i wonder what kind of impression i leave on others?
i was thinking, maybe i leave the impression that i'm materialistic?
as in, i am the show-off kind that treats ranks, achievements as things that are quite important? do you think that of me?
why i suddenly thought of this,
was cox of some reactions i got recently..
hahas..
cox i did tell people that i didn't get best trainee..
and maybe they thought i'm rather upset about it?
truth is,
i think not getting it doesn't really affect me a lot..
and i feel that the 10 of my coursemates who were best trainees,
they totally deserve to get..
yes, like TOTALLY.. =)
and, not trying to show off,
but i once got best trainee,
in ANCO,
and then,
after that,
a lot of things happened,
which made me feel like such a brat..
so it's like, that best trainee wasn't all that good an experience for me..
and on top of that,
back then,
i came to know that i didn't get that best trainee 100% based on my abilities,
it felt saddening,
and guilty..
but at the same time,
i felt something else,
=)
so don't worry people,
because for the OTC best trainee,
no doubt i set out on OTC journey with it in mind,
but i sorta gave up on best trainee after the camp phase..
as you people would and should know what happened,
or rather what are the few things that happened that affected me..
i felt that i wasn't someone worthy of best trainee..
because,
no matter how you look at things,
what actually happened,
made me have the self-awareness that i have to work on the way i do things,
because the way i do things,
is really sucky..
totally CMI..
so don't worry,
i'm not upset..

and here,
i would like to congratulate the following people:
-Denise
-Jia Jie
-Chang Yu
-Han Ying
-Rachel
-Stanley
-Yi Hang
-Mavin
-Wei Hao
-Hon Qi

for being the top 10, 17/09's best trainees..
you people rock~
17/09 rocks~
let's continue, as the new officers, and work hard towards the same ultimate goal!
jia you jia you! =D