Update!!!


right, update about my life.
random ttm. hahaha, but i realised that my blog is so much about one topic,
too much, in fact. haha~

holidays, or should i say, 3 weeks break started last weekend.
it's a break, but, hmmmm, got alot of things going on.
i need to wake up my idea and study for that 3 impt papers.
to get the 3.0 GPA that i promised LauTing. =)
so, after this week i think i would rather much find more time to study.
would prevent myself from going out too much altogether.
save moneh also!! hahaha~

this whole week, has been eventful. and i'm not complaining.
let's start from last saturday then.

saturday was YOG training,
it's so cool that they had fireworks for the rehearsal!
hehe. and staff maaaaaaa(haha) said that what we saw was only 10% of the actual day's fireworks. i can't wait for actual day nowwwww xD
some very nice person who's my only twinnie in this world was very nice,
as usual. thank you~ =)
i said it once before, and i'll say it again,
you would always manage to put a smile on my face.
and it was the first time you straightaway "my parents will send you home"
hahaha~ feels paiseh and kinda guilty. but really thankful for that. =)

sunday was cousins' outing. had kbox, movie, dinner, haagen daz~
hehehehehehehehehe~
kbox was kinda fun, though seem kinda short, and we were all singing emo songs,
dunno why. it's fun, but diff from kbox family. haha~
maybe cox kbox family, we have all the weird things we do in kbox! =P
the movie, erm, made no sense to me, so like, ya, liddat lor =X
then had dinner at NYNY~ ate soooo much
but still had space for haagen daz~
ate sth called paradise. haha! love the raspberry and mango sorbet! xD
okay i prefer sorbet to creamy icecream, that's why. LOL.
in conclusion, i love haagen daz!!
oh, and i found out that kelvin kor knew pohwei's brother(or rather staff teo)
haha~ the world is damn small. or maybe singapore is. =X

monday was kbox family outing.
had dinner at justacia at marina square,
then watched fireworks from a different viewpoint.
hahaha~
and twinnie got the chance to watch NDP live!!!!!
i want also. sian~
to think that 18 years of my life, i have never watched NDP live.
hahaha~
nvm, i shall try getting tickets next year!
new item on my wishlist: to watch NDP live before i turn 21.
haha~ =P
and erm, my attitude was bad towards lao san,
but not cox of him, cox i think in a way you behaving weirdly,
like not yourself. like you were making yourself seem stupid,
but you're not a stupid girl you know.
but in any case, i apologise for all the GL-ness and the unhappiness.
maybe i should've told you instead of GL you. sorry.
hmmm, in the end,
lester, lauting and i randomly went to suntec to walk walk,
then meet twinnie after his NDP and dinner.
LOL~ alot of random things happen.
such random things are precious cox it's with kbox family~
i love all of you ppl~ =)

tuesday was outing with OT5 to celebrate hime's birthday!
it has been 3 long months since we meet up.
had fun wearing the hats in fish and co!
and hope hime likes the present i gave! xD
though it's like nothing much =X
sadly, because i wasn't hardworking enough,
i had to go back to school to submit tutorials,
and thus i left after having lunch with OT5.
i'm sorry, really sorry.
i promise this wun happen the next time we meet up.
and my laptop has gone bonkers,
i can't play sound without using earpiece.
need to send for servicing=inconvenience! =(
but i think i'll send for servicing anyway~
i dun want a problematic yousuke.
yousuke~ please get well.

