ended up, i'm the only one who ate a meal..
Esther ate Chee Cheong Fan..
then Shobana only drank a bit of her lemon tea..
Cherie breathed air..
haha.. =P
we sat there and talked for a while..

then after that that, we MRT-ed to Harbourfront..
cox i took an off day..
cox it's Ming Ming(my cousin)'s birthday..
gotta go celebrate at night..
well, then we went to Harbourfront shopping centre to walk around..
and i intro Shobana to surroundings..
then went to guardian where i bought sore throat sweets..
my throat is getting dry..
Shobana bought water cox she didn't fill her own water bottle..
then we went to purpur and looked around..
Esther bought a shirt/blouse??
yeap..
and then we brought Shobana to the shop...
it was jam-packed with customers..
and the stock-man was doing stocks..
so Shobana clocked in and i intro her to the stocks,
like where is this model etc etc etc..
and then Esther, Cherie and i stayed at the shop for a while..
acting as customers..
haix..
hopefully Shobana is alright working there..
worried desu.. ><

Hmmm.. then we decided not to disturb Shobana,
so we went to Vivo..
went to Daiso to buy wrapping materials for Ming Ming's birthday present..
then went to Action City and Candy Empire to buy her present..
Vivo is bloody jam-packed...
hates crowded places.. =_=
then went back up to Daiso to look for Esther and Cherie..
waited outside with Cherie while Esther pay up..
sat down on the floor and hobo-ly try to wrap the presents up..
first by tying the ribbon around the chocolate..
it was a dai struggle for me ne~
then put it in the ''drawstring bag'' thingy..
then put inside paper bag..
haha.. =P
hope that' it's presentable.. ~_~
well, then went to Arts and Craft shop and bought a card..
wrote on the spot with silver pen..
short message..
signed off with sis and my name..
although actually is i settle evereything..
she pay half the cost nia..
haha.. =P

well, then went to Clementi with Cherie to fetch our NEWS's color albums..
then took MRT to Tiong..
cox the MRT was too full of ppl..
then cheong-ed cab, dropped Cherie off at Centrepoint
cox gotta be at Park Mall by 6pm
then alighted at Park Mall..
celebrated Ming Ming's birthday at the Kublai Khan Buffet Restaurant or something like that..
i's not really celebrate..
more like buffet session..
didn't even sing Birthday song..
oh wells...

Then after that went Plaza Sing to shop for CNY clothes..
mummy like settle her clothes le..
she even bought an extra pair of 3/4 jeans..
lol..
Jie bought an Espirit tee..
i bought a red colour IP Zone tee..
it's some sale item..
but i bought it cox i was thinking i could wear it even after CNY...
cox it says ''no pain no gain'' on the shirt..
can wear it for SJ trainings..
okays, i'm lame..
haha.. =P
oh ya, and i bought a pair of shoes from Baleno..
Cherie has the same pair too..
was intending to wear it when going out..
mummy mistaken that i bought it for CNY..
so like =_= gotta save it for CNY lor..
haix..
then bus-ed home..
stupid dan dan was complaining and throwing tantrums on the way home..
lol..
hai..
then never use comp much also..
yup..

19/12/2008

Whoo~
today meet Shobana at Bugis MRT station to go breakfast at mac...
saw baka #1 there..
LOL
then Shobana wasted food!!!
cox she lost appetite after seeing the nutritional information on the tray of Mac..
cox for Big Breakfast, which we ate, it contains 3-digit amount of cholestrol..
Shobana is uper health conscious..
like Chang Min.. haha.. =P
well, i guess she's worried that it's bad for health..

Hmm.. then we went to do the UV ray therapy thing before work..
had another Japanese lesson!
is fun! =D
looks forward to the next one!

