S O R R Y







today you talked to me about things that i was curious about all the while,
things that you've never told me about,
things that i totally wasn't aware of up until now,
right now what i feel is mixed feelings,
happy over the fact that i feel like i understand you more now,
that what i thought was correct,
all the while your character has been one of mysterious and unknown,
out of reach, i guess?
and then today, after what you told me, i feel that i understand you a little better,
but, on the other hand,
i realised that for the past 6 years that i've known you,
i'm only knowing your happy shell,
and i wasn't a fren to you,
because i was one of those who said all those nasty things to you,
and one of those who constantly joked about matters you are sensitive to,
and bullied you through saying all those bad stuff,
making life more miserable for you, when life's not all that great for you to begin with..
i'm really really sorry that for the past 6 years, i've never really understood you properly,
i'm sorry that i've hurt you with stupid words coming outta my mouth brainlessly,
i'm sorry that i even thought i was a friend, when i didn't understand you at all to begin with...
i'm really sorry about all these things...
and you know you dun have to smile when you dun feel like it,
you know you dun have to.