thinking too much.


this is one thing i tend to do.
haha.
the one thing that makes me such an irritating person,
i'm not emoing,
i chose not to think too much.
there's no point in it cox you'll never know.
but sometimes i do wonder,
maybe it's cox it's you thus i think so much.
thinking so much, is not good,
what lauting and lester said is true.
shouldn't think too much.
=)

one thought just suddenly crossed my mind.
the end of the story seems quite obvious.
maybe my very very initial decision to do things the same way as 3 years ago was correct.
just that i inflict all these pain on myself by allowing all these feelings to continue.
maybe that's the reason why i think we're very weird right now.
maybe if i didn't harbour such feelings,
we wouldn't be so weird.
i wouldn't feel so weird.
i wouldn't be thinking about end of YOG and the uncertainty that follows,
i wouldn't be feeling like crying while making some stuff for you.
i wouldn't be fearing losing you even as a friend, as a twinnie.
it's all self-inflicted.
and then again it's me and my stupid think too much once again.
and that is self-inflicted pain for nothing.
haha~
this is how stupid and troublesome i am.