updates!!!!


okay i was trying to update yesterday but somehow i was too lazy to even watch liar game,
so ya, i'm back here today~
erm, my life has been, well, like that lor.
feels damn zai that we had YOG training everyday since last sunday.
went to YCK stadium to watch AGI rehearsals last sunday
bought tonns of sweets and chocs and biscuits and rubbish for the kids
and also for meimei lester and deardear~
hope you all liked all the stuff!!! =D
went to YOG training afterwards,
then the following days were all sleeping till rather late timing followed by YOG training.
i'm starting to really miss those training days,
when we would whine and complain and talk alot of rubbish
yet still attend every single training.
hehe~
and oh did i mention, china decided to change the anthem to the 40+ seconds one,
one day before the closing,
so we trained on the night before closing,
when warrant sanep actually didn't want us to.
in the end,
admist all the changes and everyone getting stressed and stuff,
we managed to do a perfect job only on the actual one!!!!!
phew~~~ damn cool~
kudos to flag raisers benedict and twinnie!
had random fun after the end of closing ceremony~
then cabbed home on my own,
tired to the point that i bathed and slept immediately..
hope the end of YOG isn't the end of the YOG flag party~~~
let's still meetup kay?
meanwhile jiayous to the poly kids who're having exams,
and all the best to JC kids for promos and A levels! =)
after YOG it really seems like there's too much time.
friday was spent meeting with lester and deardear at HQ~
then went home
saturday was spent teaching heartsaver for one whole day,
then had dinner with double As, laosan, huiying deardear and lester~
tiong bahru market, somewhere i haven't been to for a long while.
i ate too much i think, wayyyyyyy too much~~~
time to exercise, after my exams though~ haha~
oh and!!!! amelia's sister is an officer.
and it took me half a day to realise. how stupid can i be.
she's damn nice~ and we are rather much tuned to a similar frequency~~
hehe~
had fun teaching heartsaver with her~~ =D
more of such life support courses to come, i believe?
hmmm, today was spent sleeping till afternoon,
and staying at home slacking facebooking watching dramas and attempting to study.
this sucks.
i need to buck up so that i can score well.
cox i promised deardear and i want to reach that level as well,
and also cox twinnie says "3.0 is too low already"
wahhhhhhhhh
feels damn challenged. LOL~
but i shall do it! i will do it!!! =D

suddenly i feel like telling you everything,
just simply everything,
i dunno why i feel like we're like heading towards being strangers.
i know i shouldn't and i know i dun have the guts to tell you before your A levels are over.
i'm just contradicting myself and wallowing in self-pity,
thinking that oh, i'm very emo cox we're not talking etc.
i care too much for myself,
i feel disgusted with myself about it.
that's why i am trying my best to stop myself from talking to them about you.
cox there's no point. in the end the conclusion i get is still the same.
but i'm being so paranoid and irritating
i'm flinching at the very small slightest things.
things like us not talking
things like there's no more oyasuminasai, it's always a goodnight now,
things like you changing your facebook profile pic
things like i dun even know what's going on in your life now,
things like how i can guess that you are still talking on msn with other people, just not me,
things like how i think that end of YOG makes you happy cox you'll be rid of me
things like how i think i'm really irritating,
things like how if yingying didn't like that wall post you wun even bother.
i'm just the one making myself feel horrible
it's got nothing to do with others, nothing to do with you either,
it's just me, i'm so irritating and disgusting.
maybe deep inside one corner of my heart,
i hope that i can tell you. tell you asap,
but then that's really not possible right now,
so ya, end of the day, i just ran one round again,
one full circle and arrive at the same old conclusion,
i should shut my trap and continue like that.
simple as that.