Stranded, uncertain, scared...


i never felt as stranded as today,
because, went to the industrial park in Bedok North,
super super long bus trips,
along the way the surroundings get more and more foreign to me,
not sure of whether the buses would get me to the place i wanna go,
the sky turns darker and darker with each bus stop passed,
plus in the industrial parks, all the factories looks like super blown-up lego cubes,
it's kinda scary, in a way..
to think that i left school at around 4pm,
settled everything and reached home at around 8.45pm..
it's like so long, i didn't expect it to take so much time..
and the weird layout of the factory that i went to,
had to walk long empty corridors alone for 3 sides of a square..
(can understand ma?)
i felt rather insecured..
cox it's just so empty..
like, would i get lost?
and then, on the bus, as the sky gets darker,
i kept having the urge to just not go to the factory and head home instead..
but we don't have anymore time.. have to get it done..
and also, when in the factory, i had the urge to call someone..
to tell someone how scared i was, how uncertain i felt..
but i dunno who i should call,
and it's not good to be calling anyone just cox of that, right?
on the long long long bus trips i had,
the cold air-con on the bus..
it's like, weirdly, the loneliness pours in,
and it's a lil overwhelming...
to think that a somone like me would say that?
haha~
maybe i'm just being an idiot,
but going all the way there alone,
is really rather scary..
and then it feels a little like the dementors just came..
makes you feel like you're alone in the fight..
that kinda feeling..
haha~

okay, i'll go sleep..
it's 2.15am..
JA~