My SJAB Story 2005-present




I joined SJ for one of the weirdest reason,
like, cox i didn't want to admit defeat to my sis saying that
"you can never survive in SJ"
i would have her to thank, that i am in SJ now..
=)
and then,
slowly, began to become an over-enthusiastic and extra idiot,
probably because i was such a show-off..
trained myself to do standard push-ups etc..
then, i was the kind that went home straight after trg etc,
so, rather much, i was an anti-social idiot.. =X
and i think, i am really hated..
cox of the way i do things..
i was seriously such a brat =X
hmmm..
then,
as sec ones,
we were always told that we are much worse than our sec 2s seniors...
but then,
there were the fun times too,
like how we were trained in different ways every different training,
making us want to come back for more..
and then, the officers and NCOs treat us in a different way as how they treat my cadets now..
we were grilled etc,
we were trained to be in the school's NDP GOH..
even those who are not in the actual contingent had to be trained and trained and trained, the same way the contingent was trained..
i wasn't in the contingent btw,
i wasn't one of the potentials.. hahas =)
but outside of training,
the fun we had was much more fun too!
back then, we just followed what we were told..
it was so, simple i would say..
and the ATC,
was, an eye-opener for me back then..
Sir Teo told us to continue doing push-ups till we are told to stop,
wonders what made us continue doing back then..
and the rope elements,
and the silent night trail..
looking back,
i see a lot of flaws in my character..
like how i was someone who wasn't supportive,
and many others..
but slowly, i learned how to control myself, how to behave properly, how to think before i do things or say stuff..
at the end of sec 1, 11 of us got promoted,
that was my first rank, my favourite rank, LCP.. =)

then in sec 2,
we were called seniors,
we were told, that in itself, is a responsibility,
and it is indeed..
even though it seems like a minor role,
but only after becoming NCO,
did i see the importance of that role...
=)
we had FDC back then,
and i wasn't in it,
but i was the substitute..
came for every training, trained at the side etc,
in the end, i wasn't good enough either,
so didn't get in eventually..
was in NC3'06 for FAC..
it was a horrible experience,
emotionally wise..
because we were lead by this senior,
and although i might have been giving attitude,
but somehow, i think i was picked on..
because every single thing seems to be my fault..
i wonder why back then..
and now i knew why..
but nevertheless,
it's over so it's alright,
and i would say it's thanks to her that,
i know how to be someone who continues on though it hurts,
someone who can put on a strong front..
well, in the end, the result of the comp,
our team got 3rd in First Aid Case..
then in june, 4 of my squadmates got promoted to CPL,
out of the 20 of us,
obviously, i wasn't one of them..
hahas =)
and then, we were told that we were worse than our sec 1 juniors
had ATC in June this time..
was, alright i guess?
similar to the sec 1 one,
but less impactful..
then in july, intake'04 took over..
had a major uproar over one of them..
who went overboard with getting us to fall in,
and scolding and punishing..
she wasn't our commander,
and she made us fall in every single day of the week,
on the first week that she took over..
we nearly quit as a whole intake,
and it's really nearly..
and we started skipping trainings,
and then every training we'd see like 3 or 4 of our squadmates down there..
to the extend that,
our ex-commander has to come down to talk to us..
hahas,
looking back now,
we were too much..
but so is she.. =X
then at the end of the year,
had FDI course..
it wasn't easy,
i would never forget the memorable training that we were told to shout to nicoll highway,
and when one of us cried.. =X
was allowed to go cox one of my squadmate wasn't able to go..
it's a pattern you see here,
cox i wasn't one of the potential ones,
so when they have courses or competition,
i would be considered after the good ones..
but i guess all of these,
made me cherish the chances that i have even more..
because i don't always get them..
but sad to say,
this course was one that i didn't complete..
erm, let's see,
it's the only course in my SJ life that i took but didn't complete.. =X
but we made the decisions ourselves,
and the trainings has been a good experience.. =)
then end of year,
was the first time i went to ZPN..
hahas, was fun.. =)

