"A Dragon For Fire Of Leadership"


okay, sian, so basically i rested today,
didn't do anything that i listed down..
hmmmms,
but nvm,
tmr, morning date with Buin and Fibi~
to do unit A of EIS, and some of the projects...
so can go earlier to do my list of things.. =DDDDD

LSCMSS meeting clashes with Zone Meeting this coming Thursday...
i have to got for zone meeting cox i need to be there for corps matters,
then for ZPN matters, need to be there too,
but for LSCMSS, i am the ic for the games..
then it's like,
i can't go..
i want to live up to what i said in the interview..
and i want to be there for the updates about the camp,
and also the planning for the camp has to progress faster..
i wonder how many would believe me that i wanted to be there but i couldn't..
somehow i feel bad towards Aik Hao, Hou Jun, Eshlyn...
and fellow committee members..
because i missed a lot of LSCMSS stuff..
but who would know how bad and sorry i felt?
who would BELIEVE?
haix, nvm, let's see how things goes..

and then, was talking to Mr. POPO over msn just now
somehow, felt that there are a lot of things that isn't as ideal as we thought...
and, not meaning it in a bad way,
but i felt that school, SJ, OTC, has been protecting us a lot..
and circumstances that we do things in were much more ideal in comparison to reality..
but, i'm grateful that we were protected,
because at least we've ever seen the ideal and beautiful side of things.. =)
thanks so much!
to all who protected me before..
for showing me what ideals are.. =)

and leadership is not just about standing in the front, ahead of others..
there are other forms, some of which i truly admire..
Mr. POPO, you have one of that kinda leadership,
you just have to find it in you..
haha~ =)

and thanks Mr. POPO for the quote:
"your abilities are limited, but your potential is endless"

then Mr. POPO told me that i like super enthu etc,
like i have some obligation to set example etc..
that made me think..
and here is my conclusion..
when i joined OTC,
i was mentally prepared that i might fail,
because of what i heard from seniors,
that OTC is not easy to pass..
although i would've still served even if i failed,
but because i passed,
the rank being worn on me, to me,
it signifies me taking on a lifelong responsibility..
and when i say lifelong here, i mean it,
seriously =)
and that for the corps,
i grew up in there,
seen stuff, and how my corps works,
and then, i need and i want to return back to this corps itself...
and i want to bring back the gold unit award that we lost this year..
and i want to see batches and batches of sec 1s recruited in each year,
and batches and batches of sec 4s passing out each year,
and batches and batches of sec 3s going for ANCO each year,
and batches and batches of sec 2s getting naughty and rebellious each year..
and batches and batches of graduated members going to OTC,
i dun really have dreams for the corps as yet,
like becoming certain kinda structure etc,
but at least, i hope that we can bring back to the corps,
the 10 year consecutive gold unit award..
that's for short term goal at least? =)
and then,
what i hope to see in the kids is that they would do their best,
and then become people who would do their best,
not only in SJ,
but also in all aspects of their lives..
and then,
for the kids,
they don't have to be the best in every single thing,
but i hope to see them shine and give their best in every single thing..
i want them to feel that they have had a fulfilling SJ life,
with loads of things to miss,
and loads of things to remember..
and loads of friends to last a lifetime..
most importantly,
i want to, for once,
protect the kids..
or maybe as many people in my corps as possible..
i want to protect them like how i was protected,
i want to let them see/feel the ideal situation/circumstance at least for once..
well, of course, not by spoon-feeding..
cox if i wanna spoon-feed, i might as well do it myself..
i want to let them feel that they are not neglected,
and feel that they are not alone..
i may not be the one there for them,
but i hope that they can have someone there for them..
in conclusion,
i hope that GESS SJAB would become a FAMILY...
=)
as for the zone,
i love the zone as well,
wells, i understand,
of course, zone is less prioritized than corps,
for me la...
but then,
despite sometimes understanding/seeing/hearing more "adult-world" stuff in zone,
zone is still somewhere important for me,
because i find that in zone 10,
we are truly welfared,
and the way we do things,
in comparison to others,
is rather flexible and nice..
and through the zone i gained a lot,
and learned a lot..
and what i can do is simply just try my best to help out whereever i can,
in the sub-committees etc..
there's little i can do,
but it's better than not doing anything right? =)
as for myself,
i hope to become an officer,
that is not greeted because i have that diamond-shape on my shoulder,
but is greeted because i deserve to be,
and also,
i hope that i can be like those who have inspired me,
and go on to inspire people i contact with...
especially the younger ones..
and, not only in SJ,
but in my life itself..

whether i can reach all these that i have stated,
is up to my actions starting from now on..
but what i can say is that,
no matter what,
i would never ever ever let go of SJ,
i would never quit SJ,
because i stayed on,
not because of the kids,
not because of my seniors,
not because of Jie,
not because of the corps,
not because of the zone,
not because of CCA points,
not because of resume,
but because of myself..
because i want to..
no doubt, i want to serve the corps and the zone,
i want to guide the kids,
i want to help my seniors,
i am influenced by Jie,
but the core of me staying on in SJ,
is still the fire that burns in my heart..
it's not called passion, it's called commitment.. =)

the sentence that i like most from GESS school song
"A Dragon For Fire Of Leadership"
it's a drive, and an inspiration..

Anyoung~ JA~