when sleeping becomes scary..



i had the worst headache of my life,
it begun when i was on the way to HQ for zone meeting..
i thought maybe i just needed some rest..
but during zone meeting, it felt worse...
but i endured through the meeting,
and on the way home,
i vomitted..
i thought something must be very wrong..
but i didn't dare say anything to daddy and mummy..
because if they knew,
then they'll probably ground me and ban me from every single SJ matter..
which is what i cannot afford right now...
only Jie knew about it last night before i came home..
i made her promise not to tell daddy, mummy, and anyone in zone 10..
because i don't want anyone to feel guilty..
it's not anyone's fault, AT ALL..
last night i didn't really use my comp,
and the work that i'm supposed to complete, wasn't completed, sorry.. ><
and when extra strong painkillers didn't help at all,
i suddenly got afraid..
because i thought there was sth very wrong if it hurts to this extend,
and the fact that even my nose and my jaws hurt..
i didn't dare to sleep,
because i was afraid i'll never get to wake up today..
i'm scared i'd just die like that..
in the end i slept at 2plus, 3...
and i didn't know how i fell asleep..
and, i lied to Ai Suan that it was a fren who got this headache,
to ask for advice..
Thanks Ai Suan..
really sorry that i lied to you.. ><
i didn't mean to, but then, i thought if i told you straightaway it's me,
you would've worried, or sth.. ><
sorry for being dishonest..
and sorry that i told you today morning and woke you up.. ><
but thank goodness that i recovered today morning..
if not i would've need to see doctor..
but i didn't go down to training today..
sorry '07..
i've been skipping training too much.. =(
didn't mean to always do that..
really sorry..

now, i'm really thankful that i managed to wake up today..
and i shall do my best to complete all the things i have to do..
JA~