Went to PS with Cherie and Esther today~
initially wanted to buy stuff for Esther de..
butthen~
0_0
mao mao~
it's a good day out together..
even though we didn't really manage to get much stuff generally,
and never managed to get any presents,
but i kinda feel happy just going out together.. =D

hmmm..
got myself 2 presents..
Domo's HP pouch!
and Rilakkuma notebook! =D
okays,
i'm a weird person...
since probably Pri4 or sth,
i have the habit of buying myself birthday presents..
haha.. =P
i think probably cox nobody ever remembered my birthday last time...
because i was so much of a jerk..
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but then now,
with impt like my tomodachis rmbing my birthday,
i think why i still kept this weird habit,
is probably cos it's kinda bad to get presents from friends..
like make them spend money just cox of 1 day..
it's like daily stuff is so demanding financially..
i think i prefer for them to actually just have a meal with me...
it's fine even if it's at hawker centre...
i just really love the fact that at least you rmbed...
=)


and, now, seriously, i feel like crying...
just exactly what is wrong?
you all dun like the way i do things?
or the deadlines i set?
or just basically got something against me?
it's your glory,
to achieve it you need to put in your effort,
but why is it that you people can't seem to be bothered?
what is with not meeting deadlines,
what is so damn difficult about coming up with a schedule?
i'm not studying in sec sch,
i DON'T UNDERSTAND, right...
i seriously dun understand,
there's only that bit of time left,
why is it that you people can't just sprint for that bit,
and then you get to sit down a bit before you continue the journey for other stuff...
yes, i admit that i'm not doing enough for SJ,
i admit i never thot whether you people are tired of SJ or not...
but i just wanna try to help right?
like i'm not good enough to train,
i wanna get help,
but without your schedule i can't do anything right?
i initially thought of planning the schedule and just throw it at you people when the coordinating part is done...
but i asked seniors and was told that i should let you all plan..
but now this..
but anyways,
even if i set dates,
you people probably wouldn't care, you wouldn't come too..
tell me what you want,
seriously...
i wouldn't say i'm heartbroken,
because i don't have the right to be,
i'm just extra right?
doing redundant stuff..