Sorry 姐。

this is what came to my mind after watching a video that jie's friend made for her...
i cried after watching it...
because i suddenly realised,
for the past 17 years,
i have failed as a sister...
i realised that there's a lot a lot of Jie that i don't understand...
despite sleeping in the same room everyday,
despite seeing each other everyday,
how much do i understand her?
i wonder...
i'm seriously really sorry.
i don't know what else to say...
i can't believe that for the past 17 years,
i didn't understand my sis as much as how her friends of less than 10 years understands her...
i feel so disgusted with myself,
like really, seriously disgusted with myself...