爱莫能助的感觉？


recently, alot of things cropped up all of a sudden..
alot of my mistakes made,
alot of unfulfilled responsibilities...
i dun wanna do things like what jacelyn said,
"clearing events only"
and other than that,
there are alot of things that are happening that are outta my control..
alot of things that, i can't do anything to help those i wanna help,
i can't even make them feel better...
there are alot of things,
occuring suddenly,
when i thot things would run smoothly..
suddenly i felt that my shoulders doesn't seem broad enough to carry them all..
suddenly i felt that, maybe i was selfish, thus now, i'm standing all alone...
suddenly, things are getting more and more outta hand..
i can't run away because, once i do that, everything will screw.
i am not indispensible. but i cannot just leave or run away like that right now..
it's time to wise up, time to work harder.
let there be no mistakes made anymore.
there is no room for mistakes, no room to carelessnes..
that's how things should be.