what do you fucking want?

are we just simply not allowed to have any entertainment or any friends or do something that we want to do?
i give you a comp, teach you all the stupid things, you CONFIRM will do the same as what we are doing now, so you shut up.
just cox you're my dad, i respect you,
alot of things i wanted to say in your fucking face i swallowed it down.
you always want things your way,
you spare a thot for us, yes,
but you got think from our point of view not?
SJ is not a burden or a CCA.
yes you will think that's stupid.
but trust me, without SJ, your daughters would've become bitches and idiots who dun know how to care for other people.
why are you so fucking selfish?
and you're not working now,
why are you bloody stressing youself?
you're my mum, yes, i should help you,
but why is it that doing housework will make you think we're treating you as maid or sth?
yes we are wrong for not helping,
but can you like stop complaining?
i dunno.
maybe if this continues,
i dunno what i'll do.
this is the fucking family i love, the one that i thot was my pillar.
apparently not.
why am i always in the wrong. just freaking why?
maybe my time in this world is up, i should just go and die.
at least at that point of time, you will be sad,
at that point of time, you cry for a few days,
you will get over it and move on,
then maybe this family will seem happier.