#500


surprisingly, my blog has hit blog post number 500.
haha~
it's been so dead. this blog.
okay actually not really.
after privating and opening up this blog a few times,
in the end i still end up opening up.
even though i know a certain sectionmate (hi Joson!) of mine is reading,
and the fact that he's squadmates with twinnie.
but Joson wun tell twinnie about my blog, he said so, and he's a sectionmate i can trust! =)
thanks Joson! hehe~

life has been, well, kinda school and YOG based.
realised that i missed out on alot of SJ stuff.
been a long while since i went back to corps.
and it's so sad! i'm not involved in AGI.
=(
i dislike being so uninvolved in SJ~
it feels so sad.
i'm not barred but why do i feel like i am barred?
haha~

hmmm, i guess maybe, deep down inside
just this one part of me, might've wanted you, twinnie, to chance upon this stupid blog.
and read all those peach font coloured posts.
that might've been the reason why i still opened up this blog for anyone to read,
it's damn easy to find my blog you know,
just google my full name.
hahaha~
suddenly i feel so disgusted with myself.
why would i want you to know?
actually it's nothing shameful, the main reason why i didn't tell you is cox i dun wanna damage our friendship,
and also i'm not sure whether you can take it.
i'm perfectly fine with you not feeling the same and we continue being friends you know.
okay, of course i do hope we can be together.
but sometimes i just feel that 我配不上你。
ya. so if you dun feel the same, i'm fine, but are you?
i dun want you to carry a burden of guilt knowing that i like you.
i dun want you to suffer like how 她 suffered because of the 木头。
that's all i'm concerned with.

and and, sorry if i think too much,
but recently. i'm not sure anymore.
previously, i was rather certain you dun feel the same way.
but recently some parts of you are really weird you know.
misleading idiot. haha =P
but then again, today when i was being a whiner and saying i want a giant carebear
you said "ask your future BF to buy for you"
zzzzzzzz.
totally. what if i said "you"
LOL. i bet you're just gonna offline immediately and run away
so stop misleading me =X
hahaha, joking la.

i just realised how much i dun understand you.
i didn't want to talk so much, cox i'm not supposed to be disturbing you,
yet we talked a fair bit.
i wanted to whine, but i know i shouldn't thus i didn't
but in the end you still listened to me talk about a certain topic.
and by the time i realised that i talked too much,
i already talked too much,
and yet again, you, as nice as usual, just told me "it's okay"
idiot =)


你说：“向左向右向前看 爱要拐几个弯才来 我遇见谁会有怎样的对白 我等的人她在多远的未来”

我想告诉你：“阴天傍晚车窗外 未来有一个人在等待”， 我希望等你的那个人，可以是我。

哈哈，我还蛮不要脸的。=X
但说真的，我希望可以等你，而且，就在不久的将来。