Then we took MRT to Raffles Place..
and we worked together..
somehow, my Raffles Supervisor is kinda irritating and fierce..
Shobana was saying that her supervisor is better..
actually, frankly speaking,
i enjoy working at Harbourfront Branch more than Raffles..
cox it's more fun..
but the timing is not as stable as Raffles..
customer comes impromptu-ly..
unlike Raffles, peak-hour is only 12 to 2.30 and 6 to 7.30..
yeap..
haha.. =P

Hmmm..
bus-ed home with Shobana on bus no. 196..
talked about O level results..
is worried.. ~_~
although it doesn't help..
because the results will stay the same..
argh...
=_=

18/12/2008

today was uper fun!

well, woke up early morning to go pray at the guan yin temple with ye ye...

he told me to pray for good results..

initially didn't want to..

cox i dun thing i should be asking for stuff..

like i never regularly pray..

feels bad..

kinda..

but he say ask for good results..

then get le go back and pray again...

as thanking..

so just asked lor..

well, then bus-ed home...

used comp..

and it lags again..

crap.. =_=

well, then went to draw money..

it's depleting..

sian..

=_=

then went to meet Shobana at commonwealth MRT station...

we packed LSJ to her house for lunch..

and we Dong Bang-ed!!!

Chang Min is the best, Shobana. XD

He's so cute!!!

hmmm.. then we went to bugis..

cox Shobana told me that her mum found some UV ray therapy centre..

1st 15 times free..

the consultants say it helps get rid of water retention..

which i think is true..

cox you actually put your feet on the ''weighing-scale-lookalike'' board..

which gives off heat..

it feels a bit like cooking my feet..

haha.. =P

but the fun thing is,

other than doing the heat therapy, at the same time,

Shobana is giving me Japanese lessons!!! =D

i think i'm slowly picking up..

but i still suck..

demo, i know 1 to 10 now, at least..

and i can say the time in Japanese le..

haha.. =P

then after that Shobana and i went to Bugis Junction to gai gai..

and we saw the crystal X'mas tree..

it's beautiful..
so we took pictures.. =D

Hmmm.. then we went to the Jap sweet shop at basement 1..

cox they sell DBSK's cards..

the kind that you put in your wallet..

bought 4 Chang Min cards for myself..

and 1 Jae Joong one for Esther..

and then ah ma called and scolded me over the phone..

cox i told her i should be going home about 6-plus..

but when she called, it was already 7-plus..

><

then walked with Shobana to MRT station..

then went out via the other exit and walked at my speed-up pace to ah ma's house..

well, in the end, i kinda explained my way through to ah ma..

and she wasn't angry anymore..

hee.. =D

ate dinner,bathed, then watched TV with ah ma again..

slept at 12-plus again..

is super excited about working with Shobana the next day! XD

17/12/2008

hmmm...
still staying at ah ma's house...
went home to fetch clothes before work..
been dying to use comp..
used a while..
hang like hell..
so can update much..
sian.. =_=
well, then went to work...
things are just normal..
went back to ah ma house and ate a WHOLE BIG FISH by myself..
LOL..
very long never eat ah ma cook de fish le..
although would prefer her steamed fish to the fried fish that i had..
but, it's still nice..
hee.. =D
then this time bathe first then start watching TV with ah ma...
learned from the ''Shiokness'' from the previous night..
haha.. =P
is really excited about going to Shobana's house the next day.. =D
slept at 12-plus..
like the previous day..
always sleep late at ah ma's house..
LOL.. =P

16/12/2008

hmmm.. went to grandma's house to stay...
then brought my clothes there early in the morning...
went to work after that...
cheong cab again..
=_=
i've wasted soooooooooooooooooooo much money to get to work/places on time..
my pay..
~_~
haix..
then went to work as per normal...
went to ah ma house to stay..
really love ah ma's cooking!!!
feels home-ish..
=D
watched TV with ah ma till 12-plus..
then bathed right before i sleep..
ah ma house dun have heater..
so imagine the ''shiok'' coldness...
LOL...
can never sleep well at ah ma house...
cox midnight/early morning will wake up at least once de..
dunno why..
haha.. =P

hihi..
oyahasuyominasai(good morning-night)..

sorry that my blog is so dead..
been away from home and away from comp these few days..
went to ah ma house..

hmmm..
decided that i wanna update my blog today no matter what..
before the no. of things i wanna blog about piles up to N times..
LOL..
shall break it into different posts so that it's not so sian to read..
=)

hihi..
oyahasuyominasai(good morning-night)...

