P A I N F U L


i overreacted,
and nearly caused disaster...
but, seriously,
it's just so painful to me...
it's not just s little bit of pain,
it's cutting..
maybe because i included too much personal emotion,
maybe because here everyone is falling ill and still working hard,
such things happen, that threatens to crumble SJ if principals etc knew..
we are unanimously blacklisted in school by someone of authority,
and this kinda thing has to happen...
just when we are fighting to make 2010 a better year for all,
to change people's view of SJ,
to get back our gold,
to do better,
this came..
no doubt it's true that it happened,
but laugh at you? i dun think so,
and then, i would very much preferred if you told me in the face about this,
it's easier to improve this way..
i dunno, i just dunno,
i only know that it's really really painful..
and it's just so weird to be crying out of anger and desperation...