today was YOG again!!
haha, today i was late for training.
would've overslept if twinnie didn't wake me up.
thanks twinnie~ =)
it rained heavily today,
and i got wet from head to toe.
eventually the rain stopped and twinnie and i was able to look for lester and lauting at marina square. hehe.
had fun roaming around,
and we got one part of twinnie's present! a vest!
he said he like it on the spot. but was super reluctant to let us buy.
giving all sorts of excuses. LOL.
but too bad. we did it anyway! hehe~ =D
then had dinner together before twinnie and i head back to f1 pit.
hmmm, realised that unexpectedly, someone opened up about himself to me,
abit? maybe cox i myself am the think too much kind or sth,
so can sense that person's "pattern" or rather,
the way he thinks.
but i feel like i'm damn weird. maybe cox, this friend is the americanised kind.
haha~ grabbing me by the neck and shoulder etc.
i'm not exactly used to it.
maybe cox i didn't exactly do that alot with friends.
or rather, i do that only with girls before, i think? =X
sorry if i was weird. really didn't mean it.
hmmm, anyways,
i realised that i am tired from YOG simply cox of the fact that we walk alot.
hahaha~
keep walking and walking and walking.
that's the only tiring part.
other than that, YOG is simply enjoyable ttm! =D
it's an experience that only we will share, once in a lifetime ppl!

okay, and then,
as all those who read my blog should know,
i'm gonna talk about that one topic.
LOL. expectedly.
okay. today i made a really, weird and, i would say, need me to go beyond my comfort zone choice.
i passed lauting that diary to read.
i wondered whether i should've let her read it.
cox it was stuff meant for your eyes,
or rather, it was all about you.
it felt weird to let her read.
but one thing is, lauting is someone i can really trust.
someone i can tell everything to.
so in the end i decided to let her read it.
which i found weird, i didn't had reasons to. but ya.
i wonder if end of the day, i'm not exactly sure whether you will get to read it or not.
and i wonder if letting you read it would hurt you in any way,
so lauting as someone i can really trust,
maybe she could've scanned through the diary. =X
hmmm and recently,
though we didn't talk much,
i'm not that upset.
rather than that,
i would be more upset when you are upset.
thing about not talking much is that,
i can't be there for you when you need someone, cox i wun be able to know.
but i really really dun dare to talk to you.
because i dun want to waste any of your time,
but when we do talk,
sometimes it's just so nice.
like how you actually acted cute on msn.
haha~ =)
we seem to be running outta topics?
i'm not sure, maybe there are alot of differences between us.
i wonder.
i will tell myself to stop being so whiny and reliant and dependent on you,
and stop bullying you, because everything is already taking a toll on you.
i'm really scared you're too stress to a point where you can't handle it anymore.
i dun want that to happen to you, ever.
and random thing,
i realised we've been calling each other by name recently, instead of twinnies.
is that a good sign or bad sign?
i'm just afraid of growing distant. that's all.
after YOG, what exactly would happen?
i'm just so used to the fact that i will always see you soon.
so much so that, i think once YOG ends,
there'd be times i will miss you. really miss you.
but once YOG ends, you have to really sprint for your dreams.
you've been lagging, i realised.
that's not good. you want to go far, and you should sprint.
like how you motivated me to study hard, i hope to do the same for you.
i shall think about it and find a way to do that.
with minimal disturbance for you, of course.
and on a sidenote, your birthday,
haha, wonder if you will like what we're gonna do to you.
and that box of randomness, i haven't even started yet.
i've got a problem thinking about what i should write. =X
alright, one thing i'm sorry about is that, when you care and try to make me sleep earlier,
i've never once heed your advice.
it's so late right now, close to 3, and i'm still awake.
this is how bad i am. =X
but but, i promise you i will listen to you and sleep earlier. =)
thank you for always being so nice,
and for bearing with a siaoginna twinnie like me.
sometimes i wonder what exactly will happen.
and then thinking about you going to NS and signing on,
wonders if you're gonna come back to SJ.
what does SJ mean to you?
i'm sure right now it means alot. but after NS?
SJ means alot to me you know.
i really hope to see you back in SJ.
cox SJ is where i got to know you, got to understand more about you, and got to like you.
it's all cox of SJ.
and more than anything, SJ is the love of my life.
random random me with random random thoughts. =X

haha~
i'm turning so so so random here.
i just realised i've written alot in the past 1 hour.
LOL~ that was how long it took for me to type this post.
right, i shall now go to sleep.
JA~