well, today, injured myself at work..
minor cut only la.. haha.. =P
but i think i had a small shock after kena-ing the injury..
cox i was climbing shelves to get the shoe that my customer wants to try..
then like i climbing down that time, at the last deck before i reach the ground, i always just jump down..
cox it's only about pelvic bone level height..
then this time, very unluckily, i was holding on to the shoebox on my right hand..
and i forgot to keep my right hand close to my body..
and my elbow just ''bam'' onto the metal shelf..
then the metal shelf got small gaps between each strip of metal..
that's how i got the cut..
then i didn't felt any pain initially..
i just felt shocked..
maybe because it was so sudden..
and maybe because my hand felt strange..
then i like i was a little worried that i'll kena a fracture/some crushing stuff..
then i made use of the time when my customer is busy trying the shoes to check my hand..
i touched my funny bone, and i didn't had the ''weakening/strange'' feeling that's supposed to go through you arm when someone touch/hit your funny bone..
then i was thinking ''oh gosh''
and was a bit panicking..
then after that, my ears became muffled..
and i felt that i'm having cold sweat..
i was like, crap.. what's this..
then i thought of shock(as in the medical condition)..
then i took a few deep breaths and tried calming myself down..
and i continued serving my customer..
then i was like trying to make my ears ''un-muffle''
then finally finished serving the customer after she paid and left the shop..
then i immediately went to toilet to wash my wound..
and bought plasters from guardian next door...
then my ears finally ''un-muffled''
thank god man..
then my hand didn't feel so strange anymore..
then comes the pain, which sets in after i relaxed and was taking out the display sets for the ''new arrival'' shoes..

well, it' nothing much la actually..
i think the wound dry le..
and then, i'll live..
haha.. =P
well, that covered a part of my working life today..

oh ya, and baka #1 tagged me a rather funny quiz to do..
did it in the previous post..
and i think the ''end-product'' of the quiz is kinda really ROFL...
haha.. =P

hmmm.. another thing is,
today ah gong sms-ed..
cox i wrote in the email for them to reply me if they received the platoon photo..
then ah gong complained that the photos very blur...
what to do... phone camera ma..
lol..
(note: ah gong=platoon 4'07 commander, Mr. Yam Kah Meng)
he's called ah gong basically cox almost ALL the ANCO'07 trainees thought that he's some 30+ officer last year when we had camp..
but in actual fact, he's same age as my sis..
18 years old only..
maybe chao lao(old looking).. haha.. =P jkjk...

wells, that's bout it then..
going to ah ma's house to stay for a few days starting tomorrow..
dunno if shu shu will let me use comp or not..
hmmm..
take care loads ppl...
JA~

*I want X'mas~*

Here is a somehow funny quiz.. tagged by baka #1

How you do the Letter Meme:
Dear Swee Hong aka baka #1:
I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'll join the monastery. I think I realized it First of May under a state of trance and I saw you sit on Bill Clinton. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand that Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning the couch cushions to you, but I'll keep your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I never openly mocked our friendship.
Go burn,
-Ting Xin-

1.What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Crave your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - ManO.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - HighHouse - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - MongolicIdol - Masochistic
Family Guy - SenileTop Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
hina - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Dear -person who tagged you-:I don't really know how to tell you this, but 1. I think I realized it 2 3 and I saw you 4 5. I'm sure you're 6 enough to understand 7. I'm returning 8 to you, but I'll keep 9 as a memory. You should also know that I 10 11.
12,
-your name-

hihi..
Oyahasuyominasai(good morning-night)...
well, it's been oyahasuyomi recently...

hmmm.. today was a rather fun day at work...
cox my supervisor allowed me to play my songs in the shop...
so niceeeee...
and i managed to influence one of my senpais(senior) at work to like jap song more than she did before.. hee.. =D
so nice to be listening to NEWS, KAT-TUN, DBSK during work...
is happy! haha.. =P

ok... i'm seriously kinda tired...
dunno why today kept yawning...
my brain needs O2...
*i'm ridiculous.. haha.. =P*
wells, shall end here today..
JA~

*my brian needs O2*

hihi..

oyahasuyomnasai(good morning-night)

hmmm..

today is Zone Presentation..

