shiro

i feel really bad now.
because those people who knew,
they're kinda starting to view you in a negative light.
this is so not fair to you.
it's not like you knew,
it's not as if you are aware,
but somehow they're viewing things in a such a way that you're the one at fault.
right now the only thing i can do for you,
the only way i can protect you,
is to pretend that i'm disappearing,
to pretend that i'm getting over,
to pretend that i'm letting go
to pretend that i don't care anymore.
because if i show that i care alot,
if i continue being emo upset etc,
they'll continue thinking that you're a bad person,
when you're actually not.
you're just ignorant and ignorant people would behave in this manner,
because you don't know.
sky blue i hope you're well.
i hope that you won't be misunderstood anymore,
i hope that nothing unfair or unjust would happen to you.
the only thing i can do now is to maybe,
try to move on from this futile feelings that i have.
even though i know it's not gonna be easy,
cox 18 years in my life, this is the first time i feel this way,
haha, it's not a crush mr dear sky blue.
if it is a crush, it would've been way easier to get over,
if it's a crush i wouldn't be knitting for my bear in white wool now.
though that's entirely coincidental.

jie, if you read this, stop thinking that sky blue is bad alright?
cox sky blue is just ignorant, sky blue doesn't know,
that's why sky blue behaves that way,
that's all. =)