hihi..

oyahasuyomnasai(good morning-night)

hmmm..

today is Zone Presentation..

Had a fun day with ppl from my intake..

somehow..

then like i wear ''formal'' home clothes instead of full U..

cox i really don't have the time to polish boots...

and if i don't polish, i feel that i am totally NOT leading by example..
so decided to borrow formal clothes from my cousins..

and everything is oversized..

sians.. =_=

oh ya, took a Platoon 4 '07 photo..

although only half the platoon was there..
here it is...

Platoon 4'07 ''formal'' shot

Platoon 4'07 ''informal'' shot

Well, erm, actually, after taking this photo, it kinda makes me feel sad..

why??

well,

somehow i think,we lost the bonds as platoon mates le...

like, somehow, i feel that the taking of this picture is really awkward...

like, it's just a GROUP photo, instead of a PLATOON photo...

i'm NOT being obssessive here...

neither am i trying to ask anything..

it's just that, even with the ''revival'' of the bam bam warriors pose...

it just feels so different le...

the contrast is so vast compared to the photo that we took last year...

i dunno..

it makes me feel sad because it made me realised that everything has changed..

and that it's going to continue changing...

and the changes... well, not all of them are nice/good etc...

i dunno..

guess i'll just have to adapt to it then...

haix..

went to work after Zone Presentation...

walked with Cheryl to the side of the bus-stop with bus 64 and 65...

talked a bit..

then i realised that Cheryl gives me a feeling that she's insecured..

like somehow, she has the mindset that things will change..

and that she'll lose the things/people precious to her easily/anytime...

and then i realised that i myself also...

have the same tendancy to think that way???

i dunno...

wells, i sure hope that my negative thoughts won't kill me...

it's really heart-wrenching sometimes...

to see things develope to an undesirable state..

yet, at the same time, i'm unable to do anything...

i hate that helpless and ''i'm so useless'' kinda feeling...

it sucks, big time..

like how i sucked at the game of ''reversi''...

haix...

sorry for this kinda stupid post..

but, just felt like saying it out...

before i burst like a balloon...

or water bomb..

or whatever...

wells, that's all then..

JA~

*heart-wrenching*