Had a fun day with ppl from my intake..

somehow..

then like i wear ''formal'' home clothes instead of full U..

cox i really don't have the time to polish boots...

and if i don't polish, i feel that i am totally NOT leading by example..
so decided to borrow formal clothes from my cousins..

and everything is oversized..

sians.. =_=

oh ya, took a Platoon 4 '07 photo..

although only half the platoon was there..
here it is...

Platoon 4'07 ''formal'' shot

Platoon 4'07 ''informal'' shot

Well, erm, actually, after taking this photo, it kinda makes me feel sad..

why??

well,

somehow i think,we lost the bonds as platoon mates le...

like, somehow, i feel that the taking of this picture is really awkward...

like, it's just a GROUP photo, instead of a PLATOON photo...

i'm NOT being obssessive here...

neither am i trying to ask anything..

it's just that, even with the ''revival'' of the bam bam warriors pose...

it just feels so different le...

the contrast is so vast compared to the photo that we took last year...

i dunno..

it makes me feel sad because it made me realised that everything has changed..

and that it's going to continue changing...

and the changes... well, not all of them are nice/good etc...

i dunno..

guess i'll just have to adapt to it then...

haix..

went to work after Zone Presentation...

walked with Cheryl to the side of the bus-stop with bus 64 and 65...

talked a bit..

then i realised that Cheryl gives me a feeling that she's insecured..

like somehow, she has the mindset that things will change..

and that she'll lose the things/people precious to her easily/anytime...

and then i realised that i myself also...

have the same tendancy to think that way???

i dunno...

wells, i sure hope that my negative thoughts won't kill me...

it's really heart-wrenching sometimes...

to see things develope to an undesirable state..

yet, at the same time, i'm unable to do anything...

i hate that helpless and ''i'm so useless'' kinda feeling...

it sucks, big time..

like how i sucked at the game of ''reversi''...

haix...

sorry for this kinda stupid post..

but, just felt like saying it out...

before i burst like a balloon...

or water bomb..

or whatever...

wells, that's all then..

JA~

*heart-wrenching*

hihi..
konbawa(good evening)...

well, my blog is half dead..
sorry bout that.. =_=
been updating my livejournal too much...
haha.. =P

wells, erm these few days quite a lot of things happen huh..
if i update ALL of them, it'll probably break your neck and numb your butt to read it..
it'll be too long.. haha.. =P
wells, what i can say is,
TIME REALLY FLIES!!!!
hontoni desu!!
it's like, my long-awaited X'mas is coming...
haha.. =P
is excited! =)
because i calculated and planned, and i'm definitely able to carry out my project X... hopes that everything will run smoothly~

wells, i shall write bout today then...
today is my meetup day...
firstly, went to Tiong to meet baka #1(still rmb who? it's Mr. Tan Swee Hong aka my younger bro/son?? lol.. )
for what?? to pay to attend his B-day BBQ..
lol..
and guess what?
i was late...
sorry...
i was so stupid that i only realised when i'm almost reaching Tiong that i left my wallet at home.. it's like...
WTH!!!!
went all the way back to get it..
then was really late le...
so i cab back to Tiong lor...
haix.. sorry to make you wait, baka #1..

well, then after that went to City Hall to meet LJ personel #1...
that person was late..
maybe it's retribution..
haha.. =P

well, then after that took MRT to Jurong East to meet LJ personel #2...
i was early, so was that person...
hee.. =D

hmmm.. then after that took MRT again to YCK to meet LJ personel #3..
i was way too early..
that person came on time..
it was raining, so i decided to go to the Cheers at YCK to find food...
then saw this Nachos thingy..
there's some machine for hot cheese..
decided to buy that..
end up, only ate half of it...
cox the Cheese taste VERY green chilli-ish..
ewww...