then comes sec 3..
we had a change of 1 commander..
they had a change in their posts..
this was when trainings went a bit haywire..
cox,
some NCOs were not able to come down,
and then we were supposed to have our ANCO preparation..
seeing that with our own eyes,
it was kinda scary..
but thankfully, graduated seniors came back to train us,
so i guess we were prepared for ANCO.. =)
around the same time,
was approached by one of my NCOs to go for Sin Ma..
she was supposed to go..
but she couldn't commit as she had studies to cope..
was rather shocked that she'd approach me..
but then,
after that, i did came to know that actually one of the potential ones were considered alongside 2 of my NCOs,
just that all 3 of them didn't wanna go..
but i was grateful for this experience..
undergoing all the trainings,
i learned a lot,
and i would say that my first aid improved from there..
alot alot..
and i made so many friends,
some of who i met again this year
it was really a very precious memory.. =)
and i was able to go for FAC,
also because of Sin Ma..
in NC2'07
but then
leading the whole team that consists of only my squadmates,
i sucked at leadership,
and then didn't lead the team well,
so result of the FAC,
turned out to be 3rd overall for Footdrill category,
and nothing else..
but it was nice to have been in the team together..
and through this team, i became on better terms with some of my squadmates too.. =)
then, Sin Ma's mock comp, was on FAC day,
so i did the whole process of the competition twice on that day..
hahas =)
oh, and Sin Ma was held in Malaysia,
and it was terrifying and petrifying,
because we were like showcase exhibits,
doing the cases in a hall
that had seats like a stadium..
a sports hall i think..
so everyone were watching us,
though not a lot of people,
but it wasn't a familiar environment..
but in the end,
NA and NC won champion..
though it might have been "editted" results,
but i think we did our best..
esp for Footdrill..
cox we did the footdrill without timing! =)
then had ANCO,
it's a wonderful experience as well..
obviously, i cheonged for best trainee..
but not at the expense of others la..
and, managed to get, cox of help from everyone.. =)
but then, after the course,
got to know that i get it not entirely because i did well,
i felt sad..
and guilty..
because the other person is a nice guy,
and he still is.. =)
then took over as NCOs..
became a SGT,
but totally don't feel myself living up to it..
intake'05 became closer than before ANCO..
it was so nice that we were on better terms as a batch =)
hmmms,
but, as expected of a squad of 1 guy, 19 girls,
problems arises easier..
i wouldn't say much,
but the problems we faced left a deep impression on me,
and made me realise how much i failed,
and how childish i am..
hahas..
attended ZPN as well,
and it was nicer compared to before,
as it was a parade,
and also,
knew more people.. =)
had Amazing Race Camp,
the epic slackest camp in GESS SJAB..
but, it was an experience worth going through! =)

and on to sec 4..
became a CL,
but it sucks,
the feeling sucks,
because i am not up to it,
and the rank
feels worthless,
like it was given out just like that, though i didn't do a good job,
though i didn't do enough..
but,
it was a memorable year,
with the handing over parade for UGs,
marching in NDP and SJ day as commander,
handing over to intake'06,
having UG open house,
had FAC again,
same as sec 3, whole team was my intake's
results of it,
got 2nd in Footdrill,
the first NA trophy for GESS.. =)
going back to ANCO..
ANCO was a day course,
and it was so frustrating..
haix..
but okay la..
and then i went on to preparations for 080808..
cool sia, intake'05 passed out on 080808.. ^u^
hmmms,
then stayed on a bit longer,
then went to study for Os..
then came back for ATC..
it was a nice experience,
because really had fun in the camp!
and it was a nice gathering for intake'05 as well =)

and then on to this year,
started going for Zone Meetings..
and had March Camp..
it was, i would say,
epic failure of a camp..
cox it was entirely planned by yours truly..
and everything is just, haix..
but thanks to everyone who came down,
and helped out so much..
=)
and went for ANCO this year as well..
it was a nice expeerience!!!
the Pulau Ubin challenge!!!
and started feeling old..
cox of all the kids..
hahas~
but had a lot of fun,
and felt a little bit of satisfaction..
hahas =)

now on to the major part:

OTC'09





asked to be allowed to got for OTC..
and handled the application stuff myself..
wells, i bugged my officers and seniors a lot to go for OTC..
sorry about that..
but this is one big motivational force for me in OTC..

it is a life-changing experience for me...
i learned, a lot a lot a lot from this course..
in a way, the course helped changed parts my character,
and my emotions management...
and it made me a braver person,
because i learned how to ask questions when it was necessary..
i learned that there's no wrong in voicing out,
and on top of that,
i learned that before you voice out,
you have to think first...
if you are being reasonable,
there's nothing wrong with voicing out for what is necessary..
learned how to control my emotions,
and learned how to not hate..
learned how to be there for others,
learned how to be the energy provider..
and i found an aspiration..
to become the sunshine for others..
learned how to believe,
learned how to hold on,
what i believe now is that,
stay for those who care, those who you care for, and not leave for those who don't..
learned to cherish,
learned a lot a lot a lot..
i know some people hate me,
and i am aware of the badmouthing by some people who i thought, in their position, they wouldn't badmouth..
and i didn't expect things to escalate to the extend of badmouthing..
didn't expect..
would've respected you more if you didn't badmouth..
but you did..
but nevertheless,
i don't hate you,
because of you, i learned that things aren't all nice everytime,
because of you, i learned to appreciate the meaning of 得饶人处且饶人..
though i am not in the position to do that, but at least i learned..

throughout this course,
i also found the importance of love, for my sister that is.. =)
throughout this whole course,
we argued, we discussed, we laughed..
i got pissed at stupid stuff,
she got pissed at stupid stuff..
but i think we got closer..
and it's all thanks to OTC.. =)

although we passed out,
although we are now officers,
but i still think that,
that rank doesn't change my attitude towards others,
the rank doesn't change my attitude towards things,
the rank doesn't make me a level higher than others,
the rank is there, because we earned it together,
93 of us in OTC, earned it together,
and also,
it signifies the taking on of responsibilities,
and,
from now onwards,
there's still loads more i need to learn,
there's still many things ahead that i have to do,
and i hope the road goes on forever..
i don't want to stop,
at all =)
and though not everything would be pleasant,
and this would be painful at times,
and difficult..
but i will go on,
because i am from OTC 17/09...
and because i am who i am..
let's keep going on,
don't stop...

and the story continues~
=)