GESS..

after going back yesterday,
and after all these things all the while,
i came to confirm that,
GESS changed..
a lot..
but is it for the better or for the worse?
what my batch of "chosen 10" faced back then,
i may not know,
but i believe,
it has escalated to a whole new height,
that particular matter..
between the two particular groups..
as i was there to witness the born of the younger of the two,
i knew how it started,
somehow or rather,
i was there when my seniors started it,
and i was there when my peers vexed over it,
and now that my juniors are facing it,
somehow,
through them,
i feel that things have become more and more complicated..
to the extend that it became a battle between the 2 groups,
and it is a war of survival?
the one that aided in the starting up of the other,
is facing a crisis, and is struggling, giving its all to survive..
my juniors,
at the age of 15,
facing such matter,
is not something easy..
and in a way,
though the presence of the younger group,
inevitably provided motivation of some sort for the older group to improve,
but,
"Synergy" was one word used in the younger group,
and i DO NOT see nor feel any synergy from it..
instead, i see that there is a push for revolution, or rebellion, in a way..
can anyone imagine what will happen to GESS if the older group disappears?
right now, even in its existence,
i see year 1 girls with minischoolskirts,
i see fully tucked out shirts EVERYWHERE,
i see foul-mouthed GESSians, speaking every form of vulgar language that they know of like their life depended on it..
i see incooperative, disgusting hypocrites who behaved well only in front of authorities, or only after they're told off..
i know, it's the same everywhere,
i know, in the eyes of my seniors, i myself, or my batch, would seem so too,
but, i really wonder if that was because of the politics between the 2 groups,
that the normal student population is so aware of,
that caused the student population to totally disregard the groups,
because to them the 2 groups doesn't seem like leaders anymore?
maybe the politics going on between the 2 just became a variety show to the rest of the school,
and everyone is just waiting to see what happens to in the end..
one teacher who started the reform of the older group ever told us before,
we, the people in this particular group,
are all like "celebs",
only difference between us and celebs is that,
for celebs, both positive and negative are made a big deal of,
but for us,
we serve the school by doing the "dirty job" of discipline,
and whatever good that we did,
it will be pass off as "part of our duties"
but on the other hand,
whatever bad that we did,
it will be magnified like a hundred times,
and a big big deal will be made out of it,
that's why all the more we have to behave,
and do everything to uphold the image of our group..
and i find that what he said makes sense..
because this kinda identity is what is lacking in the younger group..
no doubt, both groups are leaders of the school,
but the older group is the upholder of discipline in the school,
the younger group,
they lead, they're good,
but do the lead by example?
they have the influence,
but are they positive influences for the followers?
yes, you may say that i was only in the younger group for 2 years or less,
i wouldn't understand,
but, trust me,
without the older group,
GESS is nothing,
and a lot of things in GESS would disintegrate,
a lot of things would turn into a mess..
to GESS, the older is indispensible,
bu the younger group,
i don't really think i can say the same for it,
maybe it might be able to become like that in the future,
but the major flaw in it is the group's lack of discipline,
and the lack of commitment in the group..
if given a choice to the members of the group,
i think they'd easily choose their CCAs or the older group over the younger group..
that's what i think..
and yes,
no doubt the younger group,
it is still in its first 5 years..
it's still to early to judge,
but seriously,
if ever the older group is eliminated,
then i think GESS will become a place that,
seniors would prefer not to go back,
and the graduates from GESS from then on,
unfortunately, might be childish indisciplined people who needs to be told what to do before knowing how to act on it,
and the teachers would have a hell of a time to even teach..

okay,
end of my thoughts,
i do hope that GESS see the importance of the older group,
and, right now,
i think that the only thing that needs reform,
is the structure of how the older and younger group should work,
and the areas of the school they are serving in..
that's in my opinion la..
alright,
enough said,
JA~