Well, then i took MRT again to Plaza Sing...
Went to buy stuff for Project X...
i'm half done with Project X le...
OT5, please look forward to receiving the end product in 2 weeks time (for Mei, really sorry, you gotta wait till Jan.. =I)

Well, the after finishing at Plaza Sing, took a bus to Bugis...
took bus no.7...
I HATE THAT BUS RIDE....
(vents anger)
well, then went to buy present for baka #1's birthday...
then went up to 3rd floor to buy wrapping paper and saw something nice and bought them!!!
well, can't say it.. cox it's part of Project X...
then after that went to Kinokuniya...
looked around and realised that this branch of Kino has everyone's photobook (note:JE), ppl like Junichi etc, the super senpais kind, they have...
they have Kan8 and KAT-TUN's too.. HSJ also got... Arashi also...
THEY JUST DON'T HAVE A SINGLE ONE OF NEWS de photobook! =(
but it's ok...
cox taka's Kino will have.. hee.. =D

well, then after that took bus no. 197 home...
ate dinner at home...
porridge and some spicy/salty meat...
the flavour is balanced between the porridge and the meat..
it's nice cox the porridge is hot, and the weather is cold...
Umaai~ =D

wells, that's all for today then...
i wanna go out with Esther, Shobana and Cherie SOON~
it's been god-knows how long since we 4 went out together...
cox Shobana's off days happen to be almost ALWAYS different from mine..
haix hiax hiax~~~~~~~~
hmmm...
JA~

*Project X~*

hihi..
konbawa(good evening)..

hmmm.. i'm back from ATC! =)
well, sadly, for this ATC, i didn't manage to attend it full...
demo, i like the ATC! =)

haix.. not that i dun wanna update, but, i seriuosly cannot make it le~~
i'm sleepy.. and i feel like knocking my head on the pillow and fall into sleep...
well.. i shan't do a review of ATC then..

but, what i can say is that, the camp is GREAT!!!!!
especially at the war memorial!!!!=)
ahh.. and i crossed my limit, i guessed..
cox for the 1st time ever, i slept at 6+, wake up at 7+...
skept i hour only..
but i book in late..
so like, not say very tiring.. haha.. =P
but it's the least i slept ba..
haha.. =P
well, gonna hit the pillow le..
still got work tmr..

JA~

*thank you, intake'02 for the camp... you all are great!!! you all will always be GESS SJAB legend!!! (at least that's what i think) =)
SAi AH! WHACK AH!*

hihi..
konbawa(good evening)..

eito.. today, i'm super happy sia...
cox i got my pay!!!!
although it's a miserable amount of $182(for 1 week's worth of work)
it still makes me feel happy..
like all the time spent on working paid off..
is being materialistic here..
haha.. =P

hmmm...
is looking forward to ATC now..
and is looking forward to X'mas~~~
it's too early, i know..
but i'm still looking forward to it..
hai..
tsukareta(tired) ne..
shall stop here..
sorry for the short post..
JA~

*is happy~*

hihi
konbawa(good evening)...

hmmm...
is heartbrokens...
ChangMin~
well...
ChangMin has been attacked by a China women...
the rough incident is that 2 China women followed the DBSK members into a public male toilet/bathroom...
then like, they were taking pictures of DBSK..
and, it's like ChangMin told them to go away or something...
cox it's like,
1.NOBODY would want their photos taken in that kinda place by someone else
2.it's not right for women to enter public male toilet/bathroom...
right??
then the 2 women suddenly go crazy and shouted stuff like asking ChangMin to go die, and cursed that DBSK will die horribly...
and that's not the worst..
after that, they kicked DBSK's van..
and they attacked ChangMin with a handbag..
and as everyone knows, handbags have a dense base..
and the base hit ChangMin's head....
sobs~ =(=(=(=(
half of me died...
and, what's worse was that one of the women went online and lied, saying that ChangMin hit the other women.. and then she even claimed that the other women was pregnant...
which is found out that it's ABSOLUTELY NOT TRUE!!!!
how could she lie like that!!!!!
it's so horrible of her..
even if ChangMin isn't a celebrity,
it's so NOT morally upright of her to wrong him!!!!
is angry!!!
i got to know all these cox Shobana told me today morning(midnight, actually)...
is uper sad bout it..
poor Changmin~~~~~~~
=((
bet he's emotionally and physically hurt right now...
=(
haix...

really hopes that ChangMin will be alright~~~

wells, i'm having tomorrow off..
from work..
is happys..
but is sad bout ChangMin's incident.. =(
well, shall stop here then..
JA~

*ChangMin~~~~~*
**Pi, please don't be jealous.. haha.. =P*