A talking to myself post.

STOP IT~
stop imagining things,
stop thinking about it,
stop..
i dun have the right to think about this kinda thing now,
i am not worthy, you can say..
and i dun have the time either..
moreover,
i know it's impossible..
i have been talking ppl out of this kinda thing..
cause it's futile..
but i find myself in this kinda situation..
the fortunate thing is,
at least, i've already decided that,
this time round, i'm not gonna say anything..
because i know this thing is only gonna last for a short while..
i can get over it..
the last time this happened, was 2 years ago..
and i said it out..
and although i've been ''let down'' gently,
as expected,
things didn't go well after that..
the kizuna was gone,
it doesn't feel normal from then on..
so this time i'm just gonna shut up,
and keep everything to myself..
nobody shall know a single thing..
i don't wanna break any kizuna..
time shall take it all away..
haha..
i'm running away, yes,
i'm a coward..
because i'm happy with the way things are now..
and on top of that,
it's very obvious that it's just me..
haha..
pathetic seh..
but nvm,
i shall forget this soon..
and i shall concentrate on what i should be doing..
okays,
feels much better to get this load off from me..
haha.. =)
it's just childish infatuation on my part,
nothing more..
it's easy to get rid of..
i hate myself for being so childish..
this kinda thing kept on repeating..
it's stupid..
damn..
why am i such a pathetic person who gets caught in stupid situations like that??
haix~
i can get over it..
yes i